Hikauro's Journal

I, Hikauro Hittachii, am in love with my twin brother. Karou. Yes, yes you did read that right. So, why am I putting this priceless bit of eternal blackmail in a vulnerable journal (that's journal buddy, not diary)?

Well:

1) It's a risk (sad isn't it, I just can't help myself. Usually Karou keeps me somewhat grounded but, well, he can't know about this.)

2) I'm fairly certain I've got it under enough booby traps and locks that even if it suddenly transforms into Houdini, it couldn't escape.

3) I'm hoping that by writing things down I can get them off my chest so that I won't spend every fricken minute of my waking, and quite often sleeping, hours thinking about Karou. Especially seeing as he often isn't wearing anything but his cute 'I want something, give it to me' face in my perverse little daydreams…

Oh my God, I can't even refer to them in a general sense without getting distracted and my temperature increasing. I'm so fucking sick and wrong, and yet, even though I know this, I can't get him out of my head OR into my pants! Oh shit, um, I didn't mean to write that last bit. Sorry. Wait, what the hell am I apologising to a journal for? Like it cares. I could fill this thing with pornographic daydreams and it wouldn't blink a non-existent eyelid! In fact, why am I even writing in this thing? It's not like it's going to help me or anything. You know what? Screw this.

Wow. No really, wow. I lasted a total of 45 seconds before I got bored and started writing again. Incestuous, and I can't entertain myself for over a minute. Please, kill me now. I pity whoever the unfortunate is that will become my wife. She'll have billions of dollars, good connections and a husband in love with his own brother. With a really short attention span.

The sad thing is, even if I'm married with n kids, I don't think I'll ever be able to love anyone else. Somebody up there must hate me, bet it's my Grandpa, he never did like that me and Kauro were so close. Bastard.

Why did I have to love you?

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