Love To

Chapter 19:

I blinked at him. What in the hell was I supposed to say that? I love you too obviously. That little voice chanted in my head. I was going to say it too, but my throat was swollen shut. I gulped trying to clear it. He sat up, looking hurt. I looked at him as he stiffly slid back on his boots and left. Then it was all flashing by me. I was sitting on my bed staring at the door and then I was on the front steps, Jace walking to the demon bike Magnus had given him. His hands were clenched into fists, but he wasn't looking at me and the engine of the bike revved and he was gone.

"Jace!" I yelled after him but he was out of ear shot. Shit, shit, shit! Why must you be so stupid Clary? Now he'll never talk to you and you'll be alone forever. The tears rolled down my face. The voice was right, I had let him get away and he'd never forgive me.

The next morning I told my mom I felt like throwing up and she had allowed me to stay home.

"Clary, are you sure you'll be alright? I can always tell the buyers that I can't make it." Her eyebrows knit together.

"I'll be fine Mom. I have the number of the gallery and if I need anything, I'll call Luke or Dorothea." I tried to make my voice sound tired and it must have worked because Mom left about five minutes later. I fell asleep, dreaming of those gold eyes and hair. I awoke with a small start, but couldn't remember what had freaked me out. I snatched up my phone. Missed calls from Magnus, Izzy, Alec, Simon, and Maia. The first lights of twilight were starting to creep through my window. Where were Mom and Luke? They should be here.

My muscles ached as I stood, my eyes swollen with tears. I stumbled out of the room and to the kitchen. A note sat on the counter and I peered at it.

Clary,

Came home to see if you wanted to go out to eat with Luke and me but you were asleep so I didn't wake you. We will be home around 8 because we have to get groceries. Love you!

-Mom

Ho hums. What to do for two hours? I tried to take a deep breath and clear my fogged head. It didn't do very well, so I went to the living room window and threw it open. I breathed in the cool October air and the haze cleared slightly. I went back to my room, dressing and putting on a coat and then went outside to the sidewalk. The place where I had stupidly stared after Jace after he professed his love for me. Stupid, stupid Clary. The voice said it over and over as I walked the streets. The sun was leaving quickly and I had just made it to the little park a few blocks away from the house.

I sat in one of the swings, dragging my feet through the sand as I thought of Jace. The tears started to form again and I tried to blink them away. The tears distracted me only for a moment, but that's all it took for the Ravener demon to leap on to my back, pinning me to the ground while its gravelly voice shook through me. I tried to scream, but I had lost my breath.

"The Masters want the girl. Bring the girl to them they say and now I have the yummy girl." It hissed next to my ear. I let out a little puff of air. My head was spinning at the lack of air. And then the weight was gone. I lay in the sand on my belly, eyes closed. I heard the demon shriek and sizzle and the grunting of my hero. I rolled over on to my shoulder, staring at the figure that stood above me. Jace.

"By the Angel Clarissa! Are you trying to get yourself killed?" He held a hand down to me and even though his voice dripped with false annoyance I could hear the hint of panic buried within. I reached up to grip his hand and then had a quick little idea. I pulled with all the force I could muster and it was just enough to make him fall on top of me. I heard his breath catch and his heart hit his rib cage.

I pulled his head down, meeting his mouth with mine. My eyes fluttered closed as my lips worked against his and moments later his worked right back. We kissed until my lungs screamed for mercy and I released him with a sharp gasp.

"I love you too." I whispered. The little amount of light from the street lamps hardly illuminated his face but just enough that I could see a bewildered smile cross his face. But then it grew a bit serious.

"Why didn't you say that last night? I've been moping around all day thinking you hate me and then I don't see you at school which just adds fire to the thought that you do hate me. So then I go to your house to talk to you and see you leaving. I followed not to closely behind you and when I saw you cry I hated myself and then that demon attacked and I had to get to you even if I thought you hated me." He let out in a little puff.

"Jace I was going to say it last night but I froze and then you left. I'd never hate you, don't you know that? Especially when you admit your love to me." A smile quirked at his lips.

"Oh Clary, I'm a hopeless sexy fool." He sighed audibly.

I laughed and his smiled brightened. "You may be, but you're my hopeless sexy fool." I giggled pressing my lips to his again. My arm stung a little and I looked down to the wound on my arm.

"Shit!" I gasped and his eyes followed mine to the sting.

"Dido." He gulped shifting his gaze up to mine but I was already falling in to his shoulder. The universe was really against our happy moments.

Hello Peoples!

Thank you for all the reviews! Again I would love to point out that they mean the WORLD to me and whenever I see a new one my heart grows a size larger (I have the same condition as the Grinch). Sorry it's not extra emely long but all of my teachers had the same great idea of scheduling all the Quarter tests tomorrow, soooo, I have about six or seven tests tomorrow that I have to study for. Lord have mercy on me! Thank you guys again for reviewing, following, and favoriting! And like the chapters before this one, I ask you to please review again. :-)

Toddles! – Emma

P.S. Read the Infernal Devices if you have not. They ARE AMZING! I cried last night after I read the third books epilogue :')