x I walk in the foyer of my 5th Avenue apartment, luckily the St. Patrick's Cathedrals is near my penthouse. My private elevator takes me to the lobby I smile at the door men and walk outside of my building and see my driver Patrick waiting for me.

"Good Evening Ms. Mason"

"Pat, I need to get to St. Patrick's in a hurry I'm five minutes behind schedule"

"Yes Ma'am"

Patrick Donavan is in his late forties he was recommended by my best friend Alicia. He is also a trained ex-marine. He is trained to be my security as well as my driver. I really didn't think I would need security, but when you have money crazy people come out of the wood works. I am actually thinking about having Pat train a few more men just to be careful. My thoughts are interrupted by my cell phone ringing again. I answer not bothering to look at the number.

"Victoria Mason."

"Hey lady, how are you?"

"Alicia, how are you?"

"I'm good, but I should be asking you that question, how are you holding up?" She is the only one who knows how I feel about Juan.

"I'm not thinking about it, he's my client today and nothing else."

"I see…. so how long are you going to keep this up?"

"I will be fine just got to get through the damn day."

"What about tomorrow? And the day after that?"

"Shit I can't think that far ahead."

"I will be here for you girl, have you thought about just telling him how you feel?"

"Absolutely not!"

"Just a thought it might give you some closure."

"The man is getting married in fucking three hours, why the hell would I tell him anything now?"

"I know it was just a thought you deserve a chance to be happy."

"Not at the risk of making him unhappy, I will take this to my grave and so will you" Pat pulled up to the church shit it's go time.

"I have to go Alicia, I will see you in a few are you still coming to the wedding"

"Yes, I'm on my way from Jersey now I might be a few minutes late but we will be there just stay strong"

"Will do, love you can't wait to see you and Jacob"

"Me either" with that I hang up the phone.

Damn should I tell him how I feel, what use does it make, he is getting married. Tiffany comes running out of the church. She is dressed in a blue pants suit as well she looks very professional. She is holding a clip board and an extra headset. She looks nervous and anxious. She shoots me a smile and relief spreads across her face. I step out of the car and take a deep breath. I must not cry, I must not cry. I repeat this in my head over and over again. She greets me and hands me the clip board and headset. Tiffany is short in stature she is very slim with short brunette hair. She is looking at me, try to gage my mood. I have been a little all over the map with my emotions lately I don't blame her.

"Hello Tiffany is everything still on track?"

"Yes, Juan has asked to see you?"

"Okay, I will just check the church first to make sure there are no last minute changes."

"Of course"

I walk through the doors and my nose is greeted by the scent of roses and lilies. In the foyer of the church there are bouquets of roses and a sign that reads "Juan Mateo and Martha Thompson's Wedding". I chose this site because this church is huge and we are expecting over three hundred guest this evening. There is a wonderful aroma coming from the church. I open the main doors and it has been transformed in to a floral paradise. It looks like something from mid evil times. There are huge arrangements of pink and white roses running down the length of the aisle. At the front of the church there are candles when lit they will give the intimate atmosphere that Martha desired. THC Lighting Company is finishing up the lighting. Once the lights are turned on there will be a lovely pink hue on the church walls. The middle aisle has a white carpet laid before it. Once the flower girls place the pink rose petals onto the carpet, it will give the affect of walking on roses the only thing that is missing is the unity candle. I turned on my head set and begin speaking to Tiffany

"Where is the unity candle? It is supposed to be in the center so that they can light it during the ceremony. Make sure the lighting company turns on all lights one hour before the ceremony and light all candles five minutes prior to ceremony starting."

"I will track down the unity candle and I will make sure all else is done at the allotted times."Tiffany sounded fustered

"Please do so I thought you said you were on top of this?" sounding a little to more irate then I mean. Shit I can't take this out on Tiffany she is not the cause of my pain.

"Yes Ma'am I apologize."

"Okay let's just get this taken care of… ASAP!"

She a good employee but she has a lot to learn. This maybe too much for her to deal with maybe I will hire an assistant for this aspect of the company and keep Tiffany for everyday business needs. Shit I can't think about this now. I wonder what Juan needs. . I turn to make my way to where Juan and his party are getting into their suits. I knock on the door and turn the knob. I see Juan and his brother sitting and talking.

"Juan you wanted to see me is everything to your liking in here?"

"Yes, I need to talk to you I'm freaking out over here"

"Why what's wrong, where are the rest of the groomsmen?"

"Oh there outside having drinks there here and ready to go"

"Good" I look at him at little puzzled at how he looking at me "Is there something bothering you?"

Juan brother Emanuel looks at me and then Juan and decides to excuse himself so that we can be alone.

"Am I making the right decision?"