Here it is!! Finally. I had to hijack my roommates laptop and steal the WiFi from someone in my building named Kim who doesn't know how to protect her network. A big thank you for Kim everyone. APPLAUSE.

Last chapter with journal entries. TEAR. Everyone takes turns telling Edward what he already knows. It's kinda filler but the next chapter is done. So…

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Jan 16, 2019

Edward thinks we should leave. In fact, that's pretty much the only thing he's said to me in the last 3 days. Otherwise he's been avoiding me like the plague. Not just because of me, there are werewolves about. Carlisle thought they were long since extinct but Alice said that he met with a guy named Sam to make sure the treaty was still in place. OH YA, did I mention there are werewolves?

"You got it bad."

"I have know idea what you think I have or why you'd think I'd care."

"Yes you do. A) you read my mind and B) a girl knows these things."

Edward stared doubtfully back at his sister who was edging him on with her wide grin. "I think you have an overactive imagination Rose."

"Nope, I never bet against Alice."

I'm still trying to sell them all on staying. I really want that job at the bookstore. I want to connect with the people I might have been friends with if I had stayed. I want to learn more about my parents. I decided yesterday there is only one way to do that. I just had to ask.

"Even you can't hide your feelings from me."

"Don't you think I know that."

"She's old enough now. Today…"

"Old enough. I'm over a hundred and you think she's old enough."

"Physically… yea. And emotionally." Jasper paused to consider his words carefully. "Her feeling are changing too."

Edward rolled his eyes at his brother. "Changing how exactly."

"They're maturing. She's growing into herself emotionally. You and her are closer then ever. I'm just saying it's not unthinkable."

Edward smiled and nodded. Then he laughed out loud.

What's so funny?

"Not 'unthinkable' that a vampire fell for the girl he adopted 12 years earlier, that he has to fight his true nature around everyday. Let alone hope that one day she might feel the same."

Jasper let out a laugh himself. "Obviously not that unthinkable."

I asked Billy to meet me at the cemetery. I knew he cared because he never gave up the search for me, he even came close to catching up with us once. Despite Edward's warning that I should steer clear, I had to learn more. And I did. We laughed and cried over the silliest of things. He told me about my short time with my parents and some stories from before. He shared some more pictures with me and told me some stories about his family. Apparently Jake had quite the unrequited crush when we were younger. Our parents always joked that if I had him as wrapped around my finger at that age that he would have given me the world by age 8.

I wonder what Edward would think about that.

"So you like her?"

"What?" Edward asked stunned at Emmett's forwardness.

"You like Bella, right?" I was sure he liked her.

"Ummm, it's just no one has come right out and said it like that before." He was having trouble himself just coming out and saying it.

"Uhhh. Hmmm," Emmett patted him hard on the back.

"Spit it out brother."

"It's not that." Edward took a deep breath. "It's just… I don't think 'like' even begins to cover it." He smiled sheepishly and averted his eyes.

"Wow dude,. You got it bad."

"And you and Rose are so alike it scares me."

Who am I kidding. He doesn't think about me that way. He only kissed me because he was scared for me … and confused. Do I want him to think of me that way? Do I think of him that way? Now I'm the only one that's confused.

"Don't say it Alice."

"Say what." She asked waving her shoulders innocently from side to side.

"You know what."

"I do?"

"Yup."

"And you know what it is I was going to say?"

"Yup."

"And…"

"I'm going to do something about it. Tonight."

Alice squealed loudly and threw her arms around Edward's waist. "It's the perfect timing. Her party is going to be amazing and you are going to look dashing. The night will be right out of a fairy tale." A blissful smile broke out across her face.

"Seventeen. I can't believe she's turning seventeen."

"Who me?" Bella said from the doorway still in her favourite pj's and hadn't brushed her hair yet.

Edward pulled her into a hug and twirled her around while she giggle, slapping him playfully on the back. Tonight he was going to tell her how he felt.

"Of course it's you." He said as he placed her right again. "Happy Birthday Bella."

Boys.

Vampires!!

Something's going on downstairs. I should probably ….

"Hello Bella."

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