I don't know what got into Sid but he came into the apartment yelling my name over and over. A girl can't even pee! As I came out of the bathroom, Sid looked at me with a great relief and pulled me to him and it's been one assault on my senses after another ever since. I can't keep up with the pleasure he's giving me. He's moved down my body with his lips and I'm desperate to feel them between my thighs when he stops. I look down at him and then it all come rushing back when I looked up and Sid got the pained look on his face before pulling away from me. It was humiliating the first time. Please, it can't be happening again.

"Cat?" He whispers to me.

What do I say to him? Please don't humiliate me again. Please love me for who I am, everything I am and have done.

Sid must sense what's wrong. He slides up beside me and takes my cheek in his hand so that I have to look into his eyes.

"Cat" he whispers, pecks my lips and then continues. "I love you, only you. I see you and only you Cat. Please let me show you how much. Please" he says.

I don't know what to do now. He told me the truth this morning, finally, so I can't see him lying to me now. I find my answer in his eyes; they are dark with desire and soft with love. I reach out and stroke his cheek then run my thumb over his plump lips. Next I lean into him and softly take his lips with mine. I keep my eyes open and locked onto his the entire time. I watch them go from sad to wary to soft again. I push his shirt up and run my fingers over his hard flesh as I do. I feel Sid shiver as I lightly touch his chest and then push it over his head.

Pushing him back, I straddle Sid, run my hands over his stomach and lean down to kiss his chest. I can smell the soap he used in his shower and that musky scent that is uniquely Sid. His hands lift to my sides and meet my naked flesh. As I lathe at his nipple and he runs his runs his thumbs over mine. I kiss up his neck, jaw, cheek and lips. Quickly I slide my tongue between his lips and dual with his. Sid's hands slide down over my hips and into the waistband of my skirt.

I slip off Sid and then slide my skirt and stockings to the floor so that I'm standing in front of him naked. I feel his eyes take in every inch of me and the wetness pool between my legs. I step between Sid's legs and slide my hands up his thighs to his zipper. I make quick work of it and pull his pants, shorts, socks and shoes off too.

Sid sits up and pulls me close to him. I shiver as his hands slide over my waist and down until he is cupping my ass. His mouth kisses over my stomach and up to my breasts. I grab onto his shoulders to try and steady myself. Sid takes over and pulls me down to the bed then he slides his body over mine. Our lips meet and our kisses become frenetic. I gasp into his mouth when I feel Sid's fingers push my legs apart and then slide them between my folds.

"Sid!" I cry out when he circles my clit. I feel like I could come apart right there and then. When Sid moves his hand, I try to pull it back but Sid is sliding down my body. He pushes my thighs wide open and I shiver in anticipation. First I simply feel Sid's warm breath. I'm so wet that his hot breath makes me shiver again. His nimble finger slides inside of me and his tongue flicks over my clit. He flicks it again and again while his finger works me. That's all it takes to send me over the edge. The pressure explodes inside of me and I arch up with it. When the orgasm begins to subside, I still feel Sid's finger and tongue work me. He slides in a second and then third finger. The friction is incredible with his three fingers against my pulsing walls. He's not letting me come down or relax. In fact, his lips close over my clit where he alternates between sucking and licking. I can't keep up with the pressure building inside of me again. There is only sensation and feeling. It builds quickly but I need Sid inside of me this time. I need that connection with him. I need to feel him deep inside of me so I reach down and try to pull him up.

"Sid please" I beg him. "I need you inside of me."

I look down as Sid looks up at me. His lips are wet from what he's doing to me and my last orgasm.

"Sid" I repeat.

He smiles, wipes his face and kisses his way up my body, spends a few seconds at my neck before finding my lips with his. I can taste myself on his lips and feel Sid position between my legs but he surprises me when he sits up and pulls me with him until we're wrapped around each other. He reaches between us and positions himself at my entrance but doesn't slide in. I look into his eyes and see the focus and concentration. I also see doubt and uncertainty. I know that he's still worried about what happened this morning and, if I'm honest, I'm not completely over it too; but, we need this connection to heal. We need this connection come back together. Smoothing his brow with my thumbs and then cupping his face, I try to sooth Sid and alleviate any doubt he has about us, me or himself.

I lower down onto him and look deep into his eyes as he fills me.

"I love you Sidney" I tell him.

His eyes darken and he takes my lips in a long, searing kiss.

"I love you" he tells me and thrusts up to fill me even deeper.

I set a slow pace at first simply rocking against him. Sid follows my lead when increases the pace. This position is the most intimate as we are face to face, our arms wrapped around each other and joined in the best possible way. I feel the pressure begin to build inside me since I've barely come down from my last orgasm. I take Sid's lips with my own trying to prolong this moment. I see all of the love and wonder I feel reflected back in Sid's eyes. He won't let me extend it out further. He shifts slightly so that he lightly rubs my clit with each of his thrusts and that quickly sends me over the edge but I do notice that, after a few more thrusts, Sid hugs me to him as his orgasm takes him too.

