Ok here another short one but I hope you like it.
"Alexander we need to talk." My father's angry voice reached my ears. "Open the door now!"
After a second of hesitation I slowly got up and opened the door. Not wanting to confront him but knowing that I don't have any other choice.
He pushed pass me and into my room the second the door was open enough. Looking furious.
"What was all that nonsense about?!" He asked furiously when I closed the door. His black eyes looking deadly and he glared at me. Making me wince.
"I'm not marrying her." I stated firmly making myself stand my ground.
There is really only one option for me. I thought as I looked him straight in the eyes. I have lived at the edge of that darkness for years. There is no way I'm letting myself being dragged into it. I refuse to live like that. I won't merry her. No meter the cost. I thought feeling determent.
"Not marrying her?!" He growled stepping towards me with both hands fisted. Making me flinch away from him, stepping away. "Do you have a girlfriend that we don't know about?"
"No." I answered. "But…" I started but the second I even thought about saying it out loud my throat choked and I couldn't get the words out.
They were there. On the tip of my tongue. One sentence. Just four words. But I couldn't do it. For some reason I couldn't get the words out.
I felt like punching the wall as I looked at his black eyes, struggling to say it but for some reason not able to. I tried again but still nothing. No words came out. It was like I can't speak at all anymore.
Why can't I say it?! I thought furiously.
"But what?" He asked looking at me expectantly.
Ok I need to say it now. I thought. It's now or never. So I need to say it. I have a boyfriend. I need to say it now! Right now!
But again no matter the thought I still couldn't do it. The words were almost out of my mouth when I choked up again.
"But I'm not marrying her no matter what." I said eventually. Cursing myself for not being able to go through with it.
Such a coward. I thought angrily.
"You will marry her." He ordered backing me to the door. "Your mother and me worked hard to arrange this. So you will marry her without causing problems. Do you hear me boy?!"
"I never asked you to do it!" I lashed out at him.
"You are nineteen. So you are to get married." He said sounding too calm. "This is not up to discussion."
And with that he opened the door and walked out. Leaving me standing behind and glaring at him as he went.
"Shit!" I cursed punching the wall. And then doing one more time before I took my bow and practically ran out of the Institute. Feeling too trapped in there to stay.
Why couldn't I say it?! I thought furiously. Why couldn't I just say it?! What was stopping me?!
Soon enough I was hurrying through the familiar stares. Taking two at a time as I hurried towards Magnus's loft.
Magnus wasn't home but I needed to be here. I had nowhere else to go. My so called home felt like a prison more than anything else at the moment.
Ten minutes later I was at his loft, shooting arrows at the wall.
"I hate them!" I growled angrily as I let yet arrow fly. It hit the same spot the others did. Cutting one arrow straight through as it hit it. But a second later I had another one ready to shoot. "So much! I hate them so much! They are ruining everything!" With every sentence another arrow was sent flying to the wall.
I felt bad for putting holes in Magnus's walls but I couldn't stop. I needed to do something. Anything to work through my anger. And that is why yet again I set another arrow flying.
"Stupid. Stupid. Stupid." Three more went. Hitting the wall perfectly where I wanted them to.
"Darling?" Magnus's gentle voice was carried to my ears just as I felt his hand on my shoulder.
I quickly turned around startled. An arrow fisted in my one hand. Only to come face to face with a worried looking Magnus.
"Are you ok darling?" He asked taking the arrow out of my hand carefully and then eyeing what I did out of his wall before look back at me. "My wall has holes in it and your eyes look…Wild"
Wild? I guess I do feel wild right now.
I shook my head and stepped into his embrace. "I hate them."
"What happened?" He asked tightening his hold around me.
"They arranged a marriage." I mumbled into his shirt.
"Wait what?!"He pulled a little away so he can look at me.
"My parents came back. With a girl. And said I'm going to merry her in a week." I explained feeling more and more miserably with every word. I looked up at him. "I said no but they don't care. They don't care."
He pulled me to him again and I meted into his embrace. Needing it.
"It's going to be ok darling. We'll think of something." He said soothingly but I could hear it in his voice that he wasn't very calm either.
"I don't want to marry her." I mumbled into his chest again. "I'm not going to do it. No matter what. I even tried coming out to my father. But I couldn't do it. Something held me back and I just couldn't." I said bitterly.
"It's ok love." He repeated. "It's going to be alright."
But even as he said it I doubted it. Because I couldn't see the light at the ending of the dark tunnel. All I could see was more darkness.
…
"Did you just get home?" I heard someone ask behind me and I slowly turned around only to see none other than Caroline standing before me.
Perfect. I thought already feeling annoyed. Just perfect.
"Where were you?" She asked me sounding a little scared.
I guess my eyes still look wild and angry. I thought not even caring about it.
"None of your business." I stated simply making her flinch from the tone of my voice.
I looked at her more closely now. She looks a little more innocent then the rest of the Shadowhunters I've met. And I guess that she looks beautiful too. Any other boy would surely be lucky to have her.
But not me. I thought. I can't help but hate her for everything that she is causing in my life. I know it is not her fault but my parents. But she is still the one who is ruining my life. And nothing can change that. Not her small smile or her eyes that look at other people with love and gentleness. If anything that makes me hate her even more.
Even if I liked girls she wouldn't be my type. I thought angrily. Feeling that this all has to be a joke.
"I-I will be your wife soon. It is my business." She said quietly.
Anger flashed in my eyes and she stepped away immediately after seeing it.
"There is one thing you need to get though to your mind." I said through my teeth. "We are not getting married. I will never merry you. I would rather die than merry you."
I saw her wince at my words but I was passed any kind of caring by now so I just turned back on my heal and hurried to my room.
Slamming the door behind me.
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Yeah…I was thinking about him coming out here but what's the fun in that. So I'm going to torture you a little more.
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