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They both had been sitting there for five minutes in silence. Tony looked at Gibbs, who had drifted his gaze to his hands. This couldn't be happening. It wasn't like that it looked like Tony knew his wife and daughter. Tony just told him that he really knew Shannon and Kelly. They had met! Why didn't he know that?

''Gibbs?'' Tony finally spoke up, but was interrupted by the ringing sound of the oven, that pronounced that the pizza was ready. Tony wanted to stand up, but Gibbs was faster and held his hand up in order that Tony stayed put. He needed time to think, do something, but he couldn't go to the basement right now, keeping Tony sitting here and clearly fearing that Gibbs was mad at him.

Tony watched as Gibbs walked into the kitchen. ''Dammit!'' He cursed to himself and put his head in his hands. This was not the time for Gibbs turning on his 'functional mute''. He feared that he broke Gibbs all over again with this new information. He knew that Gibbs mind was exploding right now. What could he do to fix this?

He looked up again as he heard Gibbs coming back. Surprisingly with two plates, the pizza neatly separated in half. He handed out a plate to Tony, who accepted, not taking his eyes of Gibbs.

Gibbs sat down without saying a word, but inside his head the wheels were still turning to get his mind around this. It was then that he remembered something. How could it be that he never thought of it before? He head slapped himself, and in the corner of his eye he saw Tony's eyes widened.

..Flashback..

Year, November 1990

The first thing Gibbs did when he came into the bunker hideout was getting that damned helmet off his hat. Even though he was fighting for someone else safety, he hated this crowded place, it was too small, to many people, he never was good with many people, it smelled like blood and sweat, the bed was horrible, for the little hours he got to sleep on it.

He walked to his bunk bed and hurled his backpack and helmet on it. He sat down on his bunk and, zipped down his vest and took a deep sigh. He hated it that no one seemed to care that he wanted just a quiet place, to get rid off the images off outside the bunker. He put his head in his hands.

''Hey Gunny'' Gibbs looked up and smiled at the man in front of him. The one that gave him the chance to get a smile on his face, for the day. The mailman.

''Hey Larry'' He sighed.

''Rough night?'' Larry asked as he watched Gibbs' face, trying to read him.

''Away from the most important people in my life, in a other continent where, when you step outside, the only thing you see is smoke and the only thing you her are guns and bombs and people yelling and crying over dead loved ones? Not a rough night, Larry. Rough couple of months''

''Yeah I know what you mean'' Larry said knowingly.

''You got something for me?'' Gibbs asked looking at the stock of telegrams in his hand.

Larry grinned. ''Seems that the Lovely Lady at home sent you some love'' He handed Gibbs a envelope.

Gibbs smiled tiredly and took the envelope. Larry walked away to give the others their mail. He looked at the envelope for a moment then grabbed his knife and opened it. He reached out for the the contents and pulled out a letter and a picture. First he grabbed the picture and read what was on the backside.

''Kelly, dance performance. Our little Swan'' It said.

He turned it and there she was. Kelly in her pink dance outfit, including the tutu. Making a perfect 'Arabesque'. Her hair in a bun and her face in concentration. Kelly was special, could roll in the mud the day and than be a beautiful swan, in a dance performance the other.

He didn't want to admit it, but the older she got the more beautiful she got. Just like her mother. He looked over to his sniper rifle and smirked, knowing that he would definitely use it to intimidate her dates.

Gibbs grabbed a pin and hung the picture on the wooden frame of hisbunk, underneath the rest of the pictures, Shannon had send him.

He then picked up the letter from his lap and began to read it.

''Dear Jethro,

I can only repeat to say that Kelly and I miss you so much. Kelly woke up crying last night, she had a dream about you getting hurt. I hope that it was just a dream, but so far we haven't heard anything bad, so no news is good news, I guess. I hope hope you are as safe as you can be at the moment. If not I will come and get you out of there, and don't think the people that stand in my way can stop me from getting to you.

Next I wanted to tell you something. Kelly and I have a guest. I don't know for how long, but it can't be longer then for another week. It's not family, we actually met just 3 nights ago, but he's very helpful around here. Insists to do anything. I would explain to you why he's here, but you know how I feel about telling stories that are up to other to tell. Don't worry I know you don't trust people soon, but you trust me and I trust him.

Kelly absolutely adores him, so that says something, doesn't it? I mean the girl has the same suspicion thing you have.

He very closed though. We don't know his last name and he doesn't want to know ours. He smiles, helps, laughs but he keeps a curtain distance. I can only hope that when he goes back that he will keep contact with us and that I can introduce him to you. You would like him. He reminds me of you, you know.

Well I think I will let you sleep now, Gunny. Can't wait to hear when you come home.

Kelly and I love you so much, Marine. Keep them safe. Keep yourself save.

