DISClaimer: I'm not Stephenie Meyer. I make no profit from this.
I am, however, quite in love with werewolves. And Jasper from the movie. His face is incredible, and he wants cake.
The first little Max POV is just a bit I thought would work well here...
For some weird reason, it's also super long.
Hope you enjoy this.
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Seth's face blew into my mind as I slept.
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Max's POV
I fluttered my eyes open at about half past eight.
"Mackenzie?" Bella was sitting, watching me look tired and ill. "Hello!" She said softly.
"Uhhh… hi?" I smiled, my lips hurting terribly. "Where…"
"Carlisle put you in the top room in the house." She paused, "Alice said that Seth's coming." She smiled again, "Apparently, he's terrified for you."
"Oh, bloody hell-" I started, but a shot of pain through my head told me I had said enough.
"Here… drink this," She whispered, handing me a drink of something warm. I ignored the empty taste of it and drank deeply, grateful for the warmth. "As I said, Seth is utterly terrified for you."
Seth's POV
I thought about phasing and streaking after her, but realised that would probably do more harm than good. She was scared - I could smell her fear, and Jacob was watching me nervously as I growled loudly and swore.
"Dude…" Jake managed to blurt seconds later, still staring into the distance after her. "Aren't you gonna chase her?" I shrugged. I didn't know.
"She wants to leave." I managed to squeak from my throat. I hated it. The word… "Wants to." I repeated, "She's scared. I didn't do it right, I should have just told her straight out… I did it all frickin' wrong… I should hav-"
"Don't worry, Seth," Nessie said softly, Jacob moved to sit down beside her, and she curled her arms around him and sighed. I shuddered as I imagined Max doing the same thing.
"Maybe you should go home, Ness'." Jacob muttered a couple of minutes later, "I think Seth'll be sending out a search party in about thirty seconds…" I smirked at him, baring my teeth in a silent growl. He laughed.
"What's so funny?" I growled back, "You think she's alright? Do you? Do you think I'm gonna be able to face myself if I let her run away and she… she crashes or something? What, is that funny to you?" He frowned immediately, knowing he'd done wrong.
"No… Seth, no…" he laid a hand on my arm and tried to calm me. I almost barked at him, wrenching myself out of his grip.
"She's gonna hurt herself…" I groaned, falling to the floor beside them, crossing my legs and putting my head in my hands. "I… God…" I looked up at Jake, he was wearing a worried smile, "This is imprinting, is it?" I snarled suddenly.
"Seth, this is… this is imprinting, yeah," I almost screamed in frustration. I could have done it, but for the solitary tear that traced its way down my cheek. Blinking twice, I realised it wasn't tears. It was raining.
"Oh, Christ." I looked at them both, and realised I was running before I could stop. With one bound, I was a shaggy-haired, sandy brown wolf, loping down the strip, growling and snarling.
I had to find her.
If I didn't find her and something happened… I'd never forgive myself. God, I'm not going to forgive myself now. I swore as I sniffed the air. The rain was dissipating the scent quickly, but I could follow it. I could track.
I told myself so as I bounded further down the strip, following the freeway as I found it, trying to take care to stay out of sight.
Max is in trouble, I murmured to myself as I felt half a stab of pain in my chest, forgetting about anything that could be hurting me, forgetting that I mattered, and knowing there's one person in the world who means everything to me, and that I should be with her.
I've only known her for a day and a half.
This is imprinting, I guess. Can't say I don't like it.
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I pushed on until the rain got too hard. It felt like bullets in my back, and I dropped under a couple of trees to try and breathe easy for a while.
Max's face never left my mind as I ran, as I rested. I couldn't breathe easy for longer than the time her face was out of my mind. It was always there.
I sighed and went to start running again, as soon as the rain backed off a little, drew back the curtain of cloud and left me with a glimmer of colour, a glimmer of hope.
"Stop, Seth." Jake's voice startled me. "Ha, knew you weren't expecting me," I kept running, trying to shake his voice out of my head. "Seth… calm down. Cullen is on the phone. He says… they found her, Alice and Jasper found her. She was bleeding."
"Did he freak out?" I knew Jasper was weak-willed when it came to blood. I worried especially because Edward had said she was sweet.
"No, according to Alice he was very good. He managed to wipe most of it away from her, actually. Alice was quite proud."
"I don't think I have time for this, Jake. Either she's alive or not." I muttered mentally, and then shook myself. "Well?" Jake pulled a face at me in my mind. "Is she alright or not?"
"She's…" He swallowed, and I could feel the nerves in his chest, hovering over the conversation. "She's unconscious, Seth, but Carlisle thinks she's gonna be cool." if Carlisle thought it, I was cool. "He said… Edward said… you should go home, get her a change of clothes and eat something, because they're not offering." He laughed, "Though Bella was going to make something for Nessie - I've got some stuff to get from the store, and there's a game on, apparently, so I'm there." He grinned again. "So Edward was probably making it up, though…" I listened to the pause with a little trepidation. "I'm feeling good today; Seth… like life's got stuff to offer." He laughed. "Maybe it's Mackenzie - she's a livewire, isn't she?" He mentally grinned and extended some calm to me. "Come back home, get something to eat, and relax for an hour - get her some clothes, jeans and shirt, Edward said… and then go up about eight."
I nodded, shuddering for a second.
"You're cold, Seth?" he interjected my thoughts, surprised. I turned on my heel and started stalking back home.
"I'm coming back." He nodded in my head again.
