Chapter 11

(A/N: I'm finding it extremely to type this week. I'm going through a heart break. Even though my ex-boyfriend and I broke up 2-3 months ago. But my dreams tell me otherwise. It's extremely hard due to all the characters in my story are happy in relationships. So I may be cruel to them this week. But I'll try my best to stay on track. I apologize.)

Raven's lost soul floated high above the sky. Soaring through the clouds in the starry night sky. How could a lost soul feel so free and careless when it's lost and helpless and don't know where to go? What was a lost soul to do?

Raven flew to the house where the twins lived. She flew up to their room and into the fishbowl, flew through the wall and into the magical castle. She found two giant doors that lead to Wanda's and Juandissimo's room. She saw that the two magical creatures were still asleep. She flew through the castle, into the fishbowl and looked out the window. The sun was just starting to rise. She flew back into the magical creature's room and waited them to rise for a new day that will create tomorrow's history.

The lost soul sat there, patiently waited for the two to rise. She had to wait a while, after thirty minutes of waiting, she started to doze off as well, and right before she fell asleep she noticed one of the magical creatures began to rise. It was the female one, with long pink hair that was curled. As she rose, she stretched out her arms with a smile on her face as some of the morning sun shinned through their fishbowl and into their room.

Wanda turned to look at the sleeping fairy that lay beside her. Little did she know that it was Juandissimo? She had thought the whole thing was a dream and expected to hear Cosmo's voice and see his warm morning smile.

"Good morning sweetie, I had the strangest dream last night. Raven took over Fairy World, separated us and made Anti-Cosmo and Anti-Wanda Timmy's fairies." Wanda laughed as the other fairy rose from a good night's sleep.

"Mi amigo that was not a dream. It actually happened." He rose and stretched.

Wanda almost screamed when she saw it wasn't Cosmo that was sleeping next to her. Raven floated over to Wanda. "Mom? Mom? Can you hear me? Mom?" Raven waved her hand in front of Wanda's face. But Wanda didn't see nor hear her. She simply continued on with her strange morning that made absolute no sense whatsoever.

"Mom?" tears welled up in her eyes. She quickly blinked away the warm, salty tears. She then remembered that she had to body. She was a lost soul. Would they move on with their life and forget she ever existed like they did with Robin? Just brush her away like she was never really there like she is now? Or was she somehow erased from their memory?

"What do you mean it wasn't a dream? You mean it really happened?" Wanda gasped at the thought.

"Si, it really happened." Juandissimo scooted closer to her and kissed her neck.

Wanda quickly shoved him away. "Stop it! I'm a married woman!" she crossed her arms.

"Si, married to me." He pointed to his left finger that had a gold ring on it. He raised Wanda's hand; she also had a wedding ring on. She only had one, but it had a medium sized diamond on it.

"You can't be serious!" she jumped out of bed.

"I am." He walked over to a photo album. He pulled out some photo's of them that appeared to be a wedding day. "Look, this is us on our wedding day. Oh and here's one of us at the altar, kissing when the priest said 'you may kiss the bride,' look at how happy you are! And here's one right after Castle was born." Juandissimo passed her the photo album.

"I don't remember any of this." Wanda flipped through thousands of photos. "And who's Castle?" Wanda looked up at Juandissimo like a child who has a million questions about the world and expects the adult to know the answer to every question.

"You're kidding right? She's your daughter!" he threw his arms in the air.

"Daughter?" Wanda put a hand to her stomach. Not feeling any bump.

"Si, come with me." He took her hand and led her down a hallway and to a door with the words 'Castle's room.' As they walked in, Wanda looked all around not remembering anything. It was as if someone had sprinkled amnesia dust on her.

As they reached the little angel's cradle. Seconds after they reached it, the little girl woke up. A flash of pink appeared and disappeared in her eyes. Wanda's mouth fell open. The little girl began to giggle as she lifted her arms up at Wanda, wanting to be picked up. Wanda picked Castle up and held her tight.

"This is Castle; she has silver eyes and deep violet hair. There will be flashes of different colours in her eyes indicating her emotion. Pink means she happy. There are many colours she has, but mainly she's pink." He said putting a hand on Wanda's shoulder.

"She's perfect." Wanda said with a smile. "What about Cosmo?" she asked as the smile wiped off her face at the last memory she had with him.

