A/N - I wasn't thinking of doing another smutty chapter initially, but the head wants what it wants! Thank you to Suzanne Collins and E.L. James for these characters.

CPOV

I wasn't expecting to find her so…..tempting with her hands all covered in a rabbits' blood, but I could only imagine how right it seemed for her to be out there, hunting again. I wanted to go with her, but I knew I'd only be a distraction because I'm far from used to walking on anything but straight, solid terrain. I could tell Katniss didn't want to offend me, but it was better that Taylor went with her. Besides, I have her all to myself now and with how quickly I took her, it means we can slow things down after we're all in our tents.

I rub her back mindlessly with one hand, the other holding hers against my chest. I had thought once I met and fallen in love with Ana, once I had lost all that, I wouldn't feel this way again. I can't believe I'm saying it again, love. But I know it's true, I know I have fallen for her in a way that is similar and yet different from how I fell for Ana. I shouldn't compare, they are so different and yet came into my world without thinking about who I was or even cared about that. This is probably why it made it so easy to fall for them. It wasn't about my money or my name, it was for me. Though with Katniss, it could be that I'm giving her something new to have fun with. But I don't think that's it, because she seems quite content when we aren't making love.

Love is a much easier word for me to use now that I know what it really means. I look down at Katniss and she tilts her head up at me, a smile playing on her swollen lips. She lets a small giggle escape before asking, "What?"

I shake my head and kiss her forehead. "I know I've said it already, but I'm still in shock that I'm falling so in love with you."

She sits up straight rather quickly, which alarms me at first, but then she swings her leg over me, and straddles me. Putting her small hands on my chest and leaning down so that her face is right before me, she says in a serious tone, "Christian, I don't know what it is that you're doing to me, but I don't want it to stop. We have both known true love and lost them when we had so much more to give to them and now that we have fallen into each other's lives, I think it's only right that this is happening the way it is. I was meant to sign up for that stupid list and you were meant to outbid everyone. It just happened that you were much…..you were a lot different than what I was expecting."

I sit up so that she is in my lap now, looking at her differently but the same. "What was it that you were expecting?"

She shakes her head, "I thought I told you this already. What Johanna had told me about you? That you were basically all business when it came down to sex. There was no talk of cuddling or even talking really, unless you were asking her something specific."

I think back on my time with Ms. Mason and realize that she was like most of the rest, maybe a little feistier in the bedroom department. I nod, "You're right, I'm not like the way she described me. Not with you anyway. I was like that with the others, the ones that meant nothing to me. But you aren't like the others, Katniss. You are….so much more than what I was wanting, apparently what I needed in my life again. Here we are, both still hurt from losing the ones we showed our true selves to and yet, I couldn't be happier than when I'm with you. When we're apart, I feel like I'm missing a part of me and I haven't felt like that in a long time. I want us to stay together despite what we end up finding back in 12, despite what Elena is trying to do, despite what it is she says your mother is up to. I want to be with you because you have made me whole again."

Tears all of a sudden spring into her gray eyes and she throws her arms around my neck, holding me tightly against her as I wrap my arms around her. This is where I was meant to be in my life. In the woods with the Mockingjay who was a girl on fire once upon a time. Now she is a woman whose life has been upended more times than I care to think about and she's mine. She's my fiery enchantress and I want to burn with her when she realizes it.

Her voice is soft and I can barely understand her given the sobs she's emitting, but then she takes a deep breath, pulling back to look at me. "I wouldn't have ever thought that a man like you could be like this. I wouldn't have thought that I could be like this either. I was lost. For an entire year, I didn't know what I was going to do with myself, I thought about death…I thought about how easy it would have been to just not eat or go out into the woods and let the wolves get me. I thought about sleeping syrup and I thought about setting myself on fire even. It would have made sense, the Girl on Fire actually dying by it."

Her words are frightening to me, but I let her continue. "But ever since that first kiss, Christian, that first kiss made me feel something I hadn't felt in so long."

I look into her eyes, trying to find the words for her, but she finishes, "I felt alive again, Christian, and you did that. You brought me back from a place that I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have been able to return from with anyone else. I would have just let them do whatever it was that they would have done to me. I would have gotten drunk every night to dull out the pain or to not feel them on me. I would have let myself wither away in some strange man's bed if it hadn't been you who woke me up from a sleep that I didn't realize I was in."

I put my fingers over her mouth, not wanting to go down this bleak trail anymore. "I didn't realize that my kiss did anything to you besides make you want to sleep with me until the next day when I thought you had left."

She shakes her dark head, a smile on her lips as she pulls away from my fingers, "What are you talking about?"

"The very next day, when you had gone to the bathroom, I had woken up and didn't know where you were. I thought you had left because I was just too….harsh on you. Thought I had frightened you away with my playroom. You have no idea how happy I had been to hear a toilet flush." I say with a laugh. She giggles too and it is the best noise considering what we're talking about. Without thinking about anything else but her, I lean in and kiss her heatedly, hoping that she knows everything I feel for her is in that kiss. Her hands tighten in my hair before she straightens herself against me, her covered breasts hot against my chest.

I grab onto her hips, rocking her back and forth slowly, feeling myself rise again. Trailing my lips down her neck and nibbling against the soft skin there, she tastes of what I think the woods smell like. Fresh, a little salty, but with a sweet tang to it too. It's an intoxicating scent, one that I want to smell for as long as I possibly can. I haven't been out in the woods in, well ever. The moan that emits from her throat is deep and vibrates against my lips, making me want to please her all the more. I tug on her shirt, her arms going up without anymore suggestion. She is always so ready for me.

"Christian…." Her voice is all raw from the desire pooling between her legs, getting me harder by the second. She moves just enough to glide herself along my shaft and then it's me who is letting a moan out. "Oh Christian…."

"Let me be inside of you, baby. You can already feel what you do to me." I practically growl at her.

Her eyes widen at my words, but she lifts her hips and slides herself down onto me until I'm completely filling her. She doesn't move for a moment, just looks at me, our matching gray eyes watching the other's reaction as she squeezes from the inside. Her eyelashes flutter down but she's intent on keeping them open. I lower my head, my mouth covering her taunt nipple through her thin bra, while keeping my eyes trained upon her face. She's so beautiful, the light of the moon making it seem luminescent. I decide at that moment, as she's riding me, no cares at the moment except for us, that I would do anything for her. And that includes finding out who is so insistent on hurting her over and over again.