Attractions of a Carnal Nature

By: Chaosticsoul
Genre: Angst/Romance
Paring: Eyes/Ayumu
Summary: The musings of Ayumu on his new obsession, Eyes Ruthford. But is this an obsession? A unyielding lust? A desperate love? Perhaps even a doomed man's last wish . . ?
Disclaimer: I do not own Spiral.
Warnings: DARK! Mentions of rape, incest, abuse, self mutilation, suicide, death . . . get the picture? And lets not forget yaoiy goodness, solo, anal, oral, humiliation, slave . . . and its also VERY AU (just takes a few facts from here and there . . . )
Part: 5/?

-Force: 5-

I was raped.

It was by someone I didn't know.

And it scared me more than I though possible.

I cried, calling for my brother or Eyes, but no one came to save me. They are both my masters, but I guess I am not enough for them to trouble themselves with. Not that I expected differently. But feeling someone except my masters violate me feels so wrong.

. . .

I have showered, and the water was near boiling, but despite that and that my skin is almost rubbed raw, I can still feel it. Being uses is not new to me, but being used by someone other than my masters is. It is a cold reality, and I try to bare it, but I feel so scared. If it happens again, what shall I do?

Shall I just lie there and let anyone have their way? Shall I keep trying to fight?

I lay on my bead wearing nothing and let the cool air caress me. I flip on the TV and instantly hear the newscaster screaming about a horrible murder. I look and see the man who had attacked me. He hadn't beed dead long, and it seemed as if he had been tortured before being killed. I then saw the flowers around his body, and I knew my master knew what happened.

I turned from the TV to my window and see him crouched there, looking right at me. Our eyes lock for a second before I bow my head in submission. He walks closer and I feel him run his smooth hand over my raw skin. I hiss, but it is barely audible.

"Ayumu . . . you are mine now . . ."

The words I have longed to hear.

I look up into my new master's ice blue eyes and tentatively reach out and touch his silver hair.

"My master . . . "

"Mine"