"I'm not too sure about him. Uh, I'll go make some breakfast." He said zipping out of the room.

Wanda stared at Castle. The poor thing, thinking Juandissimo is her father. Wanda walked out of Castle's room and walked around the castle like a little kid wandering around a candy shop. As she walked around the castle, she stumbled across a room that said 'Raven' on it. Wanda blinked back tears remembering the memory with Raven, and how it's her fault that they ended up in this mess. If she hadn't have been so hard on the poor girl. After all, she was just a half-a-fairy.

Wanda walked in the room and sat on the bed. She looked around the bright, colourless room. It was a fair sized room, but smaller than the one back in the castle in Timmy's fishbowl. The one in there was about 10X the size as this one. She looked down at Castle, a flash of blue appeared in her eyes, and the child began to cry.

"I suppose blue means sad. I bet your hungry." The child nodded. "I am too, let's go see what we have for you." Wanda gave the child a warm smile and got up and walked to the kitchen where her so called "Husband" was making breakfast.

"Ah, there you are, I was just about to go and get you, breakfast is ready. Where were you?" he asked as he flipped a pancake in the air.

"In Raven's room." She opened the fridge to see if they had anything for Castle. "Do we have any baby food for Castle?" she closed the fridge.

"Ah yes, up in the cupboard above the fridge. Is Raven up yet?" Juandissimo asked as he cracked an egg.

"What do you mean? Last time I checked, I wasn't her mother and she wasn't my daughter and she took over Fairy World as her way of revenge." Wanda gave him a blank stare trying to recall everything that has happened the past few months.

"Actually no, well yes. Let me explain. Raven did take over Fairy World, but once she went to go free the Anti-fairies, they captured her, adopted her and raised her to be evil like them. So then they switched Raven with Anti-Raven, so Anti-Raven is the current leader of Fairy World. And a week or so ago, Anti-Cosmo came by and gave Raven back said she's too much of a handful, so she lives with us now." Juandissimo explained to the pink haired fairy that stood there with her mouth opened.

"Then we have a problem, she's not in her room." Wanda began to panic.

Raven smiled a little. At least they remembered her, but what will they do once they realise that I'm dead? Cry? Thank the lord? Celebrate that I finally died, and they no longer have to deal with an 11 year old half-a-fairy committing suicide and screaming in the middle of the night because of a vision or nightmare. That they no longer have to deal with a half-demon? That they don't have to stress out over her anymore? Or wish I never died, and cry for a week and forget about me? Most likely forget about me and celebrate. She went to go and try to put a hand on Wanda, put her hand went straight through her.

Tears streamed down her cheeks. She began to cry. The little child pointed to thin air. "Raven." The small child said looking up at her mother and smiled.

"Where?" the two fairies said in unison and spun around to find no one there.

"There's no one there sweetie." Wanda said setting her child down in a high chair so she could feed her.

"Raven." The child said again and pointed to thin air again. Wanda became concerned.

"Castle, there's no one there. What are you pointing to?" Wanda looked into the space where Castle was pointing.

Raven walked closer to Castle. The child reached out an arm and smiled. Raven slowly raised her arm and grabbed the child's hand. Her hand didn't go through. Castle smiled. "Raven." Castle said again still holding Raven's hand.

"Juandissimo?" Wanda called.

"Yes? What is it?" he walked over to the two with two plates.

"Castle keeps saying Raven and pointing to thin air." She looked up at Juandissimo thinking that he will have the answer.

"That's weird, she's never done that before." He set the two plates down, one in front of Wanda and one in front of himself and sat down. "She's really close with her too, maybe she's seeing things. Young kids do that you know?" Juandissimo said as he ate some of his breakfast.

"You can really see me?" Raven said wide eyed. The child smiled and nodded. "But how?" Raven thought long and hard. "Wait, young kids don't know that lost souls exist, no one told them that there's no such thing as ghost. So you believe in them, which means you can see me." Raven said as she smiled at the child. "Hmm, I wonder?"

