Sorry for taking this long. I had actually written this three days ago but didn't have time to copy it to my computer. Anyway, hope you like it.
I woke up feeling incredibly comfortable and warm. An arm rested around my waist, holding me closer to the source of the warmth.
Magnus.
I smiled and opened my eyes. As I looked up I was met by sparkling golden green ones.
"Morning lovely." He said with a smile. He bent down a little so he could press his lips to mine.
I sighed into the kiss. Loving the familiarity of his soft lips as they moved in sync with mine.
"Morning." I smiled up at him a little shyly making his smile widen.
He softly brushed the hair out of my eyes.
"I missed you." He whispered after a few minutes of comfortable silence. "I haven't slept this good in the past week."
I smiled and snuggled a little closer to him. "Me either." I admitted with a slight blush.
"I missed having you to snuggle with. My bed is too big for only one person you know." He said nonchalantly, I looked up at him and blinked.
Did he really mean it? Had he missed me as much as I missed him? The thought made me feel…Good. Incredible actually. It made me realize I'm not the only one feeling this way. At least I hope I'm not.
"Where did you go?" He asked me looking amused.
I blushed slightly. "Nowhere. Just thinking."
"About what?"
"About how I told you we could sleep through a whole night without interruptions." I smiled a small smile. "And we did."
He laughed and hugged me closer. Planting a kiss on my lips.
"Yes, we did."
"I'm sorry about yesterday." I said after a minute of comfortable silence. "They're just…" I trailed off not being able to find the right words to describe them.
"Don't worry darling. I'm used to it." He said and then smiled softly at me. "You are the only Shadowhunter I care about anyway. The rest of them can say and do whatever they want. If it's not you, I don't care." His smiled widened and I laughed with a fresh blush.
"Well, I still feel like I need to apologize for them."
"I know darling. That's just one of the things I lo-like about you." I stopped at his words. What was that? Was he about to say he loves me?!
No! There is no way he would say that!
Before I had time to analyze it even further he kissed me. As I kissed him back he deepened it and hummed, successfully distracting me.
When my lungs screamed for air I broke the kiss and he immediately started to trail kisses down to my neck, nibbling softly at the flesh there. He slowly moved even more downwards and started sucking and nipping at a spot on my chest. Causing me to bite down a moan as he created a hickey there. He passed his tongue across the now reddened spot.
"You always heal it. Don't you?" He whispered into my skin. Making me shiver. "You don't want anyone to see, right?"
"I…" His teeth and tongue were making it difficult for me to form words.
"I'm just making sure no one sees." He said innocently while kissing up my neck to my lips. "If Wonder Boy sees it…" He kissed the corner of my lips teasingly. "Well, you'll have a lot of explaining to do." Our noses touched lightly from the closeness.
I leaned forward without even thinking about it, just wanting to feel his lips on mine. As our lips met I could feel that heat again. The only difference this time was that it was met by mine. As I deepened the kiss and tugged at his hair I could hear and feel his moan.
I loved hearing him make such beautiful noises because of me.
After a lot more kissing he started moving downwards again. I didn't even think about stopping him until his tongue peaked out, passing over my nipple teasingly. I jumped slightly at the sensation.
"S-Stop it. Mag-" I bit my tongue. Biting down a moan that was threatening to emerge.
"Why?" He asked me innocently. "It feels good. Doesn't it?"
"N-No." I lied firmly.
"Oh, really?" He kissed my chest. "Why don't I believe you?"
"I-" I was cut off by a whimper as he bit my skin teasingly.
"You…?" He whispered seductively.
All my will to resist shattered and I fisted his hair, bringing him up for a heated kiss.
I was so lost in the kiss I didn't even notice when his hands traveled to my belt. I didn't even notice when he undid it. I did notice however, when he tugged them down slightly. Not enough to take them off but enough to capture my attention.
He was looking at me questioningly as I opened my eyes. His hands still at the hem off my pants.
At that moment I knew he wouldn't go further if I don't want to. He was asking for permission.
