Seeing Cat lying back on my bed, naked and touching herself has me stopped in my tracks. All thoughts that Lizzy is in the room across the hall fly immediately out of my head. The only thing I can focus on are Cat's small hands sliding from her neck, over her breasts where her nipples tighten immediately and then over her stomach. She opens her legs so that her hand can go even lower.

One hand pushes at a thigh until it is open wide and the other hand slips between her legs. One finger slides between her folds and then inside. My eyes are fixed between her legs and follow every movement she makes. Her now wet finger slides to her clit and plays lightly over it. I hear her moan softly. For a moment, I glance up to her face and see that her eyes are on me and meet mine. They are dark and deep staring into mine. She moans again and I look back down to her hand.

She uses her free hand to open her folds for me to see her other fingers working her clit. She rubs slowly then more quickly then slowly again. Deliberately, she slides her fingers back inside as far deep as they can reach then I watch her wrist as she moves her fingers around. She slides them up to her clit again only this time she pushes down and another moan leaves her lips.

This feels surreal. I'm standing here watching Cat touch herself almost like it's a show for me. Her fingers begin to rub her clit again and her free hand slides up to play with her nipple. I'm rock hard now and desperate to touch her and take over what she's started. Another soft moan leaves her lips and I watch her hips instinctively arch to meet her hand. My hand instinctively goes to my dick. I unsnap my jeans and reach in to take my dick in hand. I slowly stroke as I watch Cat continue to rub her clit. I've never experienced anything like this before. She is so fucking hot. I feel like I'm going to explode as I watch Cat's chest rise and fall more quickly while her breath becomes laboured.

The hand that was inside of her, and is still wet, moves up to rub that wetness over her nipple. When it's wet, she tugs and twists it. Her free hand moves down to her clit and then, like she's reading my mind, she does what I've always imagined her doing. She takes her fingers between her lips and sucks on them. Fuck me.

I can't take anymore so I move toward the bed. Cat's eyes fly to mine and she watches as I strip off my clothes and climb onto the bed. It's like I'm stalking her as I crawl up the bed until I'm between her legs. I don't know what comes over me but I take Cat's hand, the one rubbing her clit, and bring her fingers to my lips. I'm desperate to taste her as she did herself. As I suck them into my mouth, Cat's eyes widen and her lips part. After releasing her fingers, I push her thighs wide apart and pull open her folds open for me. I blow on her clit and Cat moans deep and long. It's so fucking hot. I force myself not to cum right there and then until Cat has first.

I take a long lick and Cat tilts her hips to meet my tongue. I attack her clit alternating between sucking and flicking with my tongue the way that she likes. She tastes incredible and I love the way she tilts her hips up to meet my ministrations. Sliding lower, I push my tongue inside of her as far as I can. My nose is nuzzling at her clit. I can feel Cat begin to shake slightly and her nails are digging into my scalp. Licking up, I push down with the flat of my tongue on her clit and that's what does it. Cat's orgasm takes her and she soaks my face. She's still cumming when I wipe my face and grab a condom from the side table.

When it's on, I settle between Cat's legs. She's still breathing hard and biting her lip but she reaches down and guides me inside of her. I push deep inside of her and hold there. She's so wet and hot. I can feel her walls still trembling around me. Slowly, I move in and out setting an easy pace at first trying to draw it out. Cat begins to move with me and tilts her hips so that I can go even deeper. I hear myself groan every time I'm deep inside of her. Cat begins to moan longer and I know that she's close again. I thrust harder and faster and Cat's nails dig into my shoulders. It sends me over the edge. I feel the orgasm rip through me and have a vague feeling of Cat following me.

When I finally come back to consciousness, I realize that I'm still lying on top of Cat so I roll to my side and take her with me.

"When did you learn to do that?" I ask her.

Cat chuckles and kisses me.

"No idea. Never done that before."

"Never?" I ask.

"Obviously I've done that before but not for an audience" she replies with another chuckle.

I take her lips again and softly sip at them.