Love, Shannon''

Gibbs frowned at that. He didn't like the idea of someone he never met, or they just met staying in the house. He wanted to interrogate this man or boy, whoever he was. He wanted to know if he could trust him. But for Shannon taking someone in, there must be a good reason. Her motherly senses were very good and he trusted her gut, maybe even more than his own. So he trusted that and made a note to himself to ask her about him when he came back home.

..End Flashback..

''Gibbs?'' Gibbs heard. He shook his head to get rid of the memory. ''Gibbs, you okay?'' He heard again. And just then did he realize he had completely zoned out and Tony was now closer to him.

He looked up to Tony, who had a slice of pizza in his hand, but was more concerned about him. He saw the fear and worry in his eyes.

''Look I'm sorry okay? I should have said something to you years ago. But please don't fire me?'' Tony almost pleaded.

''Not gonna fire you, Tony'' Gibbs said calmly. He wanted to know about his time. How well did Tony know his wife and daughter. ''How long have you stayed here?''

Tony blinked in surprise. He had expected for Gibbs to yell at him, to get out of the house, to clean up his desk and never come back again, but for Gibbs to ask questions and actually talk? ''Uhm... two weeks precisely'' He answered confused.

''Why?'' Gibbs asked.

Okay... Gibbs wanted a full blown explation? Tony could do that. He was good at talking. ''I told her about the team thing and that I didn't have family around to care or to pick me up. The doctor told her that they tried to call my dad, but he was 'Too busy'. I told her I could take care of myself. I wanted to get out of there as soon a possible but I couldn't leave for 3 nights longer if I didn't have someone to watch my six'' He explained.

''Then she told me she would be right back and left with the doctor. When she did she threw my jacket at me and said I could come with her. I tried to say no, but she insisted, boss'' He excused and lowered his eyes to the forgotten pizza in his hand. Then added, ''I just couldn't say no''

Gibbs had difficulty to keep the smirk off his face. ''Yeah that sounds about right''

''My plan was to stay until Wednesday and say 'thank you' and go. But...'' Tony trailed off.

''You stayed longer'' Gibbs stated. Tony nodded. ''She wrote about you''

Tony's eyes snapped up. ''She did?'' That was an complete surprise. He didn't think he was worth to tell about.

''Yeah. Said something about a guest, that helped around the house, wouldn't let her do anything. Why didn't you go away sooner, like you planned?''

Gibbs was confused by the facial expression. Tony closed his eyes in defeat and took a deep breath. Then opened them again and said, ''I was nice to pretend to be a member of a loving family for the time I got'' Gibbs looked at him. He felt a sudden swell in his chest. Touched by the words. He silently encouraged Tony to continue. ''I didn't have anyone at that time and I was at my down point. She just took me in, cared for me the way I remember my mom would do, and it felt so good to just be accepted, no questions asked''

Gibbs heart ached with both hurt of talking about his girls and pride, hearing how Tony thought of them and the emotion Tony told it with. He could see that this did something to him too.

''What made you decide to stay longer?'' Gibbs wanted to know.

Tony was still confused. Was this really happening? Gibbs was really openly talking about this. Still no yelling or a head-slap, just talking. ''The morning of the day I was supposed to leave...'' He looked Gibbs straight in the eyes. ''Kelly woke me up. The Little Lady came bouncing in around 7 am, demanding me to wake up, because her 'daddy' taught her that sleeping in late was a waste of your day''

Gibbs raised his eyebrows at the nickname and the way Tony said that. He felt that Tony grew more comfortable and that made him relax also a little. As Tony saw him relax, a shy smile crossed his face. ''Kelly practically dragged me out of bed, ordering me to make her pancakes, because she wanted to let Shannon sleep. Said that mommy's needed sleep so they would be happy'' He grabbed a slice of pizza and took a bite. Gibbs followed.

It surprised him that talking about them, with someone that knew them, was easier than explain it all over again. And he didn't talk, he let Tony talk, something the younger agent was good at.

As Tony swallowed the last bite. He continued. ''I didn't make the pancakes'' He chuckled when he saw Gibbs surprised face. ''I made the batter and put the cooker on... but I let her place the batter in the pan and explained when she could turn it. It was the smile she gave me when she made one perfect pancake that convinced me to stay a little longer'' He admitted.

Gibbs soft smile, as he remembered his daughter, made Tony's smile a little bigger. ''She had you wrapped around your finger huh?''

''Oh yeah! Little Lady Kelly had one beautiful smile'' Tony said. ''It made me wish I that wasn't an only child, that I had a little sister like her, or even a little brother''

''That why you looked even more jealous about Tim's sister? after you discovered it was his sister and not his girlfriend?'' Gibbs asked, making the connection. Tony nodded again, surprised that Gibbs had picked up on that.

''I regret it everyday that I didn't give them my phone number and I threw away the paper where theirs was on'' Tony said, hurt in his eyes.

''What?'' Gibbs eyes widened slightly. ''Why did you that for?'' He asked.

