Attractions of a Carnal Nature
By: Chaosticsoul
Genre: Angst/Romance
Paring: Eyes/Ayumu
Summary: The musings of Ayumu on his new obsession, Eyes Ruthford. But is this an obsession? A unyielding lust? A desperate love? Perhaps even a doomed man's last wish . . ?
Disclaimer: I do not own Spiral.
Warnings: DARK! Mentions of rape, incest, abuse, self mutilation, suicide, death . . . get the picture? And lets not forget yaoiy goodness, solo, anal, oral, humiliation, slave . . . and its also VERY AU (just takes a few facts from here and there . . . )
AN: Shit hit the fan. Was in a car accident, dad was having troubles, just alot of stuff. Sorry for the wait.
Part: 3/?
-Sacrifice: 3-
I saw him today.
Just for a second, when I looked again he was gone. But in that moment I was stripped naked in front of all those people, feeling him going deeper and deeper in me. Hen the harsh reality crashed around me, and I pressed on towards school.
The editor of the newspaper has been a help, helping me find footage of Eyes and pictures, any information. She doesn't press me on this, or why I have started playing the piano again. Only when I'm alone or with her though. I want to regain my own sound.
She's found countless videos, pictures, sound files and information. In five minuets they're burnt to DVD and I go home. Turning on my computer I stare at the screen, watching as pictures go by, and I hear his voice and music playing. On one of his original pieces I can feel his desire. It is only a preview of the song, a new song to be released next month, but it is enough.
That desire I sense make my body burn and crave his touch even more. Feeling of longing that flicker in the back of my mind come to the forefront and I need him. I need his touch, his force, his eyes burning into me. I need his cock in my ass, raping me with no regard for my well being.
I can imagine him taking me, enjoying breaking my body, making me scream. There will be no love on his part, I have lived long enough not to expect it or believe it, but there will be lust. Lust is all I need my master to feel, because I will supply the unending love, loyalty and pleasure.
My master just needs to accept my sacrifice.