"What did it, then? Do you know?" I stopped as he dared to ask. "Did you scare her last night?"
"I ended up sleeping in her bed." I stopped, wondering why I was admitting it, "I'd sleepwalked." I almost laughed at myself, it was so pathetic, "She let me hug her to sleep though. Seemed pretty OK with it." another tiny pause, "I… I think she freaked at the super-fast-healing-thing too."
"I guess." He paused, seemed to consider it. "What're you gonna do when you see her again?"
"I'm gonna take it slow." There was a long pause. I'd honestly spoken before I thought about it, but, now that I was thinking straight again, I think I was right to say it. "I don't want to scare her."
"Fair enough." He nodded.
"Stop nodding in my head," I muttered back at him, "It's making me feel nauseous."
He went to nod, but just stopped himself in time. My head jolted, spinning at the weird half-nodding situation.
"Well…" I stopped. "What do I do?" I looked at the trees around me, my head hurting along with my heart. Jake shrugged.
"Come home. When I drop Nessie off tonight, I'll give you a call, you can come up too. We'll get her, bring her back-"
"Yeah." I sighed, phasing back to my human form.
I pulled my jeans back on and sat down under the shade of the trees as I felt the rain on my chest. Curling up against the nearest tree trunk, I groaned and closed my eyes. Mackenzie's face flickered into my mind, the fear in her eyes as she screamed away on that damn bike, I imagined her face as she lost control and crashed - was she scared? Crying, blinded by tears? Or maybe, just maybe, she was pleased. I hated that picture in my head - there was nothing worse at that second than that smile on her face, the pure joy I imagined on her face as she turned the corner, skidded and lay bleeding in the road.
No. I blocked that from my mind. She said she liked me. She said… she didn't want to leave.
This was Renesmee's fault. She showed her those memories, sent her over the edge into madness.
Awful. I thought to myself, realising I should stop being so freaking selfish, stop it right now. She needed me, and I was sitting here, doing nothing.
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I made it back to my house at about half six, just before seven o'clock, maybe. I had sat, moping for twenty minutes flat, thinking about what it meant to me to have imprinted, why I should keep trying to get her to stay, and everything like that, and I had come to the conclusion that she didn't have to stay. She could leave if she wanted, but I would be going with her. I'd follow her to the centre of the earth, if I had to. Although I would rather she wouldn't make me go. That didn't seem like such a nice place to go.
I didn't eat. I figured I would be sick if I did, because I just felt awful. Everything seemed to be going over my head, I couldn't function without her, sick with worry, and as I pulled a T-shirt on with a muddy wolf print on the shoulder, I was painfully reminded of why I was dressing up. For the longest time I'd run around shirtless, but now, it seemed, the longer I was around her, the more clothes I was wearing - even though I wanted to be wearing less and less.
"You coming, then, Seth?" Jake appeared at my door at seven, half dragged me to his truck and made me sit by the window.
I ignored the talk between Nessie and Jacob and sat with my eyes closed, my head pressed against the cold glass of the window. It was too hot in here. I didn't want to be here. I was afraid. That was the problem.
I was scared I'd fallen too far.
Max's POV
I rocked on my heels as I tried to get up, Jasper caught me under the arm and I smiled warily. Bella watched us from the corner of the room. I had wanted to thank Jasper, but he wouldn't take a step closer to me.
Apparently, they had to explain.
Turned out I had been in that car with two vampires.
Denial, I think, was hardly an option, this time, considering I was sensible to put two and two together and not get seventy-three.
Oh, I had a slight freak-out, because … well, first werewolves, then bloody memory-girl down at La Push, and freaking… these guys are a family of vegetarian vampires…
What kind of crap is that?
"Please, Mackenzie, it's not crap-"
"Get out of my head!" I shrieked at Edward, my heart rate rising, "That's so weird!"
"Calm down." Jasper had said softly, and then the atmosphere calmed again - Alice had pulled him towards her, said something into his ear, and he smiled, took a deep breath and stepped forward. Everyone but Bella had slipped out when I looked down at my feet, embarrassed.
"So…" He said when he'd set me to my feet again.
"I'd hug you, but you might eat me."
"I'm getting better, I promise." He laughed again, biting his lip. "Listen, it was nothing, really. Alice did most of it-"
"You could have left me there." I said, not looking at him, feeling the blush rise in my cheeks. "And you didn't. You're just as sweet as Seth."
"I doubt that." He smiled again, very gingerly taking my hand between his. "Listen… don't mention it, alright? It was nothing. Just luck, and…" He couldn't think of anything to say.
"Luck and having a good heart." I smiled. "Thanks, Jasper."
"You're welcome."
He left with an embarrassed smile on his face, running a hand through his hair.
"I doubt he expected that, Mackenzie."
"Call me Max." I said reflexively, and then swallowed, closing my eyes and fighting the panic that had hit me. I think it hadn't hit before now because of the stuff Carlisle had put into me, painkillers, all that sort of thing, but now that fog was clearing, and I was suddenly in the middle of all these thoughts I couldn't understand. "When's Seth gonna get here?"
"Soon, Mackenzie."
"Max." She laid a hand on my shoulder as I looked up at her and spoke reflexively again.
"You don't seem scared, Max." She said softly. "There are several vampires in the house, and you're going to go off with Wolves. But you're not scared."
"Hey," I grinned, "I'm terrified, but…" I paused, reluctant to say any more. "You don't know the half of it."
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