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For the next few hours they watched mindless tv. Dean checked on Sam's reaction and rarely did Sam seem to recoginze that he was watching something. It nearly killed Dean to have his brother so messed up, so un Sam like. Finally he decided that Sam needed a shower. Dean needed to keep Sam clean and healthy.
"Hey Sammy," He stood up and Sam's eyes widened fearfully. "Don't worry," he said soothingly. "I'm not leaving you. Do you think you could grab onto me and stand up? And with my help walk some?"
Sam hesitated at first, but slowly nodded-so desperatly wanting to please his brother. He slowly rose and Dean helped him to his feet. Sam's legs were shaking as he clutched at Dean tightly. Slowly and timidly Dean helped Sam to the bathroom.
"Can you stand on your owm?" Dean asked, his voice gentle. He wasn't sure how weak Sam was now. The Epilipsy episodes had taken a lot out of him, not to mention Cas draining more of his energy when he healed him. Sam hesitated and than nodded. Dean released his grip and watched as Sam wobbled, but stood on his own. His legs wouldn't stop shaking.
"Good," he said, a smile growing. "That's real good. Can you raise your arms for me, kiddo?" Sam nodded and quickly obeyed. Dean undressed him as fast as he could while he turned on the shower. He made sure it was the perfect temeperature as he helped Sam into the shower. He stepped in with him. "You don't have to do anything," he told his little brother. "Just stand there, okay?" Sam nodded slowly, and a little uncertaintinty-but he so desperatly wanted to please his big brother.
Dean grabbed the soap and quickly started to watch his brother. A wave of uncomfortablness swept over him as he did so. He wanted to get this over yet as fast as possible, but he wanted to make sure that his brother really was clean. He had basically realized that he was going to have to do everything for his brother, but for how long? He loved Sam more than life itself, he went to hell for him and he'd do it again. But this was still exhausting to him, and he wasn't used to bathing his brother.
He washed Sam's hair and made sure all the shampoo was rinsed out from it before he announced that they were finished. When they got out Sam was already shivering. As quickly as he could Dean grabbed the towel to dry his brother as and dress him as quickly as possible. They'd deal with brushing Sam's teeth later. Right now Dean needed to get Sam warm, and fast.
"Let's get you under the covers," he murmured gently and Sam nodded, his teeth still chattering and Dean cursed himself for not being faster. Sam clung to his brother's sleeve as Dean lead him to the bed. Sam was clearly exhausted. Dean covered Sam with as much blankets as he could. Slowly Sam stopped shivering and Dean was able to breathe again.
He sat on the edge of the bed and smiled at Sam.
"You hungry?" Sam seemed to think about it, and than nodded. "Hey Bobby!" He hated calling on Bobby or Tom for all these things but he really couldn't leave Sam's sight. He had did that too many times before and look what happened.
Bobby came in, worry in his eyes.
"Yeah?"
Dean's smile reassured him.
"You think you could get one of those dinners that you bought for Sam?" After Castiel visted a second time Bobby had gotten some children tv dinners filled with soft vegetables and tiny chicken nuggets, apple sauce, and jello. Not the greatest meal in the world, but it was better than nothing. "Sorry for asking you to do all these things.." He added slowly and Bobby scoffed at that.
"It's no problem at all," he said and winked at Sam who slowly smiled back. "I'll be back with it in ia jiffy, you want me to grab one of the apple juice boxes too?"
Dean nodded.
"Thanks," he added and Bobby nodded as he left. Maybe the shower was a good idea. Dean noticed a sense of alterness in Sam that he hadn't seem before, despite Sam being tired from that trip to the bathroom. "You were great back there, kiddo," he said as he patted Sam's leg. Sam responded with another smile. "Let's watch more cartoons," Dean decided and Sam nodded.
"Would you like that?" Dean added and Sam continued to nod. "Can you tell me you would like that?" Dean hoped he wasn't pressing much but he hated not hearing Sam speak like this.
"Ould...ike it...." Sam managed to finally say after struggling a bit. Dean's own smile grew.
"That's my boy." He turned on the tv and he sat at the chair next to the bed so Sam could see the cartoon playing. Bobby came in and smiled at what they were watching as he handed Dean the dinner.
"Need any help?"
Dean shook his head.
"No, and again Bobby. Thanks, for everyything. I mean it. And thank Tom too."
Bobby smiled.
"You kidding? There's nothing I wouldn't do for you boys, your pratically family." He squeezed Dean's shoulder. "Remember to get some sleep," he added and Dean nodded, promising that he would. And so Dean started to feed Sam as they sat and watched tv again through the night until Sam fell asleep...
Sorry if it's kind of short, but everyone was requesting an update quickly so I gave you all one, and another without a cliffhanger! Aren't I nice? :)
