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Ch.5
It had been weeks? Months? I stopped counting. I sat in a chair facing the window. The warm rays of the outside sun touching my somewhat pale skin as I sat with my legs tucked under my bottom. Staying indoors was a common hobby of mine now, worrying myself as usual. A mother's grief was bad enough. I could never bear the thought of him being dead…My Gohan, dead. Did I just need closure? I just needed to know, was my Gohan alive. I found myself staring into space daydreaming about the worse again, a habit Goku told me I should not have taken on. I decided a nice walk would do me some good, considering it was so beautiful outside. I walked out into the yard and down a beaten path that lead to the lake not too far from our home. Goku and I decided moving back home was the best option. Even with all the support from his friends and family, we had to carry this burden alone.
The warms rays of the sun and small creatures scurrying beneath me; birds chirping was exactly what I needed. As I walked down the small path I noticed grass was beginning to grow in, it had been so long since we walked down to the lake as a family. I continued my slow pace as tears started to build. So many questions running through my mind at once. Was he safe? Was he dead? Was he hurt? Did he call out for me and I never showed? Did he think we had forgotten him? I finally reached the lake. Thank Kami. I sat down and looked at my reflection, it was terrible. I looked battered and worried, which was true to my emotions. I just could not bear if I lost him. If I could kill Raditz myself I would. The tears came without warning; I cried into my knees as I took a seat next to the lake. I felt so helpless, so pathetic. I wanted to help my little boy, but here I was crying like a little damsel in distress. I wanted to hug him and hold him close to me forever. My grief was taking control of me; Would I do it? I ponder this question over and over in my head. If he was dead, would I take my own life? The thought of leaving my Goku always hurt me more than anything but this grief was starting to take a toll on me. I knew the place I would do it; it was perfect in every way….peaceful, quiet, and empty. I wiped my face of tears and began my walk towards the cliff which so desperately called my name.
*Goku and Piccolo's Training area*
Several punches and kicks were thrown as two powerful fighters fought against each other on a remote island. Goku and Piccolo trained day and night in preparation in their battle against Raditz. Goku, wearing a pair of dark blue shorts and training shoes focused each punch and kick. He was more determined than ever to become the strongest warrior. They finished a few more rounds of punch and kick techniques and decided on a break. Both warriors sat down in the sand with bottles of water at hand.
Goku spoke through heavy breaths, "I feel like we're making good progress here Piccolo, if we keep this up we may be ready for Raditz in a few days"
Piccolo looked at the warrior with a worried look, "Do you really think that's a good idea? Taking on such a powerful foe after three months of continuous training?"
Piccolo was right, but I wouldn't tell him. I was tired, no not just tired; pushed beyond my physical limits. I had not slept in over four days at any time my body was going to give up on me. If Raditz attacked us now we would be killed within moments. I continued to drink my water and try to stay focused on what was important, Gohan. I looked a Piccolo with a small smile,
"We could take him, I know it", that was all I could lie about at the moment. I stopped drinking as I felt a familiar Ki drop extremely low, "Chi-Chi" I looked into the distance east towards my house. I took off flying as I called over my shoulder to a surprised Piccolo,
"WE GO TODAY"
I flew as fast as my body could take me as I could feel her Ki getting smaller and smaller. What was happening? If I lost her too…Dear Kami how could I go on? I was so weak I could barely focus on where I was flying. I was getting closer and closer, but was I brave enough to face what was before me? I continued flying; I was determined not to lose them both. I could feel it dropping; Was she giving up on him being alive? Should I? I shook my head of these thoughts and flew faster. I was going to save her.
*Chi-Chi at the cliffs*
I was finally here, the place I enjoyed the most…the place where I could die. A smile was beginning to form on my face, it felt odd. No one should be happy about dying, but for me it was a release from this pain I could no longer carry. What if Goku failed? What if he was killed? What other warrior on earth would lay down his life for Gohan? No one was as strong as my Goku or Piccolo for that matter…it would be hopeless. I even thought of a life with Raditz; maybe he would take me on as his mistress. No matter, I would be with my Gohan, even under horrific circumstances he would still be my light of hope in those dark times. I stood with my toes over the edge, such as beautiful day to die. The jagged rocks below would cruse me and I would suffer for a few moments, but it would be my last time to suffer. I spread my arms wide as I could imagine myself flying, flying to be with my Gohan. Was I really about to do this? I opened my eyes as I watched the clouds float by, they almost gave me a feeling of hope as I realized...this would be a mistake, and I can't leave Goku, not now…not ever. What if Goku saved Gohan and saved the world, I would be known as the coward that gave up on her husband and son. I'm stronger than this, I have to be…for them.
