I swear from now on I am not going anywhere without a notebook in my hands. Half of this chapter came to me while I was in the bus going home from school. It is not fun when your hands are full and you need to find something to write on before you forget. Anyway, here you go. Hope you like it.

Loud banging on the door woke me up.

"What?!" I shouted back annoyed, pulling my blankets over my head in the hopes of more sleep.

"Wakey! Wakey!" Came Jace's voice. "Morning training is canceled."

"Then why the hell are you waking me up?" My annoyed mood was quickly becoming one of anger.

"I felt like it."

"I think I feel like kicking your ass right now." I mumbled into my pillow.

"Alec? Are you up?"

"Go away Jace!" I growled at the door.

"Someone's a mister grumpy pants this morning."

I threw my shoe at the door.

"Ok, ok, I'm going." His voice lost the teasing tone as he said, "Izzy is making you breakfast by the way. Just as a fair warning." With that, he retreated down the hallway.

Unbelievable. I thought while getting up and glancing at the clock on my bedside table. Three hours of sleep, I observed miserably.

Well he doesn't know that. Said that annoying little voice in the back of my head.

As I made my way to the bathroom for a shower I glanced towards my arm feeling like something was out of place. And there was. The pink writing was back again.

Good morning beautiful…

The sight of it made me blush. I feeling started up in my chest, something foreign but pleasant nonetheless and those three simple words were enough to put a smile on my face.

I took my phone to send him a text.

You couldn't resist could you?

As I put my phone down and finally went into the bathroom, I started thinking about last night. It was perfect. I don't know why I had worried so much. He seemed to think that all my cluelessness was endearing. And the kissing...By The Angel! I could still feel it on my lips.

Maybe I stayed a little too long but I couldn't regret it. I will never regret spending time with him. I don't think I ever laughed that much in my whole life. And he even made me forget about Jace. Only for a few hours but still. No one had ever been able to do that before. It was easy being with Magnus. Talking with him, laughing, joking. It wasn't as difficult and awkward as it is with Jace sometimes. It was just…Perfect.

I looked at myself in the mirror. My hair was wet because of the shower and my skin still a little moist but that was not what grabbed my attention. I looked…happy. Really and genuinely happy. After just one date.

I wonder if he really meant it? If he really does want to see me again soon. I know I do. But I don't know how he can. I mean I am… well, me. Boring. Shy. Self conscious. In love with my parabatai. And then there is him: Loud. Colorful. Flamboyant. Not afraid of anything. Why would someone like him be with someone like me? There is no way I can ever come out of the closet. No way that anyone in my world can find out that we are dating. Are we even dating? Are people considered to be dating after just one date?

My head started to hurt again.

I took one step closer to the mirror, taking a better look at my shoulder. The cut that Magnus healed yesterday was now just a small, thin scar. It was barely visible if you didn't know it's there. I traced it with my finger pausing at the place where Magnus's lips had touched my skin. I shivered at the memory and stepped back again. Only then did I notice the big red love bite on my neck.

I blushed so deeply it blended into my skin. A hickey?! How did I not notice it before?! I thought alarmed. Someone will see. The warm feeling was now gone, replaced with a sense of horror. Someone will definitely see.

I took my stele and drew an iratze just below it. I hated myself for it. The thought of him marking me brought on another blush, but in a good way. I didn't mind it, on the contrary actually. But the thought of someone else seeing it overruled all of the good feelings and turned them bad. I just couldn't let anyone see.

Only when I was fully dressed and out in the hallway did I notice that I had a new text message on my phone. It was from Magnus. I opened it:

You? Never darling.

I smiled again.

"What are you smiling at?" Izzy asked suddenly.

I jumped and closed my phone, looking up startled. I didn't even notice I was already in the kitchen.

"Nothing." I answered while walking towards the fridge.

"Does this have something to do with you sneaking out last night?" She asked after a few seconds.

I stopped dead in my tracks. My eyes widened in disbelief and panic. Did she see? But I was so careful not to be seen!

"What?" I asked when I found my voice again. Still not turning around because I knew she will be able to see right through me.

"I am not stupid." She stated sounding mildly annoyed. "I saw you sneaking out yesterday. I mean, I was doing the same thing, but going out for me is normal. You on the other hand…"

At least she didn't see me sneaking back in at two am. That would have been even worse.

I didn't say anything though, just stood there not knowing what to say and attempting to regulate my breathing.

"Alec?"

"Hmm?"

"Are you seeing someone?"

Right in the bullseye.

"No." I said, turning around and glaring at her in the hope of masking my terror.

At least I don't think so. Yet.

She looked at me with sad eyes. Misreading my reaction. Thank the Angel.

"You don't have to be scared to date, Alec." She said after a minute of silence. "It's who you are."

"Izzy…" I started not even knowing what to say but she cut me off before I had the chance to figure it out.

"No. I know you are scared and ashamed but you don't have to be." She continued on before I could interject, "Ok, maybe a little scared. But you can keep it a secret."

That's what I'm doing.

"I just want to know when you finally do find someone. Ok? So I can make sure he treats you right." She smiled, which made me smile in return.

"I am supposed to be the big brother here." I said relaxing a little. But not enough to tell her. No. It was just one date. I am not ready for that yet.

She came closer and kissed me on the cheek. "You still are." She said and walked out off the room.

After that, the day went by normally.

For a few hours at least.

What are you doing?

Came a text from Magnus as I was sitting on my bed, reading.

Nothing.

I answered confused. Why was he asking?

Do you have some secretive Shadowhunter business to attend to today?

Came the reply soon afterwards.

Not right now. Later I have training and maybe patrol or something if Jace feels like it and makes me tag along. Why do you ask?

Now I was even more confused.

No reason.

Ok. I thought. So what was that all abou-

My thoughts were cut short as something pink flashed in the corner of my eye.

I looked at it and saw a new address written on my arm. I took up my phone again sending off:

Why is there an address on my arm again?

That is not just an ordinary address. It is the address of a caffee we are meeting at in ten minutes.

I read the text twice before replying.

Since when?

I didn't wait long for the response.

Since now. Come on. Chop Chop. I am waiting.

I smiled, already heading towards the door.

See you in ten.

I know it is a little shorter and not really that good but at least I tried.