And I didn't know if it was because of that or something else but I nodded slightly.
He looked at me for a second longer, a little flash of shock passed over those beautiful, lust darkened eyes before it was gone the next instant. And so were my pants as he pressed his lips hungrily to mine. I knew I should be at least a little embarrassed at being almost completely naked in front of him but at the moment I couldn't even think straight. My every thought was consumed by Magnus. Everything was Magnus.
"Alec! Don't tell me you're still sleeping!" Came Izzy's voice, accompanied by the creak of the door opening.
I froze and pushed him off of me, quickly sitting up and pulling a pillow into my lap. Magnus chuckled, deciding to just lazily lie next to me and play with my hand; apparently not very fazed by my sister standing there in shock.
My eyes were wide, my cheeks flushed, and my breathing was a little heavy as I looked at her. There was no way I could explain this.
"Oh, sorry. I didn't mean to interrupt." She said quickly turning around to leave. But not before flashing me a knowing smile.
"Izzy, no. What did you need?" I asked quickly before she closed the door.
"Oh nothing. I can take care of it. I'll tell mom you're not feeling well or something. You just continue with…whatever it was you were doing." At her wink I blushed harder. "And Alec!" She poked her head back in. "Use a locking rune or a spell next time. You were lucky it was just me."
"Will do." Magnus said with a bright smile and then the door closed, leaving us alone again.
He looked at me for a moment before hopping off of the bed. "I'm going to go take a shower." He said and kissed me once more before walking into the bathroom.
I was left looking after him in shock. What just happened?
Now that I could think straight again I couldn't figure out what had gotten over me earlier. I didn't even think about stopping him. I wanted-no, I needed more. Needed him closer. Needed to feel him everywhere.
But now I was back to my senses and remembered that we were still in The Institute. With Jace just next door…There was just no way can pick up from where Izzy interrupted us. Not here. Not now.
The water stopped running and I snapped out of my thoughts.
I need to get dressed. And with that thought I rose from my bed and walked to my dresser to find some clean clothes.
Not long after I got dressed the door of the bathroom opened to reveal Magnus. He was standing there in some fresh-tight-clothes, covered in glitter, face made up, and his hair still slightly damp.
He looked incredibly hot just then and I blushed.
He smirked and walked towards me. "Sorry about earlier darling. Got carried away again." He put his hands on my hips as he stopped in front of me. "You are just too sexy for your own good."
I blushed even brighter at that.
"Oh, I have something for you." He said suddenly and let me go, walking to where he left his coat on my chair.
He slowly reached into one of the pockets and pulled something out.
"This is yours I presume." He said handing me my weapons belt, careful not to touch any of the weapons. "I don't have a lot of Shadowhunters leaving their weapons belts in my bedroom. They usually hold onto it for dear life." He grinned at me.
"Thanks." I said blushing.
Throughout the whole week I had wanted to tell him that I left it there more than a few times but every time I heard his voice I just…forgot.
I went and put the belt on my dresser.
"I should probably go before anyone else decides to show up." He smiled at me but didn't make any move to go despite his words.
He took my hand and pulled me into his arms, planting a soft kiss on my lips.
There was no heat like our kisses just minutes ago. But it still made me want more. Made me feel like we weren't close enough. And I wanted to get as close to him as humanly possible.
"Do you want to accompany me to breakfast?" He asked me after the kiss.
"I don't know." I said, biting my lip.
I really wanted to go with him but on the other hand, what if someone comes looking for me like Izzy just did? I'm already late for training as it is.
"Isabelle said she would cover for you." He reminded me as if he had just read my mind. "And I really don't want to leave you just yet."
I smiled at him. He's right. There is nothing holding me back from going with him. "I'd love to."
"Come on then, lovely." He said with a big smile. He took my hand and pulled me out of the door with him.
I laughed again, feeling the happiest I have all week.
He doesn't want to leave me as much as I don't want to leave him. The thought made my heart skip a beat as I followed him out of the Institute.
…
"Where were you?" I heard an accusing voice just as I opened the door to my room.
