Hold on tight.

In life we go through up and downs. I was with Oliver and I loved it but then my mums dies. My life was goin downhill but when there is a negative there will always be a positive, it was just taking it's time to show.

My mom's funeral was the worse experience of my life. I had do many people come up to me, telling me they're sorry, telling me my mom was a good person. I knew it already! I didn't have to be reminded over and over again. Yeah, I knew they were only trying to be nice, but I couldn't handle it.

Thankfully, Miley and Oliver were with me the whole time. They each held one of my hands to get me through the day. It gave me a feeling of safety. I was pleased.

After the ceremony was over, no party was held. We didn't have enough time to organise it. I wasn't n te party mood anyway. All it would mean would be more people telling me how sorry they were. I couldn't go through that again. Miley had to leave soon after, 'Hannah thing'. I didn't care, as long as I had Oliver, I'd be ok.

My dad said his goodbyes to me. I'd probably not see him again for what? a year?
"Sweetie, remember. I'm only one sort flight away, ok?"
"Yeah..."
Him and Cassie then left, leaving me with Oliver and the Okens'. There was an awkward silence running through the house.

"Oliver?" I asked him.
"Yeah?" he answered "Can we go somewhere? Get out?"
"Yeah. err where?"
"Beach?" I suggested he nodded and we left.

It was a beautiful night. The sky was blue, it was warm with a gentle, pleasant breeze. Oliver and I walked to the beach. For no reason other than that I wanted to escape real life for a moment. The beach for me, was the best place to do this and Oliver, was the best person to do this with. We sat on the sand, staring into the deep blue sea.

"Oliver? Thankyou," I said.
"For what?" he asked, confused.
"Everything."

Thankyou was the least I could say. Oliver had done so much for me in the last week or so. I had been really finding it tough but he safed me.

"Lilly, I love you. Everything I have done for you over the last week or so, I done it because you're worth it. "

Oliver was worth everything to me. In the last few years, I had lost my grandma, my mom and to an extent, my dad. I couldn't lose Oliver. He was all I had left. I loved him.

"Oliver?" I paused," Safe me. Please take me away from everything. All this mess. Rescue me. Take me back to what it used to be like, actually don't. Let us be together."
"Ok," he replied, " Close your eyes and lie back."
I did as he said.
He spoke softly to me, "Last summer. It was the day of the surfing championships. You had just one first place and now we sat on this very beach with Miley. It was warm. Remember it? Well you're back again. That day has come. You're happy. You feel proud of yourself. I say to you, "Lilly, no one deserved that more than you." You smile and lie back, with me and Miley either side of you. For once, you don't have a care in the world. and then..." He paused.
"I suddenly felt something touching my lips. Something soft, gentle. I opened my eyes. Oliver was kissing me.
"I love you Lilly truscott."
"i love you too Oliver Oken."
We started kissing. This was heaven. I loved it, until guilt all of a sudden, hit me. My mom was dead yet I was lying on the beach making out with my boyfriend. I stopped kissing.

"Lilly?" he asked, confused to why I had stopped.
"Do you think it's wrong of me to do this? I mean my mom just died and we're lying on a beach making out"
"No, I don't. You know why? because you're mom doesn't want you to sit and not get on with your life"
I smiled, knowing he was right.
We lay next to each other, holding hands.

"Ok, so what now?" I asked, "where do we go from here?"
"We hold on tight and hope for the best."
"Oliver, " I paused, " I love you."
"It was a minute ago when you last told me but yeah, I love you too."
"Seriously, How many 16 year olds can honestly say they love everything about their boyfriend and not lie? Not many but I'm one of them. Oliver I love everything about you and I always will."
Oliver smiled," We'll be together forever Lilly Truscott"
"Yeah, we will, won't we." I giggled.

"But now we have to wait" he said "For what?" I replied "For the next heart ache to come, the next hurdle."
"How do you know there will be more?"
"Because that's life."
"We're strong enough to cope with it, right?"
"Yeah," he paused," Yeah we are..."

Oliver's phone rang.
"Hello..... hi mom..... yeah she's with me."
I looked at Oliver.
"Yeah Lilly's fine, everything will be fine."
He gave me a smile.

Everything was going to be fine. I loved Oliver, he loved me. So yeah, maybe my mom had just died but I knew my mom was watching down on me and I knew she didn't want be to be miserable. It was time to move on in my life.

"Bye mom."
Oliver hung up.
"Oliver?" I asked "Yeah,? he replied.
"Could we visit my mom's grave? So I can, you know, say a proper goodbye?"
"Obvcourse."
He stood up, taking my hand and helping me up. We walked to the cemetery.

My mom's grave was already filled with flowers, teddy's and other items. I lay down a bunch a lilies, my mom's favourite flowers (the reason for my name). I knelt down, not caring that I would get dirty. I could sense Oliver behind me.
"Lilly, I'll take a wounder, be back in five."
"Ok."

This was the perfect time to speak to my mom. I didn't care who heard me.
"Mom? Hi. I miss you and I really can't stop thinking about you but I'm guessing now that the funeral s over you would rather I moved on... so that's what I'm going to do. Well I hope that's what you want," I paused, "I love him. Please be with us, always, Please?"
'Hold on tight'
I couldn't actually hear her voice but I knew that if she was here, that would be what she would say. Exactly what Oliver said, hold on tight.

So that's what I was going to do, Hold on tight.