Short chapter but hopefully it makes you all happy.
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She was exhausted. She had spent most of the previous night pacing up and down her bedroom, trying to understand what was going on and how to fix everything with no one getting hurt. The rest of the evening she spent curled around a pillow, missing Florian's presence beside her in bed and unable to sleep without the usual sound of his breathing and the security of his arms around her body throughout the night. Glancing across at Mr Grove as he continued to talk to the heads of department, Josie bit into her lip as she remembered how considerate Florian had been the night before. He hadn't come back to her room after he had talked to her. He was waiting for her to be ready. He was giving her all the space that she needed and she hated that. She wanted him to get over her, find someone young who would make him happy rather than bringing all the baggage that she brought to their relationship.
"I have a son," Mr Grove stated with the largest grin on his face, this comment immediately stopping her thoughts as Josie stared at him. Hearing everyone congratulate Roger, Josie felt the world collapse as she took in what was happening. While her relationship with Florian was falling apart because of everything that Mr Grove had done to her, his marriage and family with Doris was just getting greater and more successful; especially now with the addition of the son Roger had always wanted. She knew she should congratulate him because she was currently standing out from the others in the room, but she couldn't bring herself to do it. Why was he allowed to hurt her, marry another woman and then have a family while she was left alone? "Miss Mardle, could I talk to you in my office please?" Roger asked as he walked towards her when everyone else started to leave the room, his request being observed by Mr Selfridge who smiled at them.
"Of course Mr Grove," she responded, wishing that she didn't have to ask pleasant to him just because their employer was listening. Walking out of Mr Selfridge's office and into Mr Grove's seconds later, Josie remained silent as Roger shut the door and moved to sit down at his desk, a large smile still covering his face at the news of his son. "Congratulations to you and Mrs Grove on the birth of your son, I know you have always wanted to have a son," Josie stated, deciding to get her congratulations over with as he nodded, noticing the sadness that was covering her face.
"Thank you Miss Mardle," he responded, watching her for a moment as she remained perfectly still in the doorway. "Mr Dupont came to visit me yesterday," he stated as she shut her eyes for a moment. "I was wondering how…"
"Why do you always have to interfere in my life?" she snapped, shock covering his face at her sudden reaction. "You always have to interfere in my business," she stated as she continued to glare at him, her anger increasing as she watched him. "We were happy, Florian and I," she said quickly as tears appeared in her eyes, remembering how happy she'd been with the musician only days ago. Florian had made her happy, had given her something to live for other than work and she was throwing that away because of the man who was staring at her.
"Josie…" Roger began before Josie shook her head again and began to pace.
"You have ruined everything for me! I was finally happy, I had found someone who loved me for who I am and we were happy and you ruined it. You could never just let me be happy, could you? You always have to know what is going on," Josie declared, her frustration getting worse as he remained silent, not knowing what to say to her. "You have made me push him away, you have made me push away the man who loves me because you keep reminding me that our relationship failed and making me doubt whether he actually loves me, whether he will actually stay with me or whether he is just using me like you did," she stated, Roger opening his mouth to start talking but stopping when Josie covered her mouth with her hand and started sobbing in the middle of his office. Standing up, Roger slowly moved towards her before resting his hand on her shoulder, Josie shrugging it off before she turned away from him and brushed the tears away from her face. Why couldn't she control her emotions? Why couldn't she just deal with everything?
"Josie," Roger said quietly as she shook her head. She didn't want to listen to him. She wanted to be happy again and not feel like her whole world was falling apart because she couldn't cope.
"No," she responded quickly before he had the chance to say anything else. "I will not let how you treated me ruin my life anymore," she declared as she turned to face him again, tears no longer running down her cheeks as she remained silent for a moment. "I am not going to let myself lose him because you left me for another woman. Not all men are like you," she stated quickly as she began to shake her head. "I'm not scared of being in a relationship. I love being in a relationship, I love being in a relationship with someone who isn't ashamed to be seen with me in the street and wants to spend every night with me," she declared quickly. "I have been treating him terribly because I was scared of someone judging us and saying things about him, and to some extent I was right about it but I am not afraid anymore. I want to be with him because I love him."
"Josie," Roger whispered.
"No. I love him, I love Florian Dupont," she laughed as the realization hit her. "And I am an idiot for letting you into my head and allowing you to ruin the best thing that has ever happened to me."
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Stepping into her house, Josie quickly moved towards the stairs before running up them, not even removing her coat and hat as she approached Florian's bedroom, where she could hear his violin originating from. Knocking on the door quickly, Josie waited impatiently, smiling to herself when she heard him respond before she opened the door and stepped inside, shutting the door behind her.
"Josie," he said in shock, taking in the sight of her standing in his bedroom with a small smile on her face. Putting his violin down, Florian slowly approached her before she moved her hands to cup his cheeks while he looked down at her in amazement. "Josie," he whispered quietly, falling silent when she quickly kissed him, her hands running through his hair as he wrapped his arms tightly around her body. Deepening the kiss, Josie smiled as his hold of her got tighter, like he was never going to let her out of his arms again. Moving away slightly, Josie smiled against his lips as they stood in silence for a moment, their breathing echoing around the room as she glanced up at him in amazement. "Josie," he whispered again, his voice full of amazement at the fact that she had just walked back into his life.
"Florian," she said quietly as he looked down at her, taking in how beautiful she looked. "Florian, I love you," she whispered, both their smiles growing as they stared at each other in amazement. "I love you," Josie repeated, her arms wrapping around his neck before she gently pressed a kiss to his lips before they both laughed in amazement, her smile continuing to grow as he kept her close to him. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry for what I have been doing, pushing you away from me," she whispered as he reached up and slowly removed her hat while she continued to stand still, allowing him to start unpinning her hair while she watched the concentration on his face.
"We have to talk about what happened Josie," he declared as her hair fell down over his hands when he finished unpinning it. "I don't want whatever happened two days ago to come between us again Josie. I want to understand why you acted the way you did, I want to be able to help you if it ever happens again," the musician explained before kissing her gently, her smile growing against his lips as her fingers began to play with his hair once again.
"I want to talk about what happened with you Florian. I don't want to risk losing you again because I'm scared," she whispered as he nodded, resting his forehead against hers as they fell silent.
"I love you Josie," he smiled as she brushed her fingers across his cheek while they stared at each other.
"I love you too, so much."
I don't like this chapter, but that's mainly because I'm an angst fan- something that probably is difficult to believe because I write so much fluff in this.
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