She went up to her room and tried to grab one of her spell books. But her hand went right through. She tried using her powers. She tried and tried and tried, but it was like her powers had vanished. She no longer had control of them. This is hopeless. I'll never have my body back. Now, I'm going to be a lost soul for the rest of eternity. She sat down on her bed and put her head in her hands and began to cry. She hadn't fixed anything. That was probably because Cosmo wasn't in the city, he was probably in Fairy World, that's why Raven was a lost soul, and Wanda wasn't trying to leave Juandissimo, she only gave her, her memory back. She screwed up again. I can't do anything right. Now I got what I wanted! To be dead! But this isn't what I had in mind. I wanted to be free in Heaven. Or is that just a Fairytale too like I am? Raven fell to her knees and screamed. No one would be able to hear her anyways.

Castle crawled in the room. "How did you manage to get in here?" Raven walked over to Castle and picked her up. A flash of bright pink flashed and Castle began to snuggle closer in Raven's arms. Raven sat down on the floor and began to cry. Castle squirmed in Raven's arms, as she demanded to be put down. As Raven set her down, she crawled over to Raven's book shelf. She somehow managed to get up on the top shelf and get Raven's spell book down.

Castle sat at the top of the shelf waiting for Raven to come and put her on the ground. Raven walked over and picked up the small child, as Raven lowered herself to the ground, with Castle still in Raven's arms, Wanda walked in, calling Castle's name.

As soon as she turned the corner, she saw Castle floating in the air. "Mama" Castle said smiling.

"Castle! Are you- are you- are you flying?" Wanda said in disbelief. The child was much too young to be flying already.

Wanda walked over to Castle and grabbed her. "I can't believe you were flying!" Wanda swung Castle in the air.

"Raven." She pointed.

"Yes sweetie. This is Raven's room. Don't worry sweetheart, we'll find her today." Wanda said as she turned around to leave the room.

Castle squirmed out of her arms and walked over to Raven and sat at her feet. "Raven" Castle said again. Castle floated up in the air again. But not flying, nor levitating, but in Raven's arms.

"You're flying again!" Wanda said proudly. As she grabbed Castle again, but the small child wouldn't go to Wanda.

"No," Castle said.

Wanda looked confused. Castle snuggled closer to Raven. "Castle, I need you to flip through that spell book for me." Raven whispered into Castle's ear. The child nodded, Raven put her down on the floor. The child crawled over to the big book and turned to the first page.

Wanda look terrified, she rushed over to Castle and grabbed her. "Castle, that's not a good idea, I don't think Raven would like it if she knew you were playing with her things. Especially her spell books." Castle squirmed so much, to the point where she fell out of Wanda's arms.

Raven dived and Castle landed on her stomach, she knocked the air out of Raven, she was gasping for air. Castle giggled and quickly crawled over to the spells again. "Castle, no." Wanda walked over to her again.

"It okay. Raven." She pointed towards the space next to her and clapped.

"Turn the page." Raven whispered into Castle's ear. The child nodded and followed her orders.

"Castle," Wanda grabbed her by the wrist. Castle's eyes flashed of purple in the poor girls eyes. Scared. Purple, what's purple? Wanda thought to herself.

"Scared." The child whispered.

"Castle, do as I say and leave the book alone, or no TV for the rest of the day." Wanda threatened.

The child didn't move a muscle.

"A week." She still didn't move.

Wanda slowly let go and walked over to the bed and buried her head in her hands in defeat. Castle felt a little bad, but she had to help her sister.

She turned the page a few more times before she stopped and Raven glanced over the spells. She flipped a few more times. And few more times. "Mommy." Castle turned around and smiled as she patted the space beside her, wanting her to come sit beside her.

Wanda got up and picked her daughter up. She started to squirm. "No sweetie, stop. I'm just putting you on my lap." Castle nodded and stopped squirming. Wanda sat down and Castle turned the page to the big book. "Are you sure this is a good idea?" Wanda whispered into her ear. Castle nodded.

"That one." Castle pointed to a spell and looked up at her mother. Wanda leaned closer to the book and read the spell aloud.

"Change my shape,

My soul is trapped,

Change my form,

And set me free,

This is not my body,

Nor my hair, feet or skin,

Change my body,

For this can't be me,

Give me strength, and wisdom,

Violet blue eyes and hair,

A cape to go with it,

Back to the shape of my soul,

I shall be free,

Fix my problems,

And a fairy I shall be." Wanda had a puzzled look, she looked over to Castle who just smiled and clapped.

Raven said it the same time Wanda did, but nothing had happened. Raven was still a lost soul. This doesn't make any sense! It was supposed to work. Why didn't it work?

