CHAPTER 3:

I get to my house and I'm a little nervous. I told Puck to stay in the car because I don't want to make my situation any worse. I walk up to the house and pull my keys out. I open the door and I hear the TV in the living room. I walk into the living room and I see Quinn watching Cartoons with the kids. I smile at the site of my family.

Me: ''Can I watch cartoons too?''

My kids hop off the couch and run to give me hugs. I missed them so much. I bend down to take both of them in my arms and squeeze them.

Charlie: ''momma I missed u''

Lea: ''i did too momma"

Me: ''I missed you guys too, so much" I kiss them both on the head.

Quinn gets off the couch and walks over to us.

Quinn: ''Charlie can you take your sister upstairs so Momma and I can talk?''

Charlie: ''yes mommy, come on lea let's go'' he takes Lea's hand and they run up the stairs

I walk over to the couch and sit down. Quinn continues to stand and glare at me.

Me: ''Q I'm sorry for not calling, I know I should've at least let you know where I was.''

Quinn: ''Rachel you have no idea how worried I was. I called Santana and she said she didn't hear from you all day, then I called Kurt and he didn't hear from you either. Rachel where the hell were you and why didn't you call me?

Me: ''Quinn I'm sorry, I was with Puck and-'' she cuts me off

Quinn: ''You were with Puck? Let me guess, you were drinking partying having such a good time that it slipped your mind. Am I right?''

Me: ''Quinn don't do that, Puck needed me last night. He was upset about the breakup with Kitty.''

Quinn: ''I don't give a shit about Puck being upset Rachel, He cheated on my sister so whatever it is he's going through he brought it on himself. He's an asshole Rachel and I hate when you're around him.''

Me: ''He's my best friend Quinn, I'm going to be there for him when he needs me.''

Quinn rolls her eyes and says ''All he cares about is HIM Rachel. He's a selfish jerk with no life. You have a family and you have responsibilities Rachel or did you forget that too?''

Me: ''Quinn I don't need you talking to me like I'm a child. I forgot to call and I'm sorry but don't try to make it seem like I'm never here for my family.''

Quinn: ''That's not what I said Rachel. I just want you to understand that you have a family at home and you can't be out partying like you're in college or something Rachel. I don't care about Puck or what he needed last night, you should've called and came home.''

Me: ''We weren't partying Quinn, I was there to comfort my friend. Is that what you really think I do when I say I'm going to the studio? I work hard Quinn and even though I hate being away from you and the kids, this is my dream and I thought as my wife you would support that.''

Quinn: ''I do Rachel and you know that, I've always supported what you did and what you wanted. But what about us Rachel? What about Charlie and Lea? Are we apart of this dream that you have?

This upset me. ''Really Q? How can you ask me something like that? You and our kids have always been apart of my dream. Are you trying to tell me that you don't think I want this? You think I just want to leave my family behind while I go pursue my career? That's just great Q.'' I stand up now

Quinn looks even more angry ''I never said that Rachel, I just don't want you to lose site of what's important. Spend more time with your family and gives us more of your attention instead of going out drinking with Puck!''

Me: ''Maybe I just needed a break last night!'' Quinn looks hurt now and I realize what I said was completely wrong ''Q that's not what I meant'' I feel horrible.

Quinn: ''No Rachel, that's obviously how you feel. If this is all too much for you and you feel that you need so much of a break from us then maybe you should go.''

Me: ''I don't need a break from you, I swear that's not what I meant to say.'' I try to hold her but she pulls away from me.

Quinn: ''I want you to leave Rachel.''

Me: ''No I'm not going anywhere, I chose the wrong words Q I'm so-'' She cuts me off

Quinn: ''Our kids are upstairs and I really don't want to do something that I'll regret Rachel. Leave..Now''

I know that once Quinn is like this It's no point in trying to talk right now. I walk to the door and I leave. I get back in the car and Puck looks worried.

''What happened Rach?''

