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I cried. You might too.

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I closed my eyes, put my head onto my knees and hugged them tight, afraid to watch them, afraid to see what was going to happen.

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Max's POV

I watched him half leap at Jasper, and rose, slowly at first, then, when I was sure, when I knew exactly what I was going to do, but still changing my mind every other second, I pulled the T-shirt off again, the shorts lay beside it, and I closed my eyes and stood at the edge. The wind hit me and almost made me freeze. I shuddered and wrapped my arms around myself, wishing my hands were Seth's, rubbing my upper arms, making me feel wanted.

Tears were still seeping from my eyes, stinging the cut on my face as I stood at the top of the cliff, the wind whipping my hair around my face, spiralling it across my cheeks, making me hurt. I shook as I stood, alone, scared, and terrified, looking down into the water.

Nothing to live for. I had lost Seth. I had lost my family. Hell, with the row that was going on down there, I was probably in the Cullens' bad books too.

I closed my eyes again and cried, let the tears seep out of the corners of my eyes and drip down my face, the wind picked up and stung my cheeks more. I wanted to yell, to scream and to throw myself off the top of a building.

Here would do.

I rocked back and forth on my heels, my shoulders shook with sobs, silent, because nobody was here to listen.

"Dear Seth," I murmured aloud, trying to think of the last lines of Romeo and Juliet. They left me instantly, for all the good half a literature degree had done me. I wondered what I had done to end up here, really. Was it just luck, or… fate? General crapness of life? That one would do.

It all seemed to happen to me. I shook my head and looked out across the landscape again. It was a beautiful place, the La Push Reservation, and I wanted to see it all.

But that could wait for another lifetime. I had ruined so many chances by coming here, by trying to make friends, trying to make something of my life.

I'd failed at that like I'd failed my brother. Ben had begged me to enjoy life for him, his last words as he lay on the tarmac on the motorway, the paramedics trying to save him. He was choking on his own blood, tears blinding the pair of us. I would never forgive myself. At least this time I could apologise and he would hear me.

I didn't want to do it, of course. I had no option though. I felt like there was nothing for me to do but this. Maybe it was just me being mad, again. All I could remember was Seth being my soul mate. I'd ruined that, he had… started to hate me. Because I leaned in and kissed Jasper's forehead. Because Seth couldn't cope with me saying thank you into his ear.

Because it was wrong for me to care. It was wrong for me to show feelings. And he couldn't tell me any different.

What would I say to him if I had the chance? I didn't know. I didn't want to know. It would be full of begging, full of screaming and crying and pain and illness and terror and hatred for everything but him. It would be an apology. It would be a disappointment. I would hate myself and have nothing to show for it.

My head was pounding. It was thumping, words were screaming in my ears, but I didn't understand what they mean, what they were trying to say to me. Everything seemed to be colliding, crashing between my ears, undoing me with every step I took closer to the edge. Colours were slamming across my vision, trying to stop me from doing it. It was confusing me, absolutely doing my head in.

I stopped and felt uncertain for the first time up here. I didn't want to die, did I? Ah, my mind replied, already making itself up, but what have you got to live for?

I took another step towards the edge and heard her scream.

Alice had felt my decision. She'd seen it; she knew what I was going to do. But they wouldn't make it in time. Not even with their weirdo vampire super speed thing.

I closed my eyes and imagined a year from now, the pack having drinks in my memory, no; I had been here less than a week. They would forget me quickly. I wouldn't mean a thing to them.

They'd forget me, because I wouldn't matter.

Still, I'd have liked them to have had a drink on me.

Seth's POV

I looked at him. What a… I shook my head silently and Edward leant in to whisper my thoughts into Jasper's ear.

He looked up at me and mirrored every movement, trying to make me uncomfortable. It worked.

"What the hell did you think you were doing?" I said eventually.

"Sorry? You'd prefer I left her in the cave?" He put his hands behind his head, relaxed as he stood up. I followed suit, resisting the urge to phase right in his face. "'Cuz I can go put her back, if you want?"

"Shut up." I retorted, feeling a wave of humiliation wash over me. Was that him, or was it just me?

