(Ch 2 pt 1)

My dad buckled his pants and left the room as if nothing just happened. I curled up into a tiny tiny ball. Trying to remember early with Britt. Remembering

something happy. Yet I still just felt pain. I locked my door then climbed out my window. I walked. I watched people unload stuff from 's house. "Excuse me,

what's going on?" I questioned someone. "Oh, um, passed away yesterday." Whoever they were, didn't even care. They just plain out told me with no feelings.

Like the shit. I just kept walking really sad. I walked to the hill but there was a shadow where I usually sit. I had half an hour before school. I walked up the

hill. "Uh.." I said. I don't even give a f*ck whoever this is, better move. "Hi," Brittany replied. "H-hi" she was here. "Hey...am I in your spot?" she chuckled. "No,

no, you're good." I sat next to her. "Why are you here?" I asked. "I'm trying to figure out why this place seemed so familiar." She picked at some of the grass.

"I wish I hadn't lost my stupid memory!" She started getting frustrated. "Calm down. Calm Down" I said. It's time. "You really want your memory back?" I asked

not making eye contact. "More than anything." She looked at me with pleading eyes. "I'll help get it back as much as I can ..." I said. I need to change the

subject before I go all fairy crazy. "So did your mom get mad at you for ditching?" I asked changing the subject. "No she just told me if I ditch too much I won't

graduate." She chuckled. "What bout yours?" "Nope.. They Weren't mad ..". "You should come to gym.. So you could graduate. Please come to gym," she

asked. Ok. I need to graduate. But the bruises, I'm scared. No one can know about them. No one can know about him. "I'll think about it..." And think. And

think. And think. And think. It sucks. Thinking sucks. "Yay!" She got all excited and happy. "So today me & you are going to gym & and we have glee club

audition." she said so happy. Two freaking days and she's already all I think about. She is my hope. Hope for happiness.

(Ch 2 pt 2)

"H..hi I'm Santana Lopez..." I stuttered and glanced at Brittany in the wings. She smiled wide and gave me a thumbs up. She mouthed to me "You can do this".

"Whenever you're ready." Mr. Schue said putting his pen down watching me. Eyes on me. I took one deep breathe (Song : Breathe Me , by Sia)

"Help, I've done it again I have been here many times before.

Hurt myself again today.

And the worst part is, there's no one else to blame.

Be my friend Hold me, wrap me up.

Unfold me I am small and needy.

Warm me up And Breathe me.

Ouch I have lost myself again.

Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,

Yeah I think That I might break

I have lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend, Hold me, wrap me up.

Unfold me. I am small and needy

Warm me up, And Breathe me"

I smiled to myself. I did it. I glanced at Brittany who was just standing in shock. This is the bravest thing I've ever done and I owe it all to her.

(Ch 2 pt 3)

"That was amazing.. What's your name again?" replied to my performance. "S-Santana...". "Well Santana, you were amazing. Thank you." "Thank you..." I said

running off to the side with Brittany and basically screeched my head off and shook my head. "I can't believe I just did that! I can't believe I just did that! Ehh!"

I groaned. "You were... Amazing... Like really..." She smiled softly at me. "Thanks..." I smiled to myself. "Hey. You..wanna go out sometime...maybe?" I asked

looking at my feet. I knew she'd most likely say no. She was just so gorgeous and outstanding. "Yes..." She said biting her lip. "Yes?.." I lifted my head up

quickly. "Yes, yes!" she chuckled. Maybe this could lead to someone saying they love me, for real. Not just for my body and not just for sex. Not someone who

hits me and hurts me. Maybe these could lead to happiness. Maybe these could lead to true love... I smiled ear to ear. "Pretty cool knowing someone could

want to date an idiot like me after only two days." She giggled. "You're not an idiot... And you're really an amazing person and I am happy to be the first to

take you on a date." I smiled. "Me too.." She gave me an unsure look and grabbed my hand and looked our pinkies. "Now we're connected." I said in reply "Yes

we are." She blushes. "We should get to class" she said. "Yes, because biology is the best thing we could do right now." I smiled and we started walking. I just

sang in front of people and asked my crush out. Wtf am I thinking? None of this will last. It'll come tumbling down.