Chapter 7 - If I Gave It All Away For One Thing

When your not really sure of what, or who you are, you make up a wall. Like a curtain. To hide the real, and show the pretend. Life makes people change. It takes turns that jerk you into reverse. You sit at a stop light, staring in the rearview mirror, wishing the love of your life would magically come up behind you. You wish you could hop on a plane, and go somewhere where no one could ever find you.

The beach was crowded. Some with leather skin. Others with flawless skin. Either way, it was crowded. Lulu walked hand in hand with her husband, and followed where her feet took her.

"You know, I used to hate the beach. But now, Its my favorite place." It was the fourth of July, and Ethan took Lulu to the firework show.

Ethan led her into the sand, and laid out the sheet, and placed down the basket.

Lulu sat in between Ethan's legs, and played with the sand on either side of her.

She rested her head against his chest, and smiled as the first firework flashed.

ONE MONTH, 2 WEEKS, AND THREE DAYS LATER.

Lulu shot up in bed with a shooting pain her abdomen. He eyes widened in terror, and turned slightly, and started panting Ethan's name.

"Ethan. Oh, my god, Ethan!" She shook him, and he groaned, and she started shouting. "ETHAN! AHHAA!!"

"Love, what is it?!" He asked, panicked.

"Ethan…I think we're about to become parents." She rasped.

FLASHBACK-

Lulu Spencer walked into the Haunted Star, ready to flirt with Ethan, so that they could find out what Tracy was hiding. She walked in to find a very dim, lit casino. She heard sniffles, and breaths. She turned on the lights, and immediately laid her eyes upon him.

"Love, go away. You don't need to see me like this." He turned himself away from her.

She looked concerned, and walked over to him. "Like hell I will. Don't shut me out, Ethan. You may think I don't understand…I understand.

She sat down in the chair across from him, and took one of his hands in hers. "Is this about your parents?"

He smiled. "Nawh, love, its about everything. Its about what I am. What I have become after they died. I just fell apart, Love."She smiled, heartedly at him, and slightly squeezed his hand. "You know, you may think that your parents didn't want you, but Ethan, if they didn't want you, they would have done exactly what I did. But they didn't. They wanted you to have a good life, to be successful. And you are."

"Lulu, what are you talking about? Exactly what did you do?"

She breathed a sigh of frustration, and opened her mouth.

"You know, I didn't tell Johnny about this until we were dating for six months. You get it early." She joked. Ethan smirked, and urged her to go on.

"When I was eighteen…I was head over heels for my step brother. He was married. To Maxie's sister." Ethan's eyes widened.

"Yea. Well, I lied. I told him that he was cheating on him. Fooling around with someone behind his back. I figured that he would be so upset, that he would need a shoulder to cry on, and I would be there for him. I tricked him, and then, I mad ea fool of myself, and everyone else around me. I tricked him into sleeping with me. But, see, at the time, the Quartermaines were producing…condoms, that were not affective. It broke, and then…well…I got pregnant."

Ethan rubbed her knuckles with this thumb.

"I uh…we didn't…we couldn't keep the baby. We both knew that at the time. But see, I had this…this feeling. I felt mad at the thought of someone else taking pride in my child. It feels inhumane. So…instead of…giving my child a chance, to be big, and to find love, live life, I was selfish enough to end its life." She shrugged, nodding in disbelief.

Tears were forming in her eyes, and she finally looked up at Ethan. 'So, you got a chance, Ethan. Don't waste it." And with that, she got up, out of her chair, and left the casino, heading back to her apartment.

She skimmed her closet for her pair of sweats, and her tee. She got dressed, got her bottle of water, and grabbed her keys.

She walked out of the apartment, and headed for the gym.

She came back, about an hour and a half later.

She got into the shower, and then changed into a silk lace nightgown.

She turned to the sound of a door know turning. She laid her eyes on his beautiful brown orbs. "Ethan." She breathed.

END OF FLASHBACK-

Lulu opened her eyes, slowly, adjusting to the bright lights. She looked around her. She looked next to her, and saw Ethan. He was slouched over the bed, holding her hand, resting his head into her side.

"Ethan?" She whispered.

He shot his head up. "Love, what's wrong?"

"No-nothing. I'm fine. I'm sorry I woke you."

"No, no, I'm glad you did."

"This is really happening, isn't it?" She asked.

"Yes, love, it is happening. I know your scared, but, so am I. You'll be a great mom. I have no doubts about that." He kissed her forehead.