"It's just you, mutt." Edward said softly. The pack shifted in response to it, readying themselves for a fight that they didn't really want to happen. The Cullens shifted too. Strange. I thought Edward was my friend. "Things change, Dog. You insult my family, you insult me." I raised an eyebrow, now absolutely ready for a brawl.

"I don't want a fight with Max watching." Jasper shouted, no doubt trying to attract her attention wherever she was. "I doubt you do either. She's my friend, I wouldn't want to hurt her."

He was playing with my mind. Jake had said he was the charismatic one, he had said he would talk anyone round to believing whatever he wanted them to believe. I think right now, he was either attempting to make me believe that Max would hate me more if we fought, so much so that she would just leave… or that she would be so hurt… I wouldn't be able to forgive myself.

I sucked in a breath and looked away. The embarrassment this time was all mine.

"Seth!" the voice this time was from behind us, I looked around, and mom was watching me, frowning. "Where did Mackenzie go?"

"Hell if I know." I shouted without thinking, and every wolf that had imprinted snarled at me. "What?" Was everyone against me now? Was that it? Hating me because I had imprinted on the one person that wouldn't be normal? Because she was anything but.

I didn't even look around when Edward muttered a few words of confirmation to me. I ignored him and stood absolutely still.

"You're not even worried?" Jake asked softly.

"Of course I am. I don't know where she is." He stared at me and I shook my head. "Just leave me alone." I crossed my arms and stared at Jasper. "This is all your fault."

"You're blaming me?" He said softly. I couldn't… no, I wouldn't contain my anger any longer. Snarling, I went to launch myself at him, to rip him to pieces. I had had enough of him and his stupid mind games, his attempts at making me feel… better.

I nearly got him as well, but I was halted by the scream that rose from Alice's throat as she held her head in her hands.

"Alice?" Jasper sidestepped me and ran to her, wrapped his arms around her and kissed her forehead, tried to calm her down, his concentration revealing the fact he was having no effect on her whatsoever. "Alice, sweetheart, what is it?"

"No… no…" He rubbed her back, his face still contorted in concentration. "She's going to die…" She murmured, over and over again. "It's all… it's all going wrong-"

"Jasper?" I said softly, "Jasper… what's she seen?"

"I don't know." He replied, still holding his wife in his arms. "Ask Edward."

"She's going to die." Edward said, just as emptily, all trace of anger, frustration or hatred gone. "Nothing's going to stop her from doing it."

I think as one, we turned to the cliff top. I had realised where she was almost immediately. She was going to jump. For real this time, let the current take her too far. Let the current blast her into the rocks, let her blood seep into the water.

Her silhouette, made so dark by the still-setting sun, stepped forward again, leaned over the edge, stopped, and toppled forward, her arms flew out, a perfect dive, because it would be her last.

We blinked as one, and by the time we opened them, she was gone.

"No splash." I think Jared murmured, a horrified look on his face.

The sun passed down behind the horizon, the last few rays of it disappearing. I thought it had gone down earlier, before we'd eaten, but it was low-lying cloud, the storm we'd faced earlier spinning further out into the ocean.

She let her life end with the sunset.

Beautiful.

Max's POV

I closed my eyes and leaned forwards, feeling for all the world, unbalanced. I had had enough. This was enough. I was done. I fell forwards, the tears in my eyes whipped away by the wind.

I loved flying, freefalling through the air without a care in the world, because I knew I had nothing left to worry about, nothing that would pull me back, throw me in, to scare me, or upset me.

I swallowed a deep breath about twenty feet up, having half-a-second to register the blow to my stomach and the fact that I was now tumbling sideways onto a lower dive platform, the one Embry had pointed out earlier, somebody… or something, falling with me.

I rose to my feet, winded, and stared at the wolf before me. It jerked its head and I turned away, mindful that they wanted to phase. There was a long moment of silence between me and whoever it was, then they cleared their throat and I turned.

"You know that's dangerous, don't you?" They smiled at me and I looked down at the water, the spray from the waves hitting the base of the platform and splashing against my body.

"I could have killed myself." I replied, shaking my head, thinking clearly again.

I sunk to my knees and sobbed at what I had just tried to do.

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