Disclaimer: I do not own the following qoute, it is from the brilliant vampire book The Vampire Lestat by Anne Rice. And I do not own any of the characters featured in Twil
ight or any of the lines *sighs* XD
What is there to know? What is there to give? We are the abandoned of God
And there is no Devil's Road spinning out before me,
And there are no bells of hell ringing in my ears
Lestat The Vampire
By Anne Rice
EDWARD POV
"Edward..." Carlisle began but I cut him off before he could lecture me. "Dad, I know what your going to say, I read thoughts remember?" I said sarcastically.
There was an awkward silence.
"Sorry," I muttered, not even sure he could hear me.
Apology accepted, Carlisle thought, his 'voice' curt. "Her blood...it smelled better than the others...why?" I asked. It was true, the girl's blood smelled like nothing else in this world, like the most delicous food or the sweetest wine. It was like I was an alcholic...or herion addict and she was my brand of herion.
"I'm such a monster." I stated, still looking down at the ground.
"Her blood smelled more appitizing only to you, her blood sang to you."
"Sang?"
"It was like music, her pulse was like a melody to you."
I shuddered trying not to think about, but too late, the dry ache at the back of my throat was pushed to the front of my mind.
You shouldn't have left, Carlisle thought, compassionatly.
"I had too, I just can't do this anymore, everyone else has someone they can talk to. They don't understand," I said, my face setting in hard scowl. I couldn't explian why I left, I just gave up. I sighed inwardly, remembering the night I ran from my family,
"Edward, I can't stand this anymore! You just sit there, not talking, not listening to anything we say, you don't even play your stupid piano anymore!" Rosalie exploded standing up and practically stamping her feet. I strided over to her, and the rest of the family warned me through thier thoughts, Edward...Don't do anything stupid...You'll regret it later...Leave Rosalie alone...Calm down.
Who did they think they were? Technically I was old enough to be most of their parents!
I ignored them all, walking towards the door.
"Where are you going?" Emmett asked, rolling his eyes.
"Edward, stay?" Esme pleaded
"Where are you going? I cant see anything!"
"I'm sorry Edward, don't leave."
"Edward, let's talk about this, are you going to Denali?"
I glared at Carlisle, "I don't know where I'm going."
I ran, ignoring thier thoughts. In the back of my mind I knew where I was running to.
Forks. We had moved a year ago, the people at La Push were too suspicous for us to stay, maybe I thought if I broke the treaty the wolves would kill me.
I ran through the cities on the way, killing mercilessly.
Finally I reached Forks.
Before I realised we had arrived at the Cullen's new residence, not a big white house this time, a converted church, it was so ironic.
Carlisle and I walked into the room and I heard my family's thoughts,
Edward, what have you done?
Why didn't I see this?
He's in so much pain
I hate this serious atmosphere
Oh my God this is my fault!
I should have seen this coming...
I looked at the floor and silently walked up the stairs, thier thoughts only proved what I was thinking to myself, I am a monster, I can't try and be the good guy anymore.
I put a cd on, Clair De Lune was the first song, it was so beautiful, reminding me of the girl in Forks. Her beauty just made me even more of monster.
The time passed slowly but I still couldn't face my family.
Finally someone knocked on the door.
I expected it to be Esme and was surprised at the high, musical voice that said, "Edward, I know it's hard for you come hunt with Jazz and I?"
"Alice, how could you understand? You have Jasper, your soulmate."
Alice skipped into the room, Jasper following behind her, suddenly I wondered what he was thinking, Jasper was quiet, but his thoughts were always complex with hidden meanings behind them, I hope Edward gets better, bloodlust is like an illness an addiction!
"What happened Edward, I saw you in Seattle but Carlisle won't tell us where he found you?" Alice's black eyes were wide and shining with concern.
So I told them, Alice, Jasper and I were freaks among freaks, we had to stick together.
"Her blood smelt so good, that isn't even the right word for it, her blood smelt beautiful, almost as lovely as her face"
"So you couldn't kill her," Alice concluded.
"I couldn't hear her thoughts," I said suddenly, almost to myself.
"Hmm...How strange..." Jasper mused. Alice was strangly quiet, I wondered if she was seeing something, suddenly she spoke,"Edward, come hunting with us."
I realised, something I should have thought have before I left, I had a family and they cared about me and I cared about them.