HEART PANGS
Dean stretched feeling a relaxation he never knew possible and a soft delicious heat pressed against him and the night came back to him.
He was lying on his stomach still very much naked and Arandi was there with him sleeping soundly.
She was so beautiful and she had made his journey to adulthood unforgettable.
He lifted himself up to look into her face and her eyes drifted open. He leaned in to kiss her gently and she sighed caressing his face.
"How long before you have to go back to your room?" She asked.
"I got a couple of hours." He answered feeling the heat bubbling as she ran her fingers over his back.
"Good." She said shoving him onto his back and crawling on top of him.
Dean moaned lost the instant he was sheathed in her heat again. He knew nothing but pleasure as she kissed him and rode him within an inch of his life.
His mellowed brain processed the thought of how it truly was humane to save horses and ride cowboys, namely him and oh yeah, oh fuck the hell yeah.
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Dean stumbled once trying to get to his room, Sam had left a window unlocked in his mom's sewing room which she hardly ever used and they had slipped inside.
Dean was barely settling under his covers when he heard the door to his parent's room open and their voices coming to his room to check on him.
He hoped that he faked sleep well.
"Do you think it was such a good idea to let him get involved with Arandi John?" Mary whispered.
"Let him get involved? Mary you know as well as I do that denying that boy would only result in him getting into every world of shit out there to get what he wanted."
"Like father like son." Mary chuckled.
"Exactly, how many times did I get grounded trying to see you when my momma said 'no way are you dating that hussy.'"
"John Winchester hush before you wake him." Mary huffed.
He heard his dad laugh as he closed the door and his mom's muffled squeals of protest when he tickled her.
Dean squirmed to get comfortable and he realized that he was smiling like a loon. If someone had told him that he was going to lose his virginity on his birthday he would have said they were nuts. Instead he'd gotten his nuts emptied deliciously and fuck just the thought was making him really squirm.
Somewhere in the warmth of the memories he drifted to sleep.
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Arandi sat on her bed freshly showered brushing her hair slowly. Dean had taught her a lesson, he might have been innocent but he was quick on the uptake and fuck he had brought her pleasure that no other man ever had.
Why had she gotten in over her head? Dean was in her thoughts and she couldn't afford this and she didn't want to hurt Dean and now there was probably no way to avoid it.
"Damn it." She growled.
"What are you going to do Arandi?" Jade broke into her thoughts.
"I don't want to hurt him but what choice do I have now?"
"You could choose him, he makes you happy." Jade said helpfully.
"I would choose him but you know my happiness doesn't mean crap in our lives and I can't choose him." Arandi said angrily.
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Dean had slept till one then showered and dressed heading to Arandi's cabin to see if she had eaten yet. Maybe he could get her to eat with him in town.
Walking past his mom's garden he pulled his pocket knife and cut the biggest rose he could find.
He couldn't stop smiling and sighing.
He knocked on the door and Arandi answered not looking quite as thrilled as he would have hoped.
"Hey are you ok?" He asked trying to kiss her on the cheek but she turned her head.
"I'm fine Dean what do you want." She huffed.
"I wanted to see if you'd eat with me in town."
"No thanks I'm not hungry right now." She answered moving away from him.
His hopes fell and he really didn't want to mope. "Did I do something wrong?"
Arandi spun on him. "I thought you were different but you're just like all the men I've met once you think you're in you just don't know how to back off."
She was about to come face to face with the Winchester temper she had heard mentioned by Mary.
Instant fury blazed in Dean's eyes, good if he was mad at her he wouldn't be hurt so badly.
"Whoa just a fucking minute you put a buffet in front of a hungry man and he's going to eat." Dean snapped.
Arandi felt as if she'd been slapped.
Dean saw the hurt flash in her eyes and he realized then how what he had spat out sounded. He was implying that she was easy and that was so not what he meant. Sam always said that he had never developed a brain to mouth filter and he believed it now.
"Arandi I didn't mean…."
"Yes you did now please go." She hissed.
Dean grabbed her arm and she reacted without thought after all she had been trained to defend herself and he went to his knees with a loud oomph when her elbow connected with his gut.
He stumbled to his feet as she stared at him wanting to help but stunned at her immature actions. She saw the hurt in his eyes and not the physical, the exact hurt she wanted nothing more than to ever have let enter his world.
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Dean had stormed away from the cabin afraid that he might actually cry with Arandi's rejection.
How in the hell did his life go from the best day of his life to this? He had pissed her off enough for her to hit him and for a girl she packed a hit.
Did he really come off as the sexual deviant? What the hell was he supposed to do now?
He leaned against the wall in the barn willing the ache in his gut away, he heard Emery, the man that his dad had hired to work for them and decided working for a few hours just might clear his head.
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Arandi had watched Dean storm away and she wanted to tell him that she was sorry but she kept her peace.
