A/N: Chapter 8 will be interpreted as best as I can. I've never seen 'Cabaret' and I will do my best to interpret the song as best as I can. Song used: 'Maybe This Time' by the incomparable Liza Minelli

Chapter 8

Rachel's POV

Maybe this time, I'll be lucky

Maybe this time, he'll stay

Maybe this time

For the first time

Love won't hurry away

As I sit here watching Blaine sleep, I realize just how lucky I am. But it wasn't always this way. I was that annoying girl that would do anything to get what she wanted, but with Finn it was different. He pushed me to be better. He pushed me to want more. With Blaine, it's different, because he's not a pusher. He just stands aside, calculates the money, and supports me from afar. But sometimes I keep wondering if he's not sure about me, and wants to go back to Kurt. I know that he and Kurt have mended fences, and their friendship is firmly back in tact. But how am I supposed to know whether or not he's going to leave me? I live each day like it was my last one, and I'm going to keep this relationship, because I've never loved anyone, the way that I love Blaine. Finn and I have a very rocky friendship, because he has Meghan now, and Santana as well. We had lunch together one time, and all we did was argue. I knew that at that point my friendship with Finn was irreparable. Blaine rolled over and felt my pillow then opened his eyes.

"Babe, you okay?"

"Oh yeah, I'm just having a hard time sleeping, that's all."

"Aww, babe. Why?"

"I had a bad dream. And now I just can't get back to sleep. It scares me."

He was really concerned. He sat up in bed and pulled me close to him. He nuzzled my neck softly and I sighed. I knew that he was going to ask me about it, and I wasn't ready to talk about it.

"What was it about?"

I sighed, knowing he was going to push the issue if I didn't tell him. So I pushed further into him, and lay back down. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath preparing myself for the story I was getting ready to tell. I was letting all of my insecurities out, and it was make or break for us.

"I had a dream that you were at our Starbucks. You had a chocolate chip muffin and a Pumpkin Spice Latte. I was expecting me to come into the scene, but Kurt was there. And you guys were having the time of your life. You guys were laughing and holding hands, and being a couple. I was sitting over at a corner table drinking an herbal tea and eating my bran muffin. I had my laptop up, and I was furiously typing. It doesn't matter what it was, but I kept watching you and Kurt and I couldn't help to feel lonely. And then you two got up and walked out…and I knew that I could never be that happy."

"Shh. That's a very scary dream. But see, my darling. The difference between that dream and reality is that I'm laying with you in bed right now. And Kurt and I are friends. Well, not quite friends yet. But we're working on our friendship. And you, my beautiful darling, don't have to worry. Because I love you. And there is nothing to worry about. So put that pretty head on that pillow, and close your eyes. You have a big day tomorrow. It's not everyday that Sam Evans, Mercedes Jones, Brittney Pierce, Artie Abrams and Noah Puckerman get to come to New York to see a show."

"You're right. I love you."

"I love you, too Princess. Now go to sleep."

He said, pulling me closer. I drifted off to sleep, knowing that tomorrow was a huge day. I was finally going to make my stage debut in New York City…even if it was quite off-Broadway, it was still a start. And with Blaine by my side, I knew things would be so much better.

He will hold me fast

I'll be home at last

Not a loser anymore

Like the last time

And the time before

I woke up the next morning and saw that Blaine wasn't laying next to me. But I felt a bag on the bed and a cup of tea on the dresser. I grabbed the bag and opened it and inside was a note, and a chocolate chip muffin. I opened the note that was also shoved in the bag and revealed that there were two notes. I opened the first one, and saw that it was from Blaine.

"Darling,

Today's your big day. You don't know how proud of you I am. I cant wait to see you kill it. I had to go into work for a couple hours this morning. Eat your muffin, read the second note, and call him. I'll be home around two.

I miss you, I love you.

Blaine."

I smiled at his note, and kissed it softly. I took my muffin out of the bag, where the second note came out. I looked at it for the longest time, before deciding on opening it. I took a swig of herbal tea, and opened the letter and read it.

"Rachel,

So, tonight is your big night. Sunset Boulevard is the start, then it's Cabaret, Chicago and then the stars. I need you to know two things. First, I don't blame you for what happened. You've been my best friend since day one, and I miss that. I need you to kick ass in this. Call me. You still have my number. I know you do. And second, I'll be in the front row with the tomatoes.

I miss you, and I love you

Kurt."

I sighed and realized Kurt was right. I did miss him. I finished eating my muffin and picked up my cell phone and scrolled through my contacts. I decided on calling Blaine first, because he'd want to know I was awake.

"ALW Productions. Blaine Anderson's office."

"Hey Ang, it's Rachel Berry."

"Ahh, Rachel. Yes, Blaine's been waiting for you to call. I'll connect you."

And I waited. I got up out of the bed and started walking around, grabbing my outfit for hanging out waiting backstage with Blaine. I had decided on jeans and a tank top when I heard the click.

"Rach."

"Blaine."

"You got the notes?"

"I did. I'm sorry you had to go to work."

"I am too. I should be home by two, so that'll leave us plenty of time to get to the theater. Have you called Kurt?"

"Not yet. You're the first person I called. If I admit that I'm nervous, will that make me less of a woman?"

"No. That just makes you honest. Look, I've got a couple things to do, so just call Kurt, and I'll be home around two. Love you."

"Love you too."

And he hung up. I got into the shower and got relaxed and called Kurt. I got his voicemail and I left a message. I knew Kurt would call me back, and so I started straightening up the apartment and the phone rang. I looked at the caller ID and saw that it was Kurt. I took a deep breath and answered, knowing that he'd talk to me.

Everybody loves a winner

So nobody loved me

'Lady Peaceful' 'Lady Happy'

That's what I long to be

All the odds are in my favor

Something's bound to begin

It's got to happen, happen sometime

Maybe this time I'll win

"Hey Rachel, I don't have long. I'm just calling to wish you luck tonight. I'm going to be there, but I'm hoping my meeting doesn't run long. I want to let you know that I'll definitely be there!"

"Oh Kurt, that's the best thing you could've said to me. I'm nervous enough as it is! The whole Glee club will be there! I can't wait to see you!"

"Same! I have to go! I'll see you tonight!"

And then he hung up, leaving me to fend for myself until Blaine came home. And that wasn't the best idea, because I kept thinking of ways to sabotage my performance.