A/N: After a long while, the next chapter is up. Sorry for the wait. This chapter is from James' point of view and to be honest I had a change of heart, so this may not be what you're expecting. You might not like the change either but don't worry, the rest of the story won't be too cliché (I hope). This is set 2-3 days after the last chapter. Happy reading!

James sat in the Great Hall, sulking. He was thinking about the plan. The plan to make Lily see that he was a great guy and that she should be with him instead of that Slytherin scum. He would show her how kind and thoughtful could be, how much he cared about her and how much they belonged together. If it worked, it'd be great; he'd finally have the girl he longed for and he'd finally have revenge on Snape for stealing his girl and for beating him up. Twice.
He felt bad about what had happened the night of the Quidditch party. He genuinely hadn't meant to fall on her, and the kiss was a very happy coincidence but unplanned all the same. He'd heard the shouting match between Snape and Lily and realised that Lily was really upset about it all and he hated seeing her upset. This was the reason why he'd tried a different approach to his plan; he'd tried being forceful and that, evidently, had just pushed her away. His 'nice guy' approach had worked well, he thought, despite the fact that Lily had left the Quidditch stadium crying. No matter, he thought to himself, she's yet to see how nice I can be.
But still, a pang in his gut told him that what he was doing was wrong, whichever approach he took. He knew you couldn't force someone to feel a certain way but there was no other way he could be with Lily. She wasn't going to come around on her own, so he'd just… help her along a bit. He wasn't forcing her. He was… helping her.
"No," he said to himself quietly. "No. I can't do it. I've pushed my luck far enough, this is wrong." He sighed deeply and slowly got up, wincing as he pressed a pain in his side; Snape sure knew how to deliver a beating.

As he left the hall, he passed Sirius.
"Oh James, I came down for some food, you joining?" Sirius gave him his usual cheeky smile.
James scratched the back of his neck, looking at the floor. "Uh… Well actually Sirius-"
"Oh right," Sirius interrupted, "I know that tone of voice. What's up?"
James sighed again. I might as well just come out with it, he thought, I can't do it anymore.
"I can't do it to her," he blurted out. "It's wrong, I've gone to far, she's been upset too many times and it's all been my fault to some extent or another, and that's no way to treat someone I care about! I'm going to have to tell her - to apologise!"
Sirius just stared at him in bewilderment. "Uhh… What're you – Oh! Are you talking about Evans?" He moved James to a corner of the Entrance Hall and lowered his voice. "So… so what? You don't like her anymore? You're just gonna let her go now?"
"Of course I like her, you idiot, that's why I can't do it! I've been thinking these past few days and I've been an absolute arsehole to her, it's no wonder she doesn't want me!"
"James-"
"No listen," he persisted, "I'm going to find her, to explain and apologise… I need to apologise about that time in the library, I think I really scared her, and then there was the graffiti, why didn't you just refuse to help me? That was a step too far and now I've realised it, it's too late. She'll hate me even more but I can't carry on treating her like this!"
"James! Shut up for a minute and listen to me!" Sirius' expression was unreadable. James wasn't sure if he was going to agree or disagree with him. "James… Thank you. To be honest, I'd thought you were going a bit nuts. I mean, you've taken this to the extreme, it's almost creepy! But… I guess if you're giving up now then that's great, because you can't treat someone like that, it's wrong-"
"I know it's wrong, that's why I'm-"
"Just make sure you mean this, James! You're my best mate, and to be honest with you, I don't want some creepy control freak as a mate. I'm just thankful you're sorting yourself out."
"I feel so bad. I think I might go into depression… Jump off of the Astronomy Tower…"
Sirius chuckled. "Always the joker, you're beginning to become more hilarious than I am. But… but what are you going to do about Snivellus?"
"What about him?" A disgusted look crept onto James' face. "I care about Lily, not him. I've not done anything wrong to him. If anything, he should be apologising to me! Have you seen his temper? That guy's got some serious anger issues!"
"All the more reason for Lily not to be with him…" Sirius added thoughtfully.
"They're not even talking anymore, I doubt they're still together, so Snivellus is irrelevant," he smiled to his friend. "I should be going, I need to find Lily…"
"Yeah, good luck mate, don't be surprised if she hits you, you sort of deserve it…"

James chuckled as he walked away, but it was true. He did deserve it. His sudden realisation felt like a lifted weight, he'd been going about the situation in completely the wrong way. Whether Lily was destined to be with him or not, it wasn't up to him to decide when and where it would happen. Anyway, he thought, she might not take it so badly. She might see how honest I am and forgive me… And there's always my beautiful face to help the forgiveness process…

A/N: Ah, he's still a bit arrogant in the end! What'd you think? Was it too big a change for the story or not? I decided to change because I have better ideas for this in the long run. James is still an arrogant pig, but not a possessive control freak who will stop at nothing to be a fuckwit. I didn't fancy carrying on with such a creepy storyline, it felt wierd. But anyway, review and anticipate! "3"