Okay guys, I know I am so terrible. I really do. I suck at updating, and you guys deserve so much more, because ya'll are amazing.
This is short, just a little entry by Ally into her songbook. I promise a nice long chapter by Sunday.
I PROMISE!
If there isn't, I give you full permission to yell at me.
Deal?
Okay, please don't hate me.
Ally's POV
Pretty much the only thing I can write in here right now, is that life is good.
Yes. Life is good.
I get good grades, I can play music whenever I want to, except in front of people, and I have two new friends.
Dez and Austin.
Trish and I are constantly hanging out with them. It's so much fun really.
They're always at Sonic Boom, we're always fooling around.
Oh, about Austin? Well, we're friends.
I'm actually surprised, he hasn't tried to make any moves, and I'm beyond grateful.
I just don't think I can be in a relationship.
Why?
I don't know.
But, having Austin as a friend, is just amazing.
I've been careful though.
It's only been about two months since our "almost kiss" and I still get awkward about it. So, I've made sure to never be alone with Austin. Trish or Dez are always there with us. I think Austin is upset by this, but he doesn't show it.
To be honest, I miss him. I really do. I miss the times when we would hang out every day, just the two of us, and he'd throw me in the water, and we'd pretend to fight.
I miss being around just him.
But, I know this is what's best.
I know this doesn't matter, and probably means nothing, but a lot more people have started talking to me and Trish now that we're such good friends with Austin. Especially guys.
I've even been asked out 4 times in the past 2 weeks!
Of course, I was horrified and immediately said no.
I even slapped one of them, but we won't talk about that.
Somehow, Austin is always around me when they ask, and everytime he'll tense up, and then sigh in relief when I say no. I don't know what it means, but it always makes me feel kind of good. Kind of special.
Anyway, I think Austin is over me. He hasn't shown me otherwise.
I think its for the best. Maybe we're only meant to be friends.
That'd be okay.
I think.
However, it does seem like there's something missing in my "good life" I speak of.
Just something.
Love,
Ally