"I'll be your audience any time babe."

"If it always ends like that then I'll put on a show for you any time."

I feel sleep starting to claim me. My eyes are heavy and my body is definitely sated. Between the game and great sex, I'm done in.

"Sid, you can't fall asleep like that" Cat says.

"Just a quick nap and then I can go again" I reply.

She chuckles. "Not that. You need to put some shorts on to sleep."

"Why?"

"Sid, you never know when a little person might come in."

"Oh" I didn't think of that so I roll over and grab my shorts. Cat grabs my tee shirt and puts it on.

"I can give you a fresh one" I tell her.

"No, I like that it smells like you."

"Seriously, are you trying to kill me? I told you, I need a nap to go again."

When I turn around, Cat throws a pillow at me square in the face. I throw it back at her and get into bed. Cat turns off the light and cuddles in beside me. She sighs.

"What?" I ask.

"It's been a great day" she tells me.

"Yay, it's been a really great day. I'm so glad that we got to see you play."

"You didn't tell me how it went with the other girlfriends and wives."

Cat is silent for a moment which worries me a little bit. She doesn't answer for longer which worries me even more.

"Cat?"

"Yay, mostly it was great. Carole-Lyn and Vero were are so nice and very welcoming. Some of the girlfriends were a little catty."

"What do you mean?" I don't like the sound of this.

"Just that; they were sarcastic and catty. One asked if I was the girl who finally 'landed' you."

What the fuck?!

"They didn't bother me Sid, really. I didn't take any offense. In fact, I forget how I answered the question but Carole-Lyn chuckled so I guess I did all right. We're going to plan a play date for Lola and Lizzy next week. They got along like two pickles in a jar."

A few things in that sentence have me shaking my head.

"You're sure everything is ok?"

"Yay, Sid it's fine."

"Ok. What the hell does pickles in a jar have to do with Lizzy and Lola?"

Cat chuckles. "Haven't you heard the expression before? Two pickles in a jar means that they seem to have always been together even though they just met."

"Oh, like peas in a pod?"

"Yay, same type of thing. I guess Miss Sally uses it and I've picked it up too."

I pull Cat close and feel content; truly happy.

"I love you Cat" I whisper and kiss her temple.

"I love you Sidney."

I love when she uses my full name like that and says it with a soft whisper. Of course the 'I love you' is truly magical. I fall asleep feeling loved.

When I wake up, I feel a small body beside me that is too small to be Cat. I open my eyes and see that Lizzy has crawled into bed with us sometime during the night. She's lying between Cat and I, flat on her stomach with her arm thrown over her head. I look at the clock and its 8am. There's time before I have to be at the rink and both of my girls are still sound asleep.

I slip out of bed and throw on jeans and a tee shirt. I shut the bedroom door behind me and pad to the kitchen. I knew that I wanted to make breakfast for the girls so I went shopping before the game. I take out mom's recipe for waffles and the waffle maker. Then I get out the turkey bacon, strawberries and everything else from the fridge. As I make breakfast I also make a mess but everything seems to taste good. I set the table including the booster seat that I bought for Lizzy. Everything looks ready. When I go back into the kitchen I see Cat coming in with a sleepy Lizzy in her arms.

I kiss Cat and then Lizzy saying "there are my two favourite girls. Hungry?"

Lizzy rubs her eyes and nods.

When I look at Cat, she simply says "coffee."

I don't drink it but have a one cup maker for those that do.

"On the table. Do you want some juice Lizzy?" She nods so I ask "apple or orange juice?"

"Appo juice."

I pour some into a sippy cup - which I didn't know they were called until I bought one - and join Cat and Lizzy at the table as Cat finishes putting Lizzy in her seat.

First, Cat takes a long sip of coffee then she looks up and smiles.

"Wow, you went all out Sid."

I smile. "We have waffles from my mom's recipe with fresh fruit. We also have scrambled eggs and turkey bacon. I don't eat the real stuff often so I hope this is ok."

"Ok? It's perfect. Would you like some waffle Lizzy?"