Wanda kept reading it. "In order for this spell to work, you must have candles lit around in a circle. The book and yourself must be in the centre of that circle, must be done at night, otherwise, it won't work. All lights must be off, and the only one, who can use the spell, is the one who created the book, otherwise, your problem will become much worse than it already is. Side effects are change in attitude, same body but may not look the same. Change in height, speech, changes the way you look at things, very rare effect would be amnesia. Warning: Do not have anyone in the room while performing this spell." Wanda became worried. "Castle, you're not doing that spell. I don't even know why you would even look at that." Wanda stood up with Castle in her arms.

"It for Raven." Castle squirmed a bit.

"Sweetie, Raven isn't here." Wanda continued walking.

"Yeah, Raven there." She pointed over to the book. "We need candles" she said.

Wanda sighed. "Fine, I'll go get some candles." She walked out with Castle. Walking right past and ignoring Juandissimo. Wanda started walking faster and faster to the point where she was basically running around because Castle kept saying "Hurry mommy, hurry!"

Once they had around 20 candles, Wanda set them up so they were in a circle. She got a stand to place for the book. "There, it's all ready and set up for tonight. Is that better now?" Wanda laughed silently as she picked up her daughter who was sitting on Raven bed colouring in a colouring book.

"Yes mommy." Castle said snuggling closer to Wanda.

Time has passed quickly. It seems like it was only five minutes and then it was night. Wanda and Castle went into Raven's room to light the candles. After that, Wanda took Castle out of the room and went to watch a movie. And if nothing happened by the time the movie had ended, they would go search for Raven.

Later that night, they waited a couple hours after the movie to check to see if it worked. Wanda went up to the room to find nothing had happened. She blew out the candles and went to go tell Castle that it didn't work. Earlier that day, the twins told them to stay in the castle and not to bother them for the rest of the day. You could say they gave them "The day off"

Little did they know, they didn't read it all, "Must be done on full moon, or new moon" also, Raven went on a joy flight, so was out for the time being, so she was not home when Wanda and Castle set up the equipment for her.

Wanda walked into her room and grabbed her night gown and went into the bathroom to change. Once she came out, she found Juandissimo laying on the bed reading. "Going to bed too?" he looked up from his book.

"Uh... yes, but in another room." Wanda walked towards the door.

"But why? We are married, you do not need to sleep in another room, or in another bed." He put down his book.

"Because what we once had is over, and I'm tired of you always trying to win me over with your failed attempts. I don't love you anymore, and you should move on like I did. I love Cosmo, I always have and I always will. Juandissimo, you were a great guy, but you spent way too much time checking yourself out, you hardly paid any attention to me," she crossed her arms and walked out of the room. He was about to say something and argue, but then he closed his mouth. He knew she was right. He put his book away and turned off the lights and went to sleep.

Wanda went into Raven's room and slept in her bed. He half cried herself to sleep that night. She missed the birth of her own daughter. Well couldn't remember it. She was forced to marry someone she didn't love and had no clue where Cosmo was, Raven was gone, again, and Castle was seeing things. Her world started to fall apart. She imagined Cosmo lying in bed next to her. He had his arms wrapped tight around her, but that only made Wanda crying even harder.

And all of this is my fault. I put myself in this mess; I have sunken so deep, that I can't get to the surface anymore. I'm like a lost soul, can't find my way. I brought this onto myself, and now I have to live with it. And I may never see Cosmo again. Ever again. And she drifted off to sleep with her last thoughts of Cosmo, hold her tight and keeping her safe. Never letting go. They would find each other. She could still hear his final words before they were separated forever. "Nothing can keep us apart for very long." He was right; she fell asleep with some hope in her heart. And she dreamt of him until the morning shine of the sun work her up. And the night had disappeared for what felt like for eternity.

(A/N: I felt like making this one a big cliff hanger. I still have so many ideas for this story; I was just going to make it into one big chapter like the 8th. But then laziness took over. I have a full 9 days to get the other chapters up too. PLEASE REVIEW! I love hearing what you guys think! Oh and 760 views on Fun and Games. Thanks guys! I love seeing where the views are coming from! There's some from UK, US, Canada, Italy, New Zealand, Philippines, Australia. It's amazing! I write because you guys inspire me to!)