I stopped short at what I saw.
Jace was sitting on my bed, looking at me with narrowed eyes and his arms crossed over his chest.
Somewhere in the far back corner of my mind I noticed that he was sitting on the side that Magnus had slept on last night.
I blushed slightly and shifted uncomfortably.
The thought of Magnus made me feel a little giddy while Jace was making me nervous.
How times have changed.
Is it possible that being with Magnus is making me feel better than being with Jace?
I did notice that I am thinking more about Magnus than I ever did about Jace. Especially lately.
Is it possible that I love Magnus? That I love him more than Jace?
"Alec!" Jace called me. Snapping me out of my thoughts. I was glad he did, this isn't something I wanted to think about. Definitely not now. My thoughts went to this morning when Magnus had almost said something but then stopped himself.
Was it that? Did he almost say 'I love you'?! No! He wouldn't do that. How could he love me? There is just no way.
"Alec!" Jace called me again and I made myself focus this time.
This is not the time to be thinking about it. I reminded myself.
"What?"
"Would you just stop daydreaming and talk to me?!" He was looking a little pissed as he got up from the bed and walked towards me.
"What do you want to talk about?" I asked him, faking calmness as I freaked out on the inside.
"First of all I want to know where you were. Izzy said you weren't feeling well and to leave you to rest but when I sneak in here, all I find is an empty room. I would really like for you to explain that."
"I was taking a walk." I answered without even a second of hesitation but I felt like squirming again underneath his gaze.
"Why do you walk so much lately?" He asked, still suspicious.
"Because I feel like it."
"Well, if you don't mind, I would just love to go with you next time."
I paled at the thought of going to Magnus's with Jace following me. That wouldn't end well however you look at it.
"Yes, I do actually." He looked hurt so I quickly continued. "I walk so I can be alone and think for a while. I don't want anyone there with me."
He looked like he wouldn't let it this go and it made me feel even more on the edge than before.
I can't do this. It's hard to lie to my parabatai. It felt like I was lying to myself more than anyone else. I didn't like it.
"Ok. I give up. If you say you need time alone I won't argue. We all need it sometimes." He smiled at me. "I'm sorry. But I just feel like you're hiding something from me. Something big. And I don't want that."
Seeing his face, I almost said that I didn't want that either but I bit my tongue instead.
I'm the one who is keeping secrets from him. And I'm not sure whether I would be able to tell him the truth or not. This wasn't like Izzy. This was bigger.
"Well, Maryse and Robert are going on patrol tonight so we are off the hook." He said with a smile.
Again, I felt shocked at how easily he can change the subject. Even after so many years, he still surprised me with it.
"Finally. I thought we were going to die with all the training they were making us do."
He laughed. "I know. But I've had worse." He said with that distant look of his that reminded me of his past. But before I had time to comment he snapped out of it. "Anyway, Izzy, Clary, Simon and I are going out tonight. Want to join us?"
"No, thank you. You just go ahead and have fun. I don't feel like going out. And besides, I have a book I haven't had time to read. I would really like to get to it."
"Ok. Well, I'll leave you to it then." He said before walking out and shutting the door behind himself.
I smiled as it clicked closed and went to lie on my bed, taking my book with me. I really wanted to read it. It wasn't just some kind of an excuse. So I opened it and started.
…
I couldn't sleep again. I couldn't get comfortable and had tossed and turned since the moment I laid down. Which was three hours ago.
It was midnight but nevertheless, I got up and got dressed; wanting to go for a walk to clear my mind a little and make me more tired.
Half an hour later-and without even realizing where I was going-I found myself in front of Magnus' building.
Did you like it? Tell me what you think.
I personally hate this chapter. I just feel like I could have done so much better but at the same time, I can't do it.
Anyway, the next chapter is their first time. I have never written a lemon before and didn't think I ever would. But I kind of don't know now. Should I? If you want a lemon tell me. And if I get enough people who want it, I will try to write it. But like I said, I've never written one before so I'm not completely sure how it would end up.