Ok first of all sorry I didn't post yesterday but I was sleep deprived and spent almost all of it napping. Spent the night before talking to my best friend until morning so I'm not to blame. Not my fault if my friends decided that I need a social life and are actually making me spend time with them.

Anyway here you go. Hope you like it.

"So the wedding will be in a week." Mayse said with a smile. "The faster the better. Don't you think so Alexander?"

I didn't react to her words in any way. Just continued staring forward. Seeing nothing.

I don't know if she just started talking or if she has been doing it for a while. I don't know anything anymore. I felt trapped. Suddenly it became hard to breathe. The girl standing next to me, smiling up to me, seemed like the devil itself. The devil that came to break me just as I finally found happiness.

"Of course we will have to go to Idris for the ceremony…" My mother continued talking. Not even noticing what her words are doing to me.

I tuned her off. Feeling like just crumpling to the ground.

A wedding. In two weeks. Your bride to be. The words echoed in my mind. Pushing me. Teasing me. It all felt like a nightmare that I can't wake up from. A trap that I can't get out of. I almost felt like if I just close my eyes the nightmare will stop. And I will wake up next to Magnus. Everything will be good.

But nothing is good. I thought closing my eyes shut. Wishing for this nightmare to stop. Wishing to wake up but knowing that it won't happen.

I wanted to lash out at them. Tell them that I won't go through with the wedding. But I knew that I can't do that. Because they would ask why. And that is a question that I can't give then an answer to.

I'm such a coward. I thought miserably.

I suddenly heard a word through my numb state that snapped my attention back to them.

Magnus.

My head snapped up and I looked towards Robert who said it. I listened to what he was saying.

"Yes he is a Warlock that we call for this kind of things. We can call him to make a portal no problem." He said with a smile and my heart sank.

Magnus?! They want to call Magnus?! I thought but then the whole thing hit me even more. What will Magnus say when he finds out about this? I winced at the thought.

I don't want this wedding to happen. I thought forcefully. Getting angry now. It can't happen! I can't let it!

Forgetting about my fears I straightened up and stepped forward.

"No." I said but they just continued talking not noticing it. Not noticing me so I tried again. "No!" I said a little louder.

All the talking stopped and everyone turned to me.

"No." I repeated. Not feeling comfortable with all the attention but knowing that now that I have it I can't back down or it's all over. "I don't want to marry her. I won't." I stated firmly.

"Alexander-" Maryse stepped towards me but I cut her off.

"Don't call me that." I said through my teeth. "I don't care what you say I'm not going to marry her." I glared daggers at the girl and she stepped away. I looked back at my parents. "No!" I said sternly.

And with that I stormed out. Not carrying about all the shocked people I'm leaving behind. Just wanting to get away. Because I felt like the walls are getting closer and closer.

I can't stay here anymore. I thought throwing the door open more harshly than necessary.

I stepped outside and almost ran right into Jace.

He and Izzy were standing right next to the door. Probably eavesdropping like always. I thought.

Mine and Jace's gazes met for a second and I could see concern in his golden eyes. I didn't say anything just pushed past him and hurried on towards my room.

Because words weren't necessary. I could see he knew. He saw in my eyes that I'm not ok and left me be. Didn't run after me to ask if I'm ok and comfort me. He knew I wasn't.

That's one of the good things about him. He knows when someone just needs to be alone and lets them.

I slammed the door of my room shut and crumbled down on the floor in front of them.

Shit. I thought resting my head against my knees as I sat there. Why is this happening to me?! Why now!? If it was a year ago I would have just gone with it. I would have done anything to keep up my lie. I was numb enough. Practically drowning in self hatred. I wouldn't have cared.

But now. I thought bitterly. I finally found happiness. All of the hate and the sadness. Loneliness. It's all behind me. I can't believe this is happening. Not now. Not now when I finally have something good in my life. Not now when I have Magnus.

Not now.

I won't let this happen. I thought looking up in front of me. I will avoid this at all cost.

But sadly I knew what the cost is. What is the only thing I can do that will make them back down. But can I do it? Can I tell them the truth? Can I…Can I come out to them?

I groaned knowing that I'm chased into a corner here. It's either all or nothing. I can tell the truth and come out. But lose everything by doing that. Or I can keep quite. Let them go through with it and get married to a girl I don't even know. And again lose everything.

But somehow I felt like I'm losing more in the second scenario. Because I lose Magnus. I maybe do keep my family. My life as it is. But I lose everything good about it. All the happiness. Everything. And I get nothing in return. Only the bad things. I get captivity. A maze from which I can't get out of no meter how much I try.

I get more lies.

I don't want that. I thought. I don't want more lies. All I can see in that path is darkness. All is just dark. And maybe I do lose my parents if I tell the truth. But that's not something I have the first place. I thought realizing it. I don't want to lose my marks but if there is nothing else I can do I would rather lose my marks then live surrounded by lies the rest of my life.

I would rather lose everything then live in that darkness. I thought determined.

Four loud bangs at the door snapped me out of my thoughts.

"Alexander we need to talk." My father's angry voice reached my ears. "Open the door now!"

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Yes I know another cliffy. Sorry couldn't help it. And I know its short but I'm kind of on a deadline here. Two people are pressuring me into finishing and posting a new fic that I got an idea for. But I wanted to finish this first.

Anyway the next chapter will be up tomorrow if I get 15 reviews until then.

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