Me: ''I messed up Puck, I feel like I'm losing my family''

Puck: ''It can't be that bad Rach''

Is he serious right now? ''Really Puck? I cheated on my wife who loves me and who's been there for me through everything and then I have the nerve to tell her that I needed a break from her. You should've saw the hurt in her eyes Puck. I didn't even mean to say it like that. I'm like the worst person in the world right now.''

Puck: ''Look Rach I'm sorry, I'm sure she knows you didn't mean it like that.''

Me: ''She pretty much kicked me out''

Puck sighs says: ''I know what will cheer you up'' he smirks and he starts the car and we drive away.

LATER:

Puck drove us to one of his friend's house who was having a party. Of course he would do this, he thinks partying is the solution to everything. We've been here for hours and it's still a house full of people. I'm in one of the rooms with this woman named Kayla. She came over and started talking to me about how she heard of the band and she thinks it cool. We somehow start kissing and it feels wrong. She push me down on the bed and she gets on top of me and starts kissing my neck. I close my eyes and all I see is the look in Quinn's eyes and the hurt look on her face. How could i be so stupid? I push the woman off me and I get off the bed.

Me: ''I'm sorry but I can't do this.''

I push through the crowd and make my way outside. I sit down on the steps and I think about the argument I had with Quinn. How can I fix it when I'm still I'm still doing the same thing? How can I say I love my family when I'm not there for them? How can I say I love my wife when I'm not being faithful and honest? How can I say I needed a break from the only people in my life who make me happy. Do I tell Quinn the truth? I start to cry as I think about all this. What if I lose them? I can't lose them. I won't lose them. I get up and I go through the house looking for Puck. Of course I find him with some girl making out. I tap his shoulder and say ''I need you to take me home.'' I'm a little drunk and emotional but I know home is where I need to be. Where I should be.

''Why are you crying Rach? ''

Me: ''I need you to take me home Puck.''

He pulls me away from the girl he was making out with and he says ''Rach come on relax, you see the chick I'm with? She's so damn hot and I really wanna bang her Rach please just give me a few minutes.''

I scoff and say ''Forget it Puck, I'll find a ride. Thanks for being there for me.'' I roll my eyes and walk away. He calls my name but I'm already moving through the crowd. I walk back outside and call the one person I know will be there for me.

''Hey, I really need you right now.''

A LITTLE WHILE LATER:

I'm in the car and I'm looking out the window. So many things running through my mind right now, it's giving me a headache. Santana doesn't even say a word to me. I know she's upset and maybe even a little disappointed.

Me: ''Thank you for coming to get me San."

Santana: ''Why didn't Puck take you home?''

Me: ''He wanted to screw some girl. He's such an asshole.''

Santana: ''Well that's a little funny, I was gonna say the same about you.''

I look a little confused

Santana: ''Rachel you know I'm always going to be here for you but I don't know what's gotten into you. Kurt went to your house today to see Quinn and the kids. He called and told me everything that Quinn told him about what happened today and I really just wanna punch you right now.''

Me: "I messed up San I know but I swear I will make it right.''

Santana: ''He also told me that Jessica was there. She was just leaving as he got there.''

This makes me angry. Jessica is one of Quinn's friends that I just don't like. I know she likes Quinn as more than a friend but Quinn doesn't want to believe it. It makes me angry to think about her comforting my wife. I know Quinn would never do anything like that but I don't trust Jessica.

Me: ''Don't try to upset me Santana.''

Santana: ''I'm not trying to upset you, I'm trying to tell you that if you keep messing up you will lose her Rachel. Then Jessica will be there to pick up all the pieces.''

Me: ''Whatever Santana, Quinn would never do that.'' I know she's trying to help but her way of helping makes me angry.

Santana looks at me like she knows something and it makes me mad but also nervous. ''What Santana?''

Santana: ''Is there something you need to tell me?'' What the hell is she talking about?

Me: ''Something like what?''

Santana: '' I got a phone call today from a very emotional Jenna saying how she didn't know what to do and she needed someone to talk too. I was confused at first about what it was she was talking about but then I finally put it all together. I know you slept with her Rachel.''