I hang on to Sid's shoulders and shudder through my orgasm against him. My senses slowly come back to me. First I notice that Sid's breathing is equally as laboured as mine. I'm running my fingers through his sweaty hair and he's running his fingers lightly up and down my back. Sid is still, slightly inside of me since I'm pulled tight against him and on his lap. This is the moment more than any other when I feel the closest to Sidney. We are physically and emotionally as close as two people can be. It's been a few weeks since I've felt this close to him, this connected.

I lean back so that I can look in his eyes and they stare back into mine. I wipe the sweat from his brow and kiss there, then his cheek and then his nose. Sid chuckles.

"That was incredible" he whispers to me.

I don't want to but I have to ask him. The answer might kill me but I have to know.

"Sid" I say then pause. How do you ask the man you love and who's given you the most incredible orgasms of your life what he was thinking of while you were making love?

"Cat" he says. First he kisses each of my cheeks and then my lips. "I see only you Cat; the love of my life. That's all I see when I look at you."

I search his eyes for the truth and the only thing I see is love. As cheesy as it seems even to me, that's all I see there.

"I don't know if it's because we talked about it but all I see right now is you" he repeats.

We kiss softly and trace each other's body lightly with our finger tips. Unfortunately, I didn't sleep when we had our nap earlier and the long day is catching up with me. I yawn as Sid tries to kiss me.

"Ok, time for us to sleep babe."

"I can't argue as I yawn into your mouth."

We pull apart and then climb under the covers.

"I know that we should pick up our clothes and I need a shower since I'm a sticky mess but I'm too damn tired" I tell him.

"Then we'll do everything in the morning before we pick up Lizzy."

"Ok" I tell him. This time I'm asleep before Sid.

Cat falls asleep quickly. I love how she feels lying naked and small in my arms. It makes me feel protective over her and like I can take care of her. It was a relief that I was able to focus on her and only her while we made love. In fact, I didn't really think at all. Cat filled all of my senses from the moment I touched her. It could have been because I was so relieved to see she was safe. My fears were definitely blown out of proportion; but, after the ups and downs of the day, I didn't exactly have a lot of perspective today.

I think about how the day began, ended and everything in between. I began with the doctor telling me that I could work out. It was the best news I could have received and the work out felt incredible. No one but another athlete could understand how incredible that first work out feels after you've been injured.

Initially, when I came home and found Cat in sexy underwear, I was immediately hard and wanted to take her. Then all of the shit came down and I killed all of the good going on. Basically, I broke Cat's heart in a few moments. When I understood the fullness of how much I humiliated her, my heart broke too. We then went through an hour of hell, an hour of discomfort and then an hour of fun. Our time after the game went up and down too but the end of the evening, wow, the end of the evening is lying here sleeping, naked and warm in my arms.

How can my fears have disappeared? In one day, how do I go from screwing up so badly and having so much trouble getting past Cat's history to being completely over it? I still have a lot to make up for with Cat of course but I'll do it and we'll be stronger for it. That's my last thought as I fall asleep.

The next day I wake up alone and disoriented. When I come fully awake, I remember everything that happened yesterday and sit straight up in bed. I see that Cat has picked up our clothes from last night and folded them onto the chair in the corner. I release the breath that I've been holding when I see Cat's clothes with mine. She's still here. I guess I'm still worried about us getting back or maybe it's going forward. Anyway, we're still working on our relationship. Do you ever stop working on your relationship?

"Shit! I wanted to be back before you woke up."

I look up at Cat's voice.

"Sorry babe. If it helps, I've literally be awake one minute, tops" I tell her. I go to get up but she stops me.

"Nope, I'm bringing breakfast to you" she says and hands me the tray.

"Let me get my shorts on at least" I tell her.

"Nope, you won't need them."

Well, ok then. But "then you need to take that shirt off then" I tell her. "Ok" she says, strips it off and then climbs onto the bed. Wow. She really did that?

"I need to be under the sheet though, at least while we're eating Sid."

"Fine, if you have to Cat." I mimic her tone of voice and we both chuckle. Then she gets a gleam in her eye that tells me she's up to something.

First, Cat pushes me back so that I'm lying against the pillows. Next, she reaches behind her for the bowl of yogurt and spoon. Cat takes a spoonful of yogurt and drizzles it across my chest. I shiver a little at the cold or maybe it's anticipation when I see Cat lick her lips. She leans down and takes a lick at my chest.

"Mmmm" this sound is so sexy coming from her that I shiver again. She leans down again and her hair falls to veil her face. I push it aside so that I can watch her.