She was about to close the door when she saw the rose lying on the ground and she choked on a sob. He couldn't possibly know?
She picked up the lone rose and tears ran down her face, now she was really confused.
A few years back she had prayed that when she met her soul mate she would know him by the single rose that he would give her as a symbol of his love.
Then her whole life had turned.
One rose meant so much more than dozens. She didn't know what to do.
Was the rose a sign or a coincidence?
She needed to clear her mind and nothing worked better for her than training with her horse.
She got dressed and headed to the barn for Winchester. She could hear Dean on the other side of the barn with Emery so she got Winchester ready as fast as she could and rode him into the arena to practice the jumps they had to have down by the time they got back home.
She saw Dean stop working to watch her make the circle to let her horse warm up and she could see he was still very much upset.
She started the jumps and Winchester could do them all perfect except the one where she had to come in at an angle, they never could clear the top bar completely.
After seven tries she was frustrated and pushed Winchester to go faster.
She knew the instant he went in the air that she was going to fall off when she leaned the wrong way. She prepared for the pain not wanting to take the risk of getting dragged.
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Emery was a hard worker but he was a know it all too and Dean wanted to smack him into reality.
The Winchesters did things a certain way and Emery was sure his way was better.
Dean was about to lay into him verbally when he heard someone riding out of the barn and there was Arandi on Winchester looking like a goddess.
He didn't want to watch but his eyes had minds of their own.
She headed to the jumping arena and began to take Winchester in circles for a few minutes and then started jumping.
It was so graceful and stunning to watch that was until the final jump that they failed over and over. Dean could tell Arandi was getting frustrated and he wondered how she would take it that he could tell her exactly what she was doing wrong.
He watched as she made Winchester speed up and that wasn't going to help at all, that was only going to make the horse's body lean heavily the wrong way and…
"Arandi!" He yelled taking off in a dead sprint as he watched her fall hard connecting solid with wall and flipping to the side.
Dean cleared the fence with a one handed vault and did a baseball slide to Arandi's side. She was lying face down unmoving.
He ghosted his hands over her unsure whether to move her or not and then Emery and his dad were at his side.
"Should I call 911?" Emery asked.
"I'm fine." Arandi mumble. "The only thing hurt is my ego." She slowly rolled herself over.
"Thank God." John sighed as he and Emery walked back to the barn.
Dean stood up and offered his hand to her, she took it and he pulled her to her feet. She winced and brushed herself off.
"You want Winchester to make that last jump you need to let him take it at the angle he's coming from stop trying to straighten him out or you're never going to clear it." With that he walked away leaving her where she stood.
Apparently he knew how to hold a grudge and she deserved it.
Winchester nudged her with his nose as if asking her for forgiveness and she patted him reassuringly. "All right let's see if Redford knows what's he's talking about." She pulled herself painfully back onto her horse and made the round again and did exactly as Dean had said and Winchester completed the jump to perfection.
She could see the 'I told you so' blazing in Dean's eyes even from a distance.
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"Emery you can't have those two horses in the same gate." Dean growled.
"Boy I've been taking horses since before you were fighting you're way from you dad's sac." Emery drawled.
"Age don't mean shit when you're dumber than a bag of rocks." Dean countered pulling the horse back towards the barn.
Emery latched onto the other side. "I'm just trying to do what I get paid to do."
"You don't get paid to get the horses riled and potentially hurt." Dean argued.
Sam stood between them and felt like he was watching a tennis match.
"Listen to me boy…." Emery was cut off as the horse reared with the close proximity of the other horse.
Dean hissed in pain as his arm was wrenched hard and he tried to calm the horse. "Get out Sammy, you too Emery." Dean warned as the other horse reared too.
Emery still being the stubborn ass tried to calm the other horse and Dean shoved him out of the way and put himself in front of Sam just before he would have been caught between angry hooves.
The horse Dean was still trying to control spun around throwing Dean into the barn wall and he fell to the ground. A hoof coming down barely a breath from crushing his hand.
He had no hope of getting out of this one unscathed with the two horses rearing right above him.
He scrambled on hands and knees hoping to get clear and then suddenly Winchester was between him and the other horses like a shield with Arandi still riding him.
John and Sam had come running to grab the horses and pull them apart.
"What the hell happened?" John yelled scanning his eyes over Dean to make sure that he was in one piece.
"Dean told me to keep both horses separated but I didn't listen." Emery confessed.
"Emery you may be ages older than my boy but when it comes to horses know how he will outdo you every time so as much as it may pain you when Dean says jump you ask how high got it?"
"Yes sir." Emery said staring at dirt in front of him.
Dean felt swollen with pride that his dad had so much faith in him.
"And don't ever put Sam in danger like that, it's a guaranteed way to get your ass handed to you by a raging bull." John added as he watched Dean prodding at Sam as if Sam had been the one tossed around and on the ground.
Sam just stood letting it happen knowing better than to push an already seething older brother.