"Ethan…would you mind, getting me one of those white tea's from the machine…they calm me down, and right now, I need calm."

He smiled, and kissed her hand. "Sure. I'll be right back. I promise."

She smiled at him, and watched him leave.

She leaned her head against the pillow, and tried hard not to hyperventilate.

"It's okay. It's okay. It's okay." She whispered to herself. She heard a knock at the door, and saw Maxie thru the small glass window. She smiled, and Maxie walked in.

"Today's the big day! Your having your baby today, Lulu!"

Lulu smiled, and nodded her head.

"Lulu, what's wrong?" Maxie asked.

"Nothing Maxie, I'm just kind of nervous. I'm new to this whole thing."

"I know your nervous, but, in the end, when its all over, you'll have your little boy or girl, and then…you won't be nervous anymore!" She chirped.

Lulu laughed as Ethan walked in with her drink.

"Your gonna be a daddy today!" Maxie chimed in.

Ethan smiled at her, and handed Lulu her drink. :Yes…I am. And I'll be the luckiest dad in the whole world." He shot a wink at Lulu.

"Oh, shut up." She teased.

Twenty minutes later, Kelly walked in, and checked how dilated Lulu was.

"Well, Lulu…you're 8 and a half centimeters dilated, so I'd say, that you're ready." She smiled.

Lulu looked over at Ethan. He smiled at her, and leaned his forehead against hers.

Lulu mustered up all the strength she could, and forced herself to push.

"Uuuhhh!"

She looked over to Ethan, who was just looking at her. "Come on, love. You can do this. Your strong."

Lulu glared at Ethan. She was terrified.

She nodded, and continued.

"Ahhhhhhhhh!"

"Come on, Lulu. A few more pushes like that, and you can meet your baby." Kelly said.

Ethan smiled at Lulu, and held her hand tighter.

Lulu beared down one last time, screaming louder than before, and squeezing Ethan's hand harder than before.

A few seconds later, she heard the shrill cry of her baby. Ethan laughed euphorically. "You too have a beautiful little girl!" Kelly shouted over the baby's crying and shrieking.

"She's finally here!" Ethan gleamed.

Lulu smiled at Ethan, and watched their little girl, protesting the gloved hands that were so gently handling her.

Ethan kissed Lulu, and kept smiling at the baby.

A very tired, and exhausted Lulu smiled up at her husband, who was waiting patiently for the nurse to bring their bundle of joy back into the room. They didn't really get to see her, they only caught glimpses, but of the bloody chaotic mess."Ethan, relax, she'll be here."Ethan went to Lulu's side, and said the line for the tenth time. "Love, i'm so proud of you. I love you so much."They were interrupted by the door opening. In walked the nurse, holding their little watched as Ethan carefully walked to the nurse, and took the baby girl from her arms. He held her delicately in his arms, rocking her gently. He kissed the top of her forehead, and sat down on the chair next to Lulu's held her in the crooks of his arms. Lulu put her hand out, and touched the little patch of blonde hair on the top of the baby's stared into Lulu's eyes, and then looked back to their baby."Hi pumpkin." He smiled at her, and she wrapped her hand around his pointer smiled widely. "Pumpkin. I like it."Ethan's eyes shot up to meet Lulu's. "We are not naming her 'pumpkin'."Lulu laughed, and stroked the baby's head. "I know. I would never do that to a child."Ethan smiled, and turned his attention quickly back to the baby. She began to squirm in his arms, and Ethan tensed, but Lulu touched his arm, reassuring him. "Ethan...it's okay."Ethan looked back down to the baby, and started humming to her. "Shhhh. It's alright. Daddy's got you."

Lulu smiled warmly at Ethan.

The door creaked open, and Tracy poked her head in. Luke followed her. Both Lulu and Ethan smiled up at the two.

Tracy squeeled, and walked slowly over to Ethan, who was currently holding their baby.

"What's her name?" Tracy asked cooingly.

Ethan looked over to Lulu, and responded; "Sapphire June Lovett."

Tracy looked at the baby. "It's beautiful, just like her."

Luke looked over to Lulu, who was focusing all of her attention on her daughter. "She's beautiful, cupcake." Luke smiled.

Lulu smiled at her father, and looked back to Sapphire.

"Hi baby girl." Lulu cooed.

Ethan kissed her forehead, and she gurgled.

"I love you Lulu."

"I love you too Ethan."

They kissed lightly on the lips, finally a family.

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