She nods and Cat makes up a plate for her. The dessert fork is the perfect size for Lizzy to use. I was going to buy special utensils for toddlers but Carole-Lyn said that dessert forks and coffee spoons are the right size for kids her age and they seem to be working for her. We all eat our fill. Lizzy loses interest when she's finished so I put cartoons on the TV for her while Cat and I finish. I notice that Cat has stopped eating and is simply staring at me.

"What?" I ask.

"Two things" she replies. "First, I'm always surprised by how much you can eat. There can't be that much room in your flat stomach. The second thing is how happy I am. I could definitely get use to this Sid."

It gives me an idea that's out of my mouth before I can really think. "Why don't you both move in here?"

I don't know who is more surprised at my words; Cat or me. We simply stare at each other for a few moments.

"Sid, are you serious?"

I don't know what I think but I know how I feel.

"Yay, I guess I am. We love each other and I love Lizzy. Why shouldn't you move in here? You wouldn't have to work all of those long and crazy hours. You could spend more time with Lizzy and when the house is finished then we can move in there."

Have I lost my mind? This is the first time the three of us have been together since Cat and I got back together and I bring up moving in together! It's crazy so why does it feel right?

"Sid, the life you describe is exactly what I dream of; the three of us together."

"I can hear the unspoken 'but' in your voice."

"It's too fast Sid. You've only spent one day and night with Lizzy. We're still figuring it all out. We've only just said 'I love you' to each other. It is what I want but it's too fast."

She bites her lip and it makes me wonder if there's more to it. It is never far from my mind that Cat still hasn't told me about Lizzy's father. In fact, I work very hard so that it doesn't eat at me; not knowing. Is that what she's thinking about by saying no? Well, maybe not no but definitely not right now.

"Ok, I guess you're right" I tell her.

Cat gets up and walks to my side of the table.

Sitting on my lap she says "we'll get there Sid. I love you."

I kiss her. "I love you too."

"It's nice to know that you see our future. What else do you see?" She asks me.

"Well, I see the three of us in our new home. Lizzy in her big bedroom decorated in a princess theme. You and Lizzy would come to practices so that Lizzy and I could skate afterwards. We'll spend summers in Nova Scotia swimming and enjoying time together." I pause here. How far should I go?

"What else?" She asks and lays her head on my shoulder.

"Ok, I see more kids. Lizzy would love being a big sister I think. You're such a good mom. I hope that you want more."

I pause again. I never thought that she may not want more kids.

"Yeah, she would love that Sid. I never thought about having more kids but I've never thought about a lot of things until we met. All of those things are what I want too."

"Really?"

"Yay Sid, really."

This is the first time that we've talked about our future together. It's nice that we're thinking the same thing. We may not know exactly how we're going to get there but we're looking for the same thing.

"I always knew what I wanted in life. First, the sole focus was to be the best hockey player in the world. I had one single focus above everything else. Sure, school was important and my family and friends too; but, hockey was the driving force in my life. My concussion changed everything for me. I didn't know if I'd ever play hockey again and it made me think about my life and what I wanted for my life. Although I didn't know that I'd be thinking about a family this soon. Fate has a funny way of changing things whether you're ready for it or not."

Cat straightens and I turn slightly to look in her eyes. She looks thoughtful and like she's pondering something.

"Sid, I'm sorry that you had to go through that, the concussion. It must have been brutal for you. I'm glad for two things: that you're healthy and that fate brought us together."

I kiss her and we sink into it for a few minutes. It's comforting and exciting at the same time. Everything with Cat seems to illicit multiple feelings at the same time. It's complex and never easy but I wouldn't have it any other way. A long time ago I learned that anything easy isn't worth having. When you work at it, you appreciate it more.

"Mommy! Sidwee!"

Lizzy calling us breaks the moment. We part and laugh. Cat gets up and picks up a few plates.

"Why don't you see what Lizzy wants and I'll see if I can clean the kitchen? Although you made such a mess; it might be easier to move."

