I thought it was the end
Oliver Oken was my best friend since we were 4. It took me 11 years to realise that I loved him. We dated for a month and I was happier than ever. Then one day I opened my locker to find a letter from him. He had moved to New York. For three months I could hardly live without him. Each and everyday I thought about him and many times I cried. I loved him. Finishing the school year without him was the hardest. Walking out the school gates for the last time without the person I walked in with, it was devastating. Then came my 16th Birthday, a huge party I had that me and my other best friend Miley had planned since we were 12.
Standing at the side of the dance floor, crying, I heard a voice behind me.
"Lilly you look beautiful, I love it."
It was him. A million emotions ran through but there was only one I cared about. I loved him. I ran to him and we started kissing and then we slow danced, in love.
After the party, we returned to my house.
"There is no way in this world I could miss your 16th Birthday Party. I'd rather die," he told me.
"I love you," I didn't exactly know what to say but that. I knew he was going to tell me that he had to leave the next day so as he took a breath in to speak I kissed him. I wasn't ready to hear those words yet.
We lay there for hours. There wasn't much conversation between us, we just listened to each others breathing. I finally broke the silence witth a question I was dying to ask.
"Oliver, if you could have any girl in the world, anyone in school, any celebrity, any popstar, anyone. Would you pick me?" No answer.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't of asked." I said.
Why had I asked such a stupid question? Why did I have to put him on the spot like that? Wait, he never answered. Did that mean he wouldn't choose me and he couldn't find the words to tell me. At least he would be honest if he just told me. "Lilly..." he whispered "Yes?..." I mumbled, terrified at what he might say.
"If I could have any girl in this whole entire world, anyone... i'd have you. I thought you would have known that. Lilly Truscott, I love you. No girl can compare to my love for you. And what ever I do next, where ever i go, I love you. Any fight we get into, any time I deny ever loving you, Lilly, don't listen. I love you more than anything and I promise I will never lose you.... never."
What could I say? I loved him back but how could he promise never to lose me if he's leaving the next day?
"Oliver... I love you too, with all my heart," I paused, "But you're leaving, you're going away. For the last three months I've been a wreck. You might never come back this time, we might never see each other again. Oliver, I won't cope without you. I'll miss each and everyday seeing you, surfing with you, kissing you and just talking to you. I'll miss your voice telling me how much you love me. I love how you brush my hair behind my ears gently with your hands. I'll miss your cute smile you do every time you see me. I'll miss you. "
"Lilly-" Oliver started but couldn't finish. He knew I was right. I might never see him again. Oliver was always full of answers. He always knew what was right. He knew a soluation to everything, but not this. There was no answer to this.
I held back the tears for as long as I could but I finally burst out. I rested my head on his chest. Soon his top was wet due to my crying but he couldn't care. I looked up to see a tear streaming down Oliver's face. I was so desperate for him to tell me everything would work out fine, but then he would be lying.
"I love you Lilly" he said.
I shut my eyes. I wanted to stay in this moment forever. Never would he have to leave. Just me and him always.
I woke up and the room was bright with sun light. I turned around and after a second or two realise.. Oliver had gone. I shot up. What if he had left for New York already? I never got to say goodbye. What if I never see him again?
I rushed downstairs to find my mom making breakfast.
"Mom!" I shouted, " Where's Oliver?!?"
"Lilly, Hunny, I'm sorry. He had to..." I never let her finish.
I ran back up to my room. Tears were forming in my eyes. Lying on my desk was another note.
'Lilly, I'm sorry I didn't wake you, you looked too peaceful. We'll be together again, I promise. Don't be afraid to call me. I have to go now, my flight is in a couple of hours.
I'll miss you and you'll miss me but stay strong.
I love you Lilly Truscott, always. xox
Oliver x'
I fell to my knees in floods of tears. No, not again. I never had the chance to say goodbye. I might never see him again. I couldn't go through this again. It then dawned on me. His flight was in a few hours, what time had he left? I rushed down the stairs again, this time grabbing my jacket, slipping on my shoes and running out the door. My mom called after me but I couldn't stop. I had to get to the airport before he left for New York, I had to.
Luckily, a bus came soon after I reached the stop. Each time it stopped, I got nervous, what if I never get to say goodbye?
I knew I was a state. I hadn't had a time to change since last night. I was still in my lilac dress. Underneath I had silver footless tights. I could sense people staring at me. I didn't actually care for once, all that was on my mind was Oliver.
When I reached the airport, I pushed my way through busy crowds. I searched high and low, Oliver was no where. I could feel myself heating up and my eyes starting to water. I struggled to see the screens which told you when flights were departing. I lost patience waiting for the New York flight to appear so I found an assistant.
"Excuse me?" I asked, "When is the next New York flight departing?"
"In 45 minutes" she replied "Have passengers checked in yet?"
"They're doing so the now"
"Thanks"
I ran towards the check in area. The New York que hadn't much people in it, chances are Oliver was gone. I travelled to the front of the que to make sure. My heart sank, he wasn't there. I slowly walked towards the exit. I was too late. The feeling of disappointment was too much to cope with. I would never see Oliver again.
As I walked, something made me want to turn around and look behind me. My eyes scanned around the room. Then I saw him, Oliver. I ran towards him. "Oliver!?!?!" I screamed He truned around.
"Lilly?" he questioned, shocked at the fact I was there.
I ran into his arms. His family stood behind him, his mom, dad and brother, we started to kiss anyway.
"Oliver, I couldn't not say goodbye this time. I love you." I said through my tears.
"Lilly, I'm sorry, I had to leave. I love you too." He started to cry too.
We started to kiss again. This time it was different. It felt like everone around us disappeared. I loved him and he loved me., that was all that mattered. Our moment was spoilt by a voice saying "All Passengers boarding flight to New York please make their way to gate 17."
"Lilly, I have to go now. " he whispered "What if I never see you again?" I shrieked "You will, I promise."
I nodded my head. He gave me one last kiss on the lips and walked away.
"I love you Oliver!" I shouted He turned around and mouthed "I love you too". I fell in a heap on the floor. What if I never saw him again? I loved him.