I'm sorry, this is a really short chapter. I know. And that sucks. So, please don't hate me.
I promise to update soon though. Hopefully tomorrow.
So, yeah. Thanks!
Ally's POV
Walking into math, I knew this would be a lot harder than I thought it would. Distancing myself from Austin would not be easy, not at all. Especially when as soon as I walked into the room, he tackled me in a hug.
"Austin!"
He pulled away from me, "Are you okay? Why didn't you answer my calls?"
What, he cares? "Oh, I fell asleep," I lied.
The bell rang and we took our seats. I avoided his gaze, even though I could tell Austin was trying to tell me something. From the corner of my eye I could see confusion scrunch up in his face, but I didn't acknowledge him.
When class dismissed, I quickly left the room. I pretended not to hear him yell after me, I just ducked my head, and walked out.
It's just, I'm scared. He's Austin Moon for crying out loud, and I'm just Ally. Liking Austin is just not a good thing at all.
But, I couldn't forget the feeling that rushed through me when he hugged me, or the fun we had yesterday fake fighting. This guy, he's just so amazing. I can't stop thinking about him.
And, that's not good.
He'd never feel the same way about me.
We would only ever be friends, and I'm not sure I could live with that.
Austin's POV
I really don't get it. I thought we were past all this. I thought we were close enough now that she wouldn't just shut me out. But, there she went, without a glance back at me.
What happened?
We were fine yesterday, and then those girls came and thought we were dating. I had lost Ally in the crowd, and she's been avoiding me since. I don't even know why!
Okay, it did cross my mind that she was upset about all those girls thinking we're dating. She had said they were starting to annoy her. That solution doesn't really make me feel all that great though. Because then I'd have to realize that Ally thinks the idea of dating me is terrible.
And that would suck.
Okay, so yeah. I like Ally. Not a big deal. Okay, I guess it is kind of a big deal.
When did I realize? Well, I had been thinking a lot, about why I suddenly hated the word friend when in reference to Ally. Like, I detested it. Despised it. So, that didn't make sense. And, then I realized why. When Ally and I were play fighting yesterday, when I had Ally pinned down on the sand, a thought crossed my mind. I thought, that I wouldn't mind if I stayed in that moment for the rest of my life.
I couldn't believe myself, thinking something like that. My heart had been racing, practically beating out of my chest. Every time I touched her, I could feel a little shock go through my body.
When she didn't answer my calls, and I had felt so bad about that, I knew. I knew I liked Ally.
So, the fact that she's ignoring me now, doesn't really make me feel all that amazing. When I realized I liked Ally, I actually thought I had a shot. I mean, we did hang out ALL day yesterday. I thought she had fun...I mean, I did.
But, no. She doesn't like me. In fact, she's avoiding me now. She hates the fact that people think we're together. I don't mind that they think that. Well, I didn't. Now, I kind of do. It just reminds me that I'll never be with Ally.
We may not even be friends. She won't talk to me.
Maybe she needs time?
Gosh, this SUCKS.
I thought we were doing really well. I finally convinced her to be friends with me, and that was hard. And then we hung out, which was absolutely amazing. I know a lot about her already, and she's absolutely hilarious. I can be the real me around her, I don't have to put up a front. And then, I realize I like her. Before I can do anything about, even possibly CONSIDER making a move, she stops talking to me. Ignores me.
Is the idea of dating me really THAT bad?
Who am I kidding? Ally would never like me. At least I know that now, before I made a move. Now I know not to.
I hope she'll at least talk to me, but if not, maybe its for the better. Maybe we're not even meant to be friends, let alone boyfriend and girlfriend.
I say this, but my heart is also breaking at the idea of Ally never talking to me again. I don't think I could bear it. I guess we'll see what happens.