''When I got back in Ohio, it made me realize that the two weeks, felt like a dream to me. No worries, just a little sister and a mother. It was pretend, fake and my college life was real life. I... I couldn't call them. It would never be real'' Tony was close to tearing up. He regretted it. ''And the moment I did got the guts to call... the line was disconnected...''

''When did you?'' Gibbs asked already knowing why Tony couldn't get in contact with them.

''January 13th'' Tony said.

''A week after Shannon and Kelly were put in the Witness Protection Program'' Gibbs whispered.

Tony nodded. ''But I didn't know. As a college kid that just had decided to go on with the plan to not play ball anymore and take on another Major in Criminology... I didn't know about that yet''

''You never tried to find them?'' Gibbs asked.

''I tried, but I didn't have a last name and after a while, it felt like they didn't want to see me'' Tony said, sounding vulnerable. ''It wouldn't be the first time''

''They wanted to, Tony'' Gibbs said. ''Shannon send me a telegram, talking about you. She wanted to keep contact, hoping she could introduce each other, but she felt that you were keeping distance''

''She felt right. I learned early in my life, that I had to do that, in case for you know.. and after I tried to contact her, it felt like I did the right thing''

''She would never do that. She wanted you to'' Gibbs repeated.

''I know now. And I should've have known then''

''When did you found out that I was related to them'' Gibbs asked.

''It's kinda hard, not to connect it, when after 3 months, getting shot in the leg and you forced my to stay with you. I recognized the house right away''

''That's why you acted so weird and blew off all the invites I made the first year'' Gibbs said. It made all sense now, how Tony acted in the first year. ''Why didn't you tell me then?''

''I didn't know they... died. I though maybe you divorced Shannon, I just didn't have the guts to look into your file and you never talked about it. I respected you too much and just accepted it. I wasn't sure where they were'' Tony said. ''I was just plain scared to tell you'' He thought in himself.

''You were never sure if they were dead or if I just divorced them'' Gibbs said more to himself then to Tony. That had to be hard.

''And then when you were in that explosion, I was kinda forced to look it up. Wanted to see what hurt you so much. And that was the first time I went to their graves'' Tony admitted.

They were silent for a couple of minutes just eating their pizza and drinking beer, before Tony spoke up again. ''This is so messed up''

Gibbs frowned. ''Why?''

''Why? Gibbs, I met your wife and daughter when I was a college kid, Shannon convinced me to to take another major and work in law enforcement. I fail in keeping contact with the two people that made me feel better than I had felt in a very long time and 10 years later you come along in Baltimore and steal me away to come and work for you'' Tony said nervously.

''Maybe... they just made sure that we were introduced to each other...'' Gibbs suggested.

''You believe in that kind of stuff?'' Tony asked surprised.

''You're the one talking away and laughing on the graveyard'' Gibbs retorted.

''You... saw that, huh boss?''

''Yep'' Gibbs said. ''Shannon was right''

''About what?'' Tony asked.

''She said that I would like you. I do'' Gibbs smiled.

''I know that it was your wife and daughter and that you had 8 years longer then I had... but I miss the feeling I had had when I spend the two weeks here. I never got that feeling again. I can't imagine how you felt.. feel. I'm sorry for their deaths, I never got the chance to say that''

''Thank you, Tony'' Gibbs accepted it, with sad eyes, touched as he felt how Tony felt about it. ''You really never got that feeling back?''

''A mother No... A sister maybe, Abby? but that's on and off. One day more than the other...'' He looked unsure if he should ad the second part of his thoughts. He took a deep breath ''But I.. A family is nothing without a father and you are more a father to me that my real one ever was or ever will be''

Gibbs looked at him stunned. Wanted to say ''You going all sappy on me now?'' Because they didn't do this kind of stuff. But then again. Somehow he always felt the same about Tony. He stuck out his hand and he saw tha confusion in Tony's eyes. He smiled a half smile and patted Tony softly on the cheek. ''I know Tony, I do too. And if your father ever contacts you... you come to me okay?''

Tony relaxed visibly. ''Okay, boss'' He said. ''What do we do now?'' He asked. He wasn't sure how to be, knowing that Gibbs knew. It was just like a weird dream.

Gibbs glanced at the clock. *11:34 pm*. ''We had a long weird day, I say you go to your room and get some sleep''

''My room?'' Tony asked raising his eyebrows.

''Your room'' Gibbs affirmed. ''You slept there 17 years ago for two weeks. Every since you work for me, you have slept there every time I forced you to stay here or if you stayed over because of too much alcohol. You have clothes in the closet in the room. It's yours'' Gibbs said.

''Thanks, Gibbs'' Tony said. That really meant a lot to him. He stood up and walked to the stairs. ''Good night''

''Night, Tony'' Gibbs said. He heard Tony walking up the stairs and a moment later heard the door open and close.

He plopped back against the backrest of the couch and sighed deep. Now he needed a stronger drink, because there was noway in hell that he would sleep peacefully without at least 2 or 3. He grabbed the plates and the empty bottle and left them in the kitchen, before going into the basement.

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