Arandi was moving Winchester away back into the barn and Dean made sure that neither of the other horses were hurt and then followed slowly.
He saw her dismount and her knee buckling under the weight. He didn't even realized he had moved but he was suddenly holding her up. He realized then that for her to have put herself in the way like she had with her horse she had gotten her leg caught up in the middle.
"Are you going to let me help you?" He asked.
"I'm fine."
"Oh ok then." Dean said letting her go and she promptly sank to the ground with a groan of pain.
"You can be such a dick."
"Only when I'm provoked."
She pulled herself up and started to hobble away.
Dean watched her shaking his head. Now he knew why his mom got so frustrated with him when he was stubborn.
And stubborn he was, he strode after lifting her up in his arms with ease.
She glared at him all of two seconds before giving up and he carried her back to her cabin.
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"I'm going to go put Winchester up and get some of my muscle salve get some shorts on or something so I can put some on your leg and get it better."
Arandi began to protest but stopped seeing the determination in Dean's eyes.
He left and was back within twenty minutes carrying a couple of towels and a jar.
She had taken a quick shower and gotten into shorts like he had asked and was sitting back against the head board of her bed.
Without a word he lifted her leg and checked her knee as she grimaced in pain, her knee swollen and bruised.
He opened the jar and took some salve that smelled of mint and berries and began to massage it into her leg.
It hurt at first but a soothing heat followed as he worked his hands over her knee.
Abruptly he jerked her knee making her cry out but just like that all the pain was gone and he smiled at her smugly.
"How did you do that?"
"Just call me Mr. Mayagi. " Dean huffed.
"Well the only wax on wax off I know involves hair."
"You could have fooled me." Dean mumbled rubbing his stomach.
"Self-defense and I really didn't mean it."
"What did you mean then, please enlighten me."
Arandi sighed loudly. "They say honesty is the best policy, I don't want to hurt you."
Dean raised an eyebrow. "Ok I know I was a virgin and all but do I look like I'm seven?"
"A heart breaks at any age."
"Wow you really think highly of yourself."
Arandi looked at him taken aback.
"Well since you brought the honesty in, what did you think because you gave me like the best birthday ever that I was going to propose?"
Arandi was not used to being spoken to like that by anyone.
"I'm a country boy from the toes up Arandi but I wasn't born in a barn, next to one but not in one at night but not last night. I know you are rich and that I'm probably just a passing fling no one like you would want me."
"When did you do all this deductive reasoning?" She snapped.
"After my brain function returned and I did the whole thirteen year old 'she loves me she loves me not' sing song and I heard my parents talking."
"You're smart Dean I'll give you that but you have no clue." Because she did want him barely eighteen and she wanted him more than she had any other man ever. "And the rose?"
"It reminded me of you beautiful but thorny."
"It also wilts and dies in a few days."
"Alright so I didn't go further than the beauty part, it's kind of hard to you know?"
"So that's all you see is beauty?"
"I see a woman that I will never forget as long as I live."
"So if I was three hundred pounds at five feet with moles all over my face, you would have still let me take your virginity?"
"I have a great imagination." Dean grinned without missing a beat.
"Thin line between fantasy and imagination." Arandi sighed.
"What I'm trying to say Arandi is that you don't have to treat me like fragile glass, I'm tougher than you think."
"I hope that we don't have to find out."
"And don't you ever, ever put yourself in danger like that again for me." He warned.
"You're welcome."
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What Arandi didn't know was that Dean felt like his fucking walls were going to come crashing down any second, his heart beating a mile a second trying to talk a big game just so that she wouldn't push him away.
What would she think of him if he groveled? That if he thought he could get away with it he would propose and what did it mean that she cared enough not to want him to be hurt?
He knew someone like her wouldn't choose him but just the chance to be her flavor of the week was good, getting a taste of Arandi had to be like what an addiction felt like, he just wanted another hit.
Still after his big speech she eyed him carefully, reading him and he hoped he was covering.
"Well since I did tell everyone that you were taking me to the prom I guess I can't leave you hanging."
"You don't have to go with me." He said lowering his eyes.
Arandi Remington billionaire's daughter at his senior prom?
"Oh so now you're too good for me?"
"Arandi I don't have a tux and I can't dance."
"You will dance you're little heart out by the time I get done with you." She promised. "Don't worry about your tux I have got you covered."
"You don't have to buy me a tux." Dean stammered.
"Too late, I sort of got it that day I went shopping just in case." She shrugged.
"You knew then that you were going to go to the prom with me?"
"A girl can hope can't she?"
Dean laughed. "Yeah because I'm sure my prom will rival all the galas you attend."
"You talk too much."
"I'm sorry."
She smiled fondly. "C'mere so I can shut you up."
"Yes ma'am." Dean blushed.
They kissed for a few minutes and Dean thought of every gross thing in creation to keep from getting hard.
It didn't work.
TBC
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