Why the hell would Jenna call Santana? Why would she tell anyone? SHIT! I don't need this right now.

Me: "Santana it was a mistake, I swear I never meant for that to happen and-''

Santana: ''Rachel just stop, How could you do that to Quinn? What happen to the Rachel that was 'Happily Married' and loved her wife so much?

I start to cry and say ''I do love my wife Santana and you know I do.''

Santana: ''Then why did I have to pick you up from a party at midnight when you should be home with your family?''

I just sit there and cry. How could I just screw everything up?

Santana sighs and says ''Look Rachel, you're my best friend and I love you that's why I have to be hard on you. If you don't stop all this I guarantee Quinn will leave you. I don't want you to lose your family Rachel so I'm gonna help you. But I will not help you if you mess up again, Got it?''

Me: ''I won't mess up again I promise.''

OUTSIDE OF MY HOUSE:

Santana: ''Quinn is gonna be pissed, it's 1 am"

Me: ''She's already pissed Santana.'' I'm sure she's still upset about earlier

Santana: ''Rachel I need you to do me a favor.''

Me: ''Yeah?''

Santana: ''You need to stay away from Puck. He's no good for you Rachel, He's helping you throw away your family.''

I think about this and deep down I know she's right. I realize that even though all this is my fault, Puck never tried to stop me or at least try to make things better. I nod my head and Santana seems pleased with that.

Santana: ''Come to my house tomorrow and we'll talk more about it okay?''

Me: ''Yeah, thank you so much Santana.''

Santana: ''Yeah yeah , get the hell out of my car.'' She smiles and I do too

I get out of the car and I walk toward the house. I open the door and go inside.

I walk upstairs and I look into Charlie's room and see him sleeping. I go in and I kiss him on the head. I leave out and I look in Lea's room but she isn't in her bed. I know she must be sleeping in the bed with Quinn. I walk to my bedroom and I see Lea sleeping on the bed. I look around for Quinn and I realize she's in the bathroom. I kiss lea's head and I walk toward the bathroom. I knock on the door and she opens it.

Quinn: ''So you decided to come home?'' I look at her and I realize she was crying. It breaks my heart that I'm the reason why.

Me: ''Q can we talk please'' She walks out of the bathroom and I follow her. We walk downstairs and go into the living room.

Quinn: ''Talk Rachel.''

I sigh and say ''Quinn I am so sorry about what I said earlier, I never meant to say that and you know how much I love you and our kids. I was wrong and I'm sorry. I swear I will do anything to fix this.''

Quinn just looks at me and then finally says ''Rachel I don't know what's gotten into you but I don't like it. It's like your turning into someone else, someone that's not who I married. I love you Rachel but I swear to you I will not put up with this anymore. You come home after midnight, I don't know where you were or who you were with but I'm pretty sure Puck is involved in some way. If you want to be free and do what you want without a care in the world then go do it Rachel, because I will not put myself or my kids through this. I need my wife back and our kids need you. You either straighten up or I promise you Rachel I will take Charlie and Lea and we will leave. Don't make me do something that I don't want to do Rachel.'' I sit on the couch and put my head down in my hands and start to cry.

''I'm so sorry Quinn'' I whisper through my tears. I look up at her and I see tears fall from her eyes.

I get up and move towards her but she puts her hands up to stop me. She turns away and walks upstairs. Quinn and I have been through many arguments but she's never threatened to leave me before or take our kids away. I've really messed up and I need to fix it.. In my head I come up with a list of how to make things better.

1 . I have to take a break from music to focus on my family

2 . Stay away from Puck

3 . Fire Jenna

END OF CHAPTER 3

So guys what do you think? How do you think Jenna is going to react? I know some of you guys wanted good Santana and I did too so I hope you liked it. Puck is absolutely the worst huh? Do you think he will ever change? Maybe…. What do you guys think about Rachel? Will she mess up again or did Quinn scare her enough to make her do the right thing? When will Quinn find out about the cheating? You'll have to wait and see