this things got a mind of its own, you need to reveiw. If i dont get updates by the time the fourth chapters up i will flat out stop updating. Oh and readers, Cass pronounces ianto yanto so that isnt a typo. XD
Thank you to my new beta
Ianto went to the park and saw jack sitting on a bench not but a few feet from the jungle toy. Tanwen, a little girl, obiously gwens daughter, and two little boys were playing on the big toy.
He sat next to jack and he smiled at him.
"WELL I MUST BE DREAMING COZ I HAVENT SEEN THAT GRIN IN AGES!" Gwen called, walking up to them, she hugged ianto. "God its good to see you. I'm gonna go keep the kiddies busy so you two can talk." She left.
"So, how?" Jack asked.
"In my world. I guess that our lives were opposite of what yours were. I travled with the doctor, got left behind, became torchwood threes leader, etcetera."
"Well thats what my past was too. But you still act like my ianto...no..dark past...or hurt feelings...how can you act so young and have the same weight as i have on my shoulders?"
"Because all that was wiped. You had two years after the time agency wiped, i was captured, all my bad memorys gone, well from 1806 to 1950. So i've got everything else."
"Whoa..."
"Yeah.."
"So, wanna...you know...erm...ummmm..."
"Become partners again?"
"Yeah..."
"I thought you hated the word couple..."
"I...was...well i was afraid...Yan...i just..in my world, you would die...and i wouldnt be able cope with it yan...if you died it would rip me apart, shatter me into a million pieces...and it did...and you never knew how i felt."
"Yes well i guess i felt that way in my world too."
"Yeah.."
"So tell me about Tanwen."
"Okay. Shes brilliant. Just like you. Shes stubborn as a bull as well. And she just melts me with the same puppy dog eyes i give you. She is very fast in learning. Good at stratagies in her little games with her friends, shes always the leader too. But she loves to read and write. She also draws and paints, along with great computer skill potential. She is good at breaking stuff down. Shes not shy and she likes rolling the tire swing tire into the house when im out in the front yard with gwen and rolling it down the stairs while shes in it. She always wears her bike helmet too. Complete terror."
"Sounds like you. Well you and me combined."
"Yeah."
"God help her friends shes gonna be a horrible influence."
"Yeah." Jack laughed.
They continued to talk, ianto tellng him about his world and then jack telling about his own.
"Rose is here now."
"What really?!"
"Yep. Along with tosh owen and mickey."
"Really?"
"Yes jack really."
"Thats amazing. And im glad your here."
"Well thanks, its good to see you too."
"Wanna sleep over at mine?
"Uh...umm..."
"We...ya know..dont have to 'do anything' yan. I just...its embarrasing. I cant...
"You can tell me jack."
"I dont want to be alone...i dont want to let you out of my sight because i think your going to disapere and im gonna wake up alone again any second."
"Thats perfectly okay jack." Ianto said softly, hugging his captain tightly.
"No its not im supposed to be the strong one yan." Jack said quietly.
"No..jack..not in front of me." He hugged his captain tightly.
"Thanks yan."
"Well tonight, after we put Tanwen to bed i'm going to take care of you. Not, just like that jack." He said at jacks eager grin.
"Mmkay. So your staying? It would be nice to sleep. I havent done that for a long time."
"Yes. Of course. Definitely." Ianto reassured.
"Aww." Gwen said as she saw jack had fallen asleep with his head rested on iantos shoulder.
"Yeah." He agreeed. "Jack, gariad, you need to wake up." Jack did, and smiled sheepishly.
"Its okay pet. Youve not slept in ages. Why dont i drop you two off at jacks and take tanwen out for icecream? Huh? I'll give you two some time before dropping her off too, i can just take the whole lot and it'll be ages before she wants to go."
"Okay. Thanks gwen."
"Thanks." Jack mumbled, the exaustion, hunger and dehydration he'd been supressing all drove to the surface, crushing him. Ianto and gwen both went wide eyed as jack tried to stand and slumped back down onto the park bench.