As I slowly turned around I lost my footing and slipped off the cliff. I grabbed the edge just in time to grab a few blades of grass and earth between my fingers. I could feel my weight carrying me closer and closer to my doom. I should have never come here. I was now in full panic mode; once everyone found out they would assumed it was suicide, this thought alone would kill my Goku and my Gohan. The earth gave way to my weight and I fell down the cliff, hitting along the sides as I tumbled like a doll to my death. Catching on one of the branches I landed on a smaller piece of land attached to the cliff; I could hear my back make a loud cracking noise as I screamed out in pain. I started to cry harder than ever before as the pain soared all over my body, it was unbearable. I couldn't feel my legs…it was getting hard to breath as I looked up from where I fell, easily twenty-five or thirty feet. I started to see white spots as I continued to cough up blood, everything was blurry. All I could think of was my Goku holding my dead body and cursing me for leaving him. And my Gohan crying, because he was now without a mother who decided to take her own life instead of fighting for his…
Dying was easy, as I lay on the cliff feeling my life down to only seconds, I thought of all the good times I have had over my life. All the adventures I had with my mom as a young female warrior, beating up boys who challenged me, meeting my Goku…..and giving birth to the most wonderful son in the world. I rolled over on my stomach since none of my ribs seemed to be broken. I cried myself into a quiet but peaceful state. I counted every last blink...the earth was so beautiful.
*Goku in flight*
I landed near a cliff where I would occasionally find Chi enjoying the view. She was nearby but her Ki was so low it was getting harder and harder to focus on where she was located. I walked toward the edge….was she there. My heart started to speed up as I walked towards the edge and slowly looked down. And there she lay…my Chi-Chi. I flew towards her, she was alive, barely. She lay with her eyes closed, covered in dirt and grass. I searched my pockets for a senzu bean Piccolo gave me earlier. I gently picked her up as I could feel her broken back against my arms. I flew up the cliff to a safe spot. I spoke to her gently, "Chi-Chi..please don't leave me, not now…not ever". She didn't respond, I held her closer…"Chi-Chi…please" I held her close to me, she was gone. Tears coming down my face as I watched her lay so peaceful in my arms. She was all I had left…and now she's gone. I laid her down in the grass as I walked a few feet away from her. I couldn't hold her any longer. I loved her and hated her for leaving me. How could she be so selfish? I screamed at her body as I hit my knees in defeat, "CHI-CHI..I NEEDED YOU". Raditz had taken everything from me. The love of my life and my son. I fell face forward as I cried into the grass and punched a giant hole in the earth next to me. I would kill him and make him pay for what he has done to me and my family. Just as the rage was about to take over, I heard a small cough come from Chi-Chi. I raced over to her and held her in my arms.
"Chi-Chi…Chi-Chi..I'm here..I'm here", I was almost shaking her when she opened her eyes a little and looked up at me. They were completely blood shot, as if someone put red dye into them. I smiled quickly and gave her the senzu bean, "Chew this please, I'll help you". She closed her eyes again; I'm guessing it was too painful to hold them open. I placed the senzu bean in her mouth as she chewed it slowly. I helped her by gently moving her chin up and down. She painfully swallowed it. I looked at her, waiting and it happened. She started coughing up more and more blood, covering me with it. She grabbed my arm and spoke,
"Goku..goku..goku", as she started to slowly breath normally as her body was ingesting the senzu bean.
I looked down at her and spoke softly, "Why Chi-Chi? Why would you hurt me like this?" I was nearly a broken man. I had lost everything that was important to me. I had nothing but my will to live; and I would have used all of it to kill Raditz. She spoke only one word to me,
"Grief", I held her closer as the blood stop coming and her breathing was normal. I would save my other questions for later. She was alive, that's what was important. I picked her up and headed for capsule corp.
After hearing screams and shocks of horror from Bulma, she called in her best medical staff to get Chi-Chi settled in comfortably. She would have to be on life support for a few days until the senzu bean could take full effect. I sat next to her bed as she lay still, slowly breathing. I held her hand; Bulma walked in the room and stood next to me placing a hand on my shoulder, she spoke softly, "I should have never let you two leave", I couldn't take my eyes off Chi-Chi as I spoke, "It's not your fault, it's mine". She got down on her knees so she could be eye level and looked at me with a confused look, "Goku, this is no one's fault, no one but Raditz. He has bought grief on all of us. Chi-Chi was at her breaking point, it's an emotional time for everyone. You can't blame yourself for this type of horror". Her words were empty, they meant nothing. If I would have saved Gohan a long time ago, this wouldn't have happened. I got too comfortable with the thought of my son being kidnapped, I have to go after him and it has to be today.
I stood up and headed towards the window, Bulma quickly grabbed my arm, "Goku…please" I looked into the eyes of my dearest friend. "I have to go Bulma..he's done too much", she looked at me as if I was already dead. She reached into her pocket and gave me a few senzu beans. She hugged me tight, "Goku….please come back", I hugged her back as I looked over her shoulder at my wife. Within seconds I was gone out the window, to kill the man who started this, Raditz.
Thanks so much for reading this! This was a very emotional chapter for me and I can guarantee you the next chapter is nearly done and will be posted soon! I can't thank you guys enough for taking this journey with me and being apart of something that is so special to me. As always Be inspired and take care.