a\n: I feel like I haven't updated in forever……do you guys too? Ugh, I'm so mad…I still have to math homework and studying, but I need some writing escape, yeah know? Haha anyways, enjoy!!!!!!! Hope you like, its longer than usual I think. =))) maybe because of that a longer review than usual?????????
"Ms. Ulmer…..i got Ian's test results back…and since there are no parents around I'm supposing you're the one providing decisions? "
"Yes mam." She replied quickly and the nurse smiled sadly.
"Ok…well…we got the results back today…and…Ms. Ulmer I'm so sorry to tell you this…..there's so much pressure on is brain…and if we don't do a surgery his memory will be completely gone…I'm sorry…you…do you need a moment? That's all really…" Erin stared at her. That's all? That's all! How could that be all? She had just sent Erin's life crashing around her, closing inside her. She was paralyzed by grief.
"My Ian?" is all she could whisper as tears rolled down her cheeks. Erin looked at her hands as the nurse hugged her awkwardly.
"Ms. Ulmer….its later…how about you try to get some sleep? Stay with Mr. Mckinley…and in the morning we'll talk."
"Is…is there a chance he won't make it out of surgery….just give a percentage." The nurse gulped.
"there's a….a….a….65% chance…he'll make it out with permanent complications…speech and memory. A 75% chance…..it'll be too hard to correct…and if vitals go down….he could die." Erin took in a deep, shuddering breath. Tears came harder, faster.
"No…no…my Ian…..no, Zip!..." she fell to the floor and looked up at the ceiling….though she was looking more towards the sky. Her family had brought her to church when she was a kid….she believed…she wasn't bad…..gothic was just a calling…a lifestyle she didn't want others to be scared of her for or care about…she knew it worried some people….did it anger God? She could only think He was punishing her…maybe for that one lie…or the cursing…..all she could say silently was, "I'm loyal God….i'm sorry….." she lowered her voice.
"Please don't take my Zip?"