"God jack!" Gwen exclaimed. "Are you okay?" She asked.
"I'm fine." He protested weakly.
Ianto helped him to his feet and walked him to the car, tanwen ran up to them and jack managed to lift her into his lap. "Hey, me and ianto here are gonna go home, Aunti Gwens gonna take you, anwen, alex, and jason to get ice cream. Okay?"
"Yeah daddy, are you okay?"
"Just tired sweety, i'll see you later, i love you tan." Jack kissed her forehead and she gave him another toothy leer.
"See ya soon daddy. Love you too." She got down and Rhys watched the kids as she drove them home.
When they walked into the house jack flopped bonelessly down onto the couch. Ianto chuckled. "You really are wipped out huh?"
"Yeah."
"Want some coffee or something?"
"Tea if you could ..." jack answered.
"Okay..." He gave jack a puzzled look but went to make it. jack was half asleesp when he came back, making him grin crookedly.
"Here jack, sit up for a second." He helped his lover to sit up gingerly, he seemed more than a bit bruised up, sitting and laying jack in his lap. Jack sipped his tea and smiled. Ianto kicked his feet up, stroking jacks hair lightly. Jack fell asleep quickly with ianto staring down at him. He was too exauhsted to notice the concerned expression ianto wore.
"What have you done to yourself jack?" Ianto sighed as ran his fingers over his sleeping lovers hair. His usaully slightly tan skin was a pale, almost translucent grey ish white. He was much too thin, though jack was too broad to be called skinny, his ribs and spine stuck out to much to be good for him, and he was basically just skin and bone now. If it was possible, he looked even worse than he had during abbadon and the year that never was combined. There were dark circles under his eyes, which were now sunken and dull. His brown fringe was longer than average, shaggy and messy and could just about be called unkept.
"Oi, jack, oi wake up." Ianto said, shaking jacks shoulder lightly. He opened bleary eyes to look at him.
"Yeah yan?"
"Okay, your barely awake, what do you want for dinner?"
He shrugged. "Take out it is then." Ianto muttered. "When was the last time you cut your hair?" He asked as he dialled the number for jubili pizza.
Jack shrugged. "Gwen made me cut it last month."
"God jack."
"Sorry...it just...gets away from me..."
He sighed. "I guess it would. How long was it for you?"
"Three years. And you?"
"Two days."
"You were the lucky one."
"Yeah...i guess i was, wasnt i?"
"So hows alice? You know after...well the whole Steffen thing...Gwen told me."
"Well she ran into me out on the plass and took pity on me..this was before i knew anything about tanwen. And to think it was exactly six months after tosh and owen that you...well you know..."
"Well we're all here now. No more being alone."
"Hello, jubili pizza."
"Hi, Cass."
"Oh my god Ianto! Thats jus briliant! So what would you like?"
"Our regular. One of each. And...well can you hold on a second?"
"Oh sure."
"What does tanwen like?"
"I'll share with her, she likes mine too."
"Okay."
"Cass, just those. Okay?"
"Yeah. See ya soon ianto."
"See you." And the line cut.
"Why are you so thin?" Ianto asked, even though he knew perfectly well what the answer would be.
"I...well Tan helped...helped so much but...it still wasnt the same...so instead of not wanting to live...i just...i was really depressed...i think tan noticed sometimes. I'm not sure though..."
Ianto sighed. "She does..."
"How do you know? I worry about it but i cant exactly just ask her."
"Shes a really smart girl jack. And the way she asks if your okay, its like she expects it or something."
"I've never done it before now. It isnt gonna be like that any more anyway."
There was a ring at the door and ianto got up to go answer it. "Hi cass."
"Hi Yanto, I've got your fizzy drinks as well as your pizza. Want some help carryin?"
He frowned momentarily, he didnt want it to spread that he was bi just yet but he couldnt carry it all. "Okay Cass. Thanks."
