Ok so this update came faster than the last one. No matter how much I resisted it I just had to write it and update for you. Even though it's killing me since the next chapter will be the last. Yes, I really mean that the next chapter is the LAST one. You can't believe how sad it makes me to say that. It's going to be weird to not have to update this every week. But yeah I guess I'll have to get used to it. But anyway here you go. Enjoy in the last two chapters.
One hundred and fourteen.
That's how many bricks there are in a wall in front of me. A wall I have been staring at for what must be half a day now.
And that brings me to another number…Twelve.
Judging by the sunlight coming from the only window here it has been twelve hours since I came back to consciousness. Twelve hours during which they have gave me food and water only once and refused to answer any of my questions. Questions that mostly consisted of where is Magnus and what do they plan to do with us.
They refused to even look at me so I eventually gave up and decided to just sit here, on the cold floor, regaining my strength and counting the bricks until I can't feel my legs anymore for the lack of batter entertainment.
Because I can't let myself think. Thinking only makes things worse. Makes me imagine all the things they could be doing to Magnus by now by the means of torture. All the things they will do to the both of us.
No. No I can't let myself think. I thought as I shook my head and started counting them all again. Making sure to count every crack in every one of them this time just to keep my mind occupied. Because that's good. Occupied is good. Occupied stops ,me from thinking. And that's good.
There was some rustling and footsteps behind me but I stayed put and didn't turn around. Deciding to wait it out. If they are here for me I'll know soon enough.
"Alec…" I heard a hesitant voice call out to me.
Hearing her voice made me tense and want to turn around even less. So I didn't.
"Alec are you ok?" She asked, barely a whisper. I didn't even bother turning around though. She is the last person I want to see right now.
There was some rustling after another minute of silence before I felt an arm softly on my shoulder. A shy and barely there touch.
I flinched and moved away from her. Glaring as I finally turned around, making her step back fearfully in return.
"Is it…Is it really true? You weren't lying?" She spoke hesitantly again making me sight at her frightful look.
I can't even make myself be mad at her anymore; I groaned at the thought, rubbing at my eyes with the heels of my palms.
"I didn't lie." I sighed after another minute of silence as I looked up at her again. "I'm bad at lying anyway."
"I'm sorry." She said and it sounded genuine. "I'm sorry I really didn't think that you were serious when you said it. And then your father and I just…I'm sorry. I must have really made it difficult for you. I understand why you hate me so much."
I had no idea how to respond to that so I just ended up staring at her with wide eyes before finally finding my ability to speak again. "Its…Its ok I guess. I'm sorry you had to get in the middle of it all."
Now she was the one looking shocked at my words and I knew why. It were the first nice words I have ever said to her.
She smiled at me after a minute and as she did I could see it. I could see the hurt and sadness in her eyes. But I could also see something else too. I saw surrender.
She finally gave up. She's finally letting me go.
I would have smiled when I saw it…I would have felt relived if it wasn't for the worry in my mind. If it wasn't for the nagging and the constant worry for Magnus. If it wasn't for me feeling that it's too late now. It's too late.
Because it is. It's too late. They're not going to let us go. That's for sure. I can just imagine all the things they are going to do to us. And one is worse them the other the more I think about it. The more I think about it the more torture techniques I see. And none of them are pretty. It's too late.
Caroline noticed the sudden change in me and as she did all I could see in her eyes was pity. Just pity. Something I didn't want to see. Something I didn't want to see ever.
"He's in a special cell." She spoke up and I looked at her hopefully. It was first I have heard of Magnus. I'll take anything I can get no matter how small. "I heard that he's guarded well so that he can't escape. Chained thoroughly so he can't even move." I flinched at her words picturing it and not liking what I saw. This wasn't supposed to happen. This can't be happening. We were so close. Just so close to getting back home. "But they are afraid to even touch him so they're not hurting him. He's as fine as he can be"
I sighed in relief. "Thank you."
She didn't look happy but she smiled in return anyway. "You really love him don't you?"
I hesitated for a second before nodding. Feeling that maybe I have hurt her enough already but since she's the one who asked I answered anyway. Even as I saw her smile strain even more and her eyes look hurt even more. She's the one who asked.
"He's lucky." She spoke barely above a whisper. Her voice breaking a little. "He's lucky to have you love him. He must be really special."
I gave her a small smile as an apology. Knowing I just broke her heart but also knowing that it had to be done. She had to realize it won't happen. She needed to let go and move on.
Before any one of us had a chance to say anything else a Shadowhunter came rushing in and pushed her out of the way to unlock the doors and pull me up on my feel roughly.
"It's time." He said with a completely menacing smile.
"For what?" I asked alarmed as I struggled to keep upright after so many hours of sitting down.
"The trial." He answered before pulling me out, a firm grip on my arms that will surely leave bruises later.
Shit. I thought as I gulped. Trials are never good. Trials mean were as good as dead.
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I feel that I haven't actually finish the Caroline thing properly yet. She needed this, she needed to give up. So naturally I had to write it. Hope you like it.
There was actually supposed to be only one more chapter. But I just couldn't bare with it so I split it intotwo. This is the first part and the next one you'll get after I get 15 reviews. And I'm serious this time. I'm not posting until I get at least 15. You know that I love to drag things out because I don't want them to end so you know I'm serious this time. Oh and I'm definitely making the next one longer to make up for all the short ones lately. Plus you know since it's the last one I kind of feel obligated to.
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