I chuckle as I head into the living room.

"What can I do for you my princess?"

"Sidwee, Dora's gone."

I look at the TV and the screen is blue.

"Let me see what I can do" I reply and pick up the remote.

I flip through the channels but that doesn't work.

"Hmm, this is interesting."

I get up and look at the wires behind the equipment. Sometimes if I unplug and then plug them in I can solve the problem. Hmm, some of the wires are plugged into the wrong machines and spots. I look back at Lizzy and she's biting her bottom lip and looking at her shoes. She's definitely looking guilty.

"Lizzy, did you touch the wires back here?"

"No" she answers in a very soft voice.

Now what do I do? She's clearly lying and should know that it's wrong to touch the electronics. Ok, yesterday I took care of not taking her boots off. Today it looks like I'm going to handle lying.

"The wires are in the wrong spots. If you didn't do it then who did?"

"I dunno" she whispers.

Now what do I do? I move back to the sofa to sit beside her.

"Lizzy, you know that lying is wrong?"

She nods.

"When you do something wrong, you should always tell the truth. I might be mad but I will always love you." I tell her.

This is how my mom used to talk to me when I did something wrong. Hopefully it will work here too. Unfortunately, Lizzy doesn't say anything.

"Do you have something to tell me princess?"

Lizzy's quiet for a moment then says softly "I did it."

"You did what princess?"

"Play with wires."

She is so pitiful and adorable. I feel so bad for her; poor little thing. I pick her up and sit her on my lap.

"I'm glad you told me the truth Lizzy. You can always tell me the truth. Why did you touch the wires?"

"Wanted to see" she says.

She's a curious little thing.

"If you want to know how something works, please ask me and we can look together, ok?"

Lizzy nods. I tilt up her chin so that I can look in her eyes. This time I pucker my lips. Lizzy looks confused for a moment but puckers her lips for a kiss so I peck them.

"I love you" I tell her.

"Me too!" She says and then wraps her arms around my neck.

"Everything ok?" Cat asks from the door way.

"Yep I'm good. How about you Lizzy?" I ask her and then nibble at her neck which always makes her giggle. It does now too.

"Sidwee!" She calls out and wiggles.

I may have asked Sid if everything was ok like I was in the kitchen the entire time but I heard the whole thing. Sid may not know how to be a dad but he's doing good so far. I was going to jump in when Lizzy said that she didn't do anything but thought I'd wait and see if Sid could handle it first. He did really well. Lizzy doesn't usually lie but the stuff I've read said that kids start when they're three or four years old. They are testing their boundaries and parents need to clearly establish what they are. Sid did it well.

As I watch him nuzzle her neck, I think back over what he said earlier about wanting a life with us and more kids. It still seems too good to be true. I'm a smart girl and know that I don't trust happiness because of all the shit I've gone through in my life. I know that's why it's hard for me to trust anything or anybody. But, it's hard to break free of that; really hard. I keep hoping that it will be easier at some point. I just keep pushing myself into new things with Sid and hope that it gets easier. At some point, I have to tell him about Lizzy's father. I'll have to do it before we take that next, big step in our life together. This terrifies me because it will change everything.

Sid's phone rings so he puts Lizzy on the sofa and answers it. I go back to cleaning up the kitchen. A little bit later I hear the TV come back on and then Sid comes into the kitchen.

"Cat, we have to talk" he says.

I look at him and he is very serious. This can't be good.

"Ok" I tell him.

He takes a deep breath.

"Cat, that was my agent, Pat. His office was contacted by a few reporters asking for a comment on if I have a secret child. Someone took pictures of me buying the stuff for Lizzy. One of the sales women who were helping me didn't know who I was. She kept assuming that I was buying stuff for my own daughter and I didn't correct her. If she did find out afterward, I didn't want her having details about you and Lizzy. I never thought that someone would know about the assumption and think I have a child."

I'm trying to take it all in. They think Sid has a child? That means that they're going to find out about me and Lizzy. What is that going to me to us? To our relationship? About my past?