"Oh no problem Ianto. Its better than workin at the counter."
"It must be." He said, letting her inside. She giggled hard at seeing jack on the couch. "Got company?" She snickered cockily.
"Not really since he lives here." Ianto said with a small grin which was that of a mischevious school boy. She laughed out rightly and grinned brightly as she set the stuff down on the coffee table. "Hello. I'm cass. Me and ianto went to college together."
"hi I'm jack."
"Little under the weather?"
"A bit..."
"Well feel better. Ianto, take care of him."
"Okay cass. He smiled and led her out. He went back to jack, sat down and opened his own pizza, handing jack his own box. Jack took a slice and nibbled on it.
"I cannot believe that a four year old little girl likes her pizza with peppers on it that sets a full grown adults mouth on fire."
"Yeah, i thought the same thing."
They put a film in and laid across the couch together, jack curled into iantos side, a leg intertwined with his.
Jack fell asleep and it gave ianto another chance to observe his lover, or another version of him. It was still jack though, only his eyes were much much older than himself was.
He drifted off after a while.
After an hour they both woke, got dressed and tidied up the house. They watched another film, waiting for gwen and tanwen.
"Daddy!" Tanwen said, throwing herself into her fathers lap. "Me and my friends had soo much fun! We got ice cream all over Uncle Rhys too!"
Jack laughed. "How?"
"We threw it...i wanted ta see how far it would go!"
"Well then its okay. Remember what i told you?"
"If i ever get in trouble to say 'It seemed like a good idea at the time' and bat my eyes." She said. Jack chuckled as they ither two laughed openly.
"I'll leave you guys alone."
Tanwen went to her room to change.
"Can i ask you something?"
"Shoot."
"Why tanwen?"
"Because in your diary about you and me you wrote that if you ever had a little girl you'd name her tanwen because it means white fire in welsh. So thats what i did. I named her thta because i knew youd want her to be called that." Jack said. Ianto smiled and hugged jack and jack hugged him back.
Tanwen then fell down the stairs and jack and ianto went wide eyed rushing the stairs to find tanwen giggling madley, "can i do it again?"
"No. You cant tanwen. Come here, let me look you over." Jack said. He led her to the couch and told her to sit down. He checked for any wounds or bruises and she had a few tiny little nicks. Bit look more like shes fallen and scraped her knee than fell down the stairs.
"I'm fine daddy, taddy. I want you to tuck me into bed."
"Okay sweetheart, come on." Jack said, he and ianto leading her upstairs.
"Will you tell me a story?"
"Okay. Well, once there was a beautiful woman who lived in a tower. She wanted to go but she couldnt, because there were monsters all around the tower, guarding it. So she decided to sing, and it sounded like a thousand choirs, thousands of voices all from her and it was beautiful, and it made her eyes glow bright purple, and the voices and the light from her eyes blinded the monsters and made them sleepy." Jack said, ianto smiled, he didnt know jack was so good with kids. "So all of the guards fell asleep and she got to leave. She stepped outside, smiling with the brightest smile you'll ever see and looked around at the blue grass and silver leaves on the trees and the beautiful topaz sky, and she loved it." Jack said, smiling. "The end."
"Wow." Tanwen breathed. "Was everything really that pretty there daddy?"
"Yeah, it was Tan."
"Cool." She said, her words pettering off in sleep.
Ianto took this time to look around the room. On the oposite wall was black and white paint splatter, that read 'I'm impossible and i love it!' And on the right on it had a painting of a galaxy, the left had red and blue paint splatters and said 'Warning torchwood child'.
"You like it?"
"Yeah, it brilliant."
"Me, gwen, rhys, alice and the doctor and clara did it while i was in a fit state to." Jack said.
"Its amazing."
"Good night Tan. Love you."
"Love you too daddy." She mumbled before going to sleep.
"Come on, lets gi to bed, i'm wipped out."
"Yeah, come on." He led jack from the room, turning off the light and closing her door half way.