She drizzles more yogurt on my chest and leans in to lick it all up.

"Hungry?" I ask.

Cat smiles up at me with the sexiest smile.

"Ravenous" she says back. I feel that one word go right to my dick. I woke up with a semi so it takes me only that one word to be rock hard.

Cat takes small, light and soft licks of my chest. It's incredible to watch and feel.

"My turn" I tell her and try to sit up.

"Nope" she replies and pushes me back down. Picking up the spoonful of yogurt, Cat drips it down my stomach and, after grinning at me, she leans down to continue her 'breakfast.'

I groan when her tongue slides even lower and then I let out another one when she pulls the sheet away.

"Need more yogurt?" I ask her.

"Nope" she tells me.

Cat sits up and straddles my waist running her hands up my arms, over my shoulders and into my hair.

"I'm not hungry anymore" she tells me. "For yogurt."

I roll my eyes at her lame line and she laughs.

"Come on Crosby, aren't you going to play along? You liked it all so far."

She's got me there and 'liked' is much too tame a word for what I think. I put my hands up in surrender and Cat smiles. She runs her finger nails down my chest and takes my lips at the same time. She sucks on my bottom lip as her hands dip below the sheet. Sliding a little bit away from me gives her more room to take me in her hand. Slowly she strokes as she stares into my eyes. I can't look away from my sexy siren. She's incredible and knows exactly what I like.

I can't help it anymore. I reach out and pull Cat to me and attack her lips. If she kept stroking me, I was going to embarrass myself.

"I need to taste you" I say against her lips and push her back on the bed.

I slide down her body until I'm between her legs. Spreading them wide, I dive in quickly, sliding my tongue deep inside of her, and hear Cat cry out. Fuck, she's so hot.

"Sid!" She cries out my name and I feel like I could go off just then.

I focus on what I'm doing to try and hold off my orgasm. I need to cum inside of her but first I want to watch as Cat's orgasm takes over her.

I feel Cat's head thrash around on the bed and know that she's really close. I focus on her clit now and alternate between flicking and pressing with my tongue. She so fucking sensitive. I love how quickly she cums for me. I look up at her face and watch her biting her lip. I watch the moment she begins to slow and know it's time. I slide up her body and position myself between her legs.

"Look at me Cat" I tell her and watch her pretty blue eyes open on mine.

Slowly I slide inside of her and watch as she gasps. When she moans, I absorb it with my lips on hers. I set a quick pace. I'm ready to explode and I know she'll cum quickly with her second orgasm.

"Ah, Sid!" she cries out again.

I can't wait anymore, no matter how hard I try to hold off, so I reach down and rub her clit. That does it and Cat goes off again. One more stroke and I'm off too.

I lose consciousness for a moment but come back when I feel Cat swat my ass.

"You couldn't let me completely take over huh?" Cat asks.

"Ha! You're just too sexy babe. I couldn't wait anymore" I tell her.

"Likely story."

"Give me ten minutes and I'll show you."

"Again, likely story Sid."

I can only laugh but I roll over and take Cat with me until our positions are reversed. I push her hair over one shoulder so that I can see her beautiful face. The joy I feel looking at her reminds me of how I almost lost her. I almost fucked it up and lost her.

"You look, I don't know, weird. What's wrong Sidney?"

"Babe, there is absolutely nothing wrong. Everything is exactly as it should be."

I pull her lips close to mine and kiss them. The pain is instant.

"Oh Sid. I forgot. Are you in a lot of pain?"

"I forgot too, as long as I was enjoying myself. Now, ouch!"

"I'll be back" she says and jumps off the bed before I can react.

I get up and pull my shorts on before cleaning up what's left of breakfast.

"Here you go" Cat says when she comes back in the room.

First she gives me some pills and then a bottle of water. I see that it's my pain medication. When I've taken it, she hands me an ice back.

"Use this too Sid. It will help."

I sit back against the pillows and put the ice pack on my face. It's not going to help me, I have enough experience with injuries to know that, but the pills will and the ice pack makes Cat feel better.

"Come here" I tell her and she cuddles up beside me. "Did you really have to put that shirt on?"

"Sid, no matter what you may want, I will not be naked all the time."

"A man can dream, can't I?"

This makes me think. This feeling of contentment, happiness and joy gives me ideas.

"Cat" I pause for a moment.

"Yeah" she replies.

"Cat, I really would like you to reconsider moving in here with Lizzy. I know that we're still figuring things out but we're committed to that and each other. We need to be together to keep figuring it out. So move in here, permanently. Then we can go to Nova Scotia in the summer. Lizzy will love it. The water is beautiful. The lake is peaceful and relaxing. The ocean is powerful and loud but beautiful."

I know that I'm babbling. Maybe if I keep going then she won't say no. Maybe I can simply wear her down. Am I crazy?