AN: Hey guys here is chapter 3 I hope you enjoy. Its the same a chapter 2 but in our beloved Edward's POV.

I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT SM DOES.

Chapter 3

Edward POV

Today was the day. The day my beloved Bella would be home… err well back to Forks. I knew she wouldn't come willingly but since her parents had died, Alice had said Bella would be back. Finally I would be able to see her. It had been one extremely long year since we'd left and I had last seen her.

Six months after we had left, I told my family that we had to go home to her, to Forks. Soon enough we were headed home, only to find out that she had left. The whole town was talking. They said she hadn't gone to school, in the past five monts and that just one month aga she had packed up and left Forks, by herself. Of course we had already known all of this because of our little fortune teller of a sister. I automatically knew she had left because of me. Because I was stupid and didn't trust myself to trust Bella with the Cullen family secret. I was a coward. So I did what I do best. I ran. Leaving her. Leaving my mate, my one true love. HOW STUPID COULD I BE?!

But today. Today I would fix things… or try to anyway.

I had heard the start of the conversation that she was having with Esme. I knew instantly that I had screwed up by not being at the house like the rest of my family but I wansn't ready to face her. Just like Esme had said. The conversation continued and then, her voice was so quiet and then the talking stopped. A minute later I heard the door upstairs slam and her crying. My Bella was crying. The strongest girl I knew was crying. Hard. I wanted to go to her; to comfort her, but I knew I couldn't. At least not yet.

I was hidden on the outskirts of the land where here backyard met the forrest. It was lonely. I was lonely and even though I am what I am, I could feel the pain where my heart was. The aching pain, that made me realize I actually wasn't an emotionless jerk. Was this the pain she felt for the past six months? God, I hope not. I never wanted to put her through that much pain. But after what I just heard, I'm pretty sure I had put her through that much pain. What an asshole I was.

I looked at my phone and saw it had been an hour. The crying had stopped and I knew that was my cue. "I sure as hell hope I don't screw this up" I said sending up a pointless wish. I ran the short distance to the window, that lead to the room, where I knew my beloved was. I scaled the wall skillfully and made sure I was extra careful not to make a sound, as I enterend through the unlocked window. My beautiful angel was sprawled across the king sized bed. I walked slowly and silently towards her, closing the gap between the window and the bed. I stood there for a few minutes, trying to figure out what to do. What to say to her. This was going to be way more complicated then I thought. I reached out to touch her softly and I felt a jolt of electricity when my hand came in contact with her back. "Bells" I cooed softly. I was the only one who ever called her Bells; she was bound to know who it was that was in the room.

"Edward" a mumble came from the pillow. When she said my name, I smiled. She was half asleep and barely coherent, but when my name was said it still sent shivers down my spine.

"Isabella, love, will you look at me?" I asked, wanting to see those beautiful brown eyes again.

"No. You are not real. This is a dream. The second I wake up I will not have seen the Cullen's in my house. My parents will not be dead. I will be at my house in California, away from the retched town." She said. I really screwed up if she doesn't believe want to believe that this was real life.

"Bells, this is not a dream." I said calmingly. "Please, baby, look at me."

I notice that she unwillingly rolled onto her back. I hadn't realized how far I had been leaning over her, but I didn't move. My hair dripped wet from the storm that had ended an hour ago. She looked at me like I was the most beautiful, godlike creature she had ever seen and boy was she wrong. I couldn't believe it; she hadn't changed a bit, well on the outside that is. She still looked beautiful, her mahogany hair was in a messy ponytail, she wore sweat pants and an old t-shirt and her eyes were all puffy. Pretty explanatory considering she'd been crying, basically all night. And I was to blame. Her eyes bore into mine. Oh shit. My eyes. They were too dark, considering I hadn't been hunting in a while. Her skin glowed in the faint moonlight, which softly pushed through the rain clouds that hung in the sky. I didn't realize until now how much I had actually missed her. I need to say something. Talk Edward, say something. Stop standing there like