A/N: Did you all enjoy the previous chapter? Thank you all for the reviews, please keep reviewing! This short chapter revloves around Lily coming to terms with her feelings, I hope you enjoy it!
Lily was a mess. Three days had passed since her birthday, and she had made it one of her top priorities to avoid Snape as much as she possibly could.
It was on that dismally grey Tuesday morning in potions, that Lily and Snape had shared words since what Lily had referred to Samantha as 'The Incident'.
"Erm, Lily? Have you done the essay?" Snape asked her timidly. Lily nodded.
"Could… Could I copy your introduction, please?" He tried to make himself sound hopeful.
"You've got time, it doesn't need to be handed in until Friday," Lily uttered bluntly, without looking at him. When she realised Snape was going to stand there until she said yes, she reached into her back and took out a scroll, thrust it into Snape's arms and half ran towards a seat next to Samantha before Snape could even give her his thanks. He sighed, and proceeded to the back of the classroom taking his usual seat at the back, minus the company of his best friend.
Although she may have seemed it, Lily wasn't angry at Snape. If anything, she was confused. He was her best friend, and best friends don't do that kind of thing. Was it normal for a friend to fall in love with another? No, she shook her head, as if shaking away the very thought. No, she told herself, don't even use that word. 'Love' has nothing to do with this… it was only a kiss after all.
Sensing her friend's tense state of mind, Samantha chose not to questions Lily's thoughts, but instead gently squeezed her hand. "If you need to talk, Lil, you know where I am, right?" She smiled sweetly, causing Lily in turn to crack her first smile in days.
"Thank you," she whispered back, letting her thoughts take over again.
The one thing that annoyed Lily the most is that she had let Snape kiss her. Yes, she hadn't expected it, but when it had happened, she hadn't pulled away immediately. She pondered this thought further and then realised… I hadn't pulled away because… because I hadn't wanted to... I wanted him to kiss me!
Shocked with her sudden realisation of truth, a string of new thoughts began buzzing around Lily's mind; Was she attracted to Snape? Of course not, said a voice in the back of her head.
…But you do love his wit and sense of humour, said another.
She loved Snape, yes, but as a friend, nothing more…
But think about it, said the second voice, you do everything a couple would do; You're with each other at every opportunity, you love each others company, you amuse each other, you make each other happy… Face it, the voice persisted, your life would be empty without him!
Lily slumped down in her chair and let her head flop down onto the desk. The hard, bitter truth had hit home. She did want Snape.
Okay, she reasoned with herself, I may be in love with my best friend, but I won't show it… I can't. It'd ruin our friendship, if there still is one… Especially since Sev feels the same way! He can never know that the feeling is mutual.
Tired of arguing with the relentless voices in her head, she began to brew the potion which she should have completed by now.
Twenty minutes later, the bell had gone, and Lily reached under the desk for her bag. When she resurfaced, a scroll and torn piece of parchment lay upon her desk. She scoured the room and saw Snape's tall, slim frame slouch out of the dungeon.
She turned the torn piece of parchment around and began to read the tiny scrawl written on it.
I'm sorry, Lil.
We need to talk.
Usual place at 9pm?
Sev x
Lily frowned slightly at the message but nonetheless folded and pocketed it. She left the room silently, still reflecting on the thoughts of the past hour.
A/N: Huhuhu, whatever could happen next? I enjoyed writing this chapter as I think it relieves some of the tension Lily had about her feelings... The next chapter will take a while to write because I'm currently working on another FF too. Please, please, please review with opinions, advice, ideas and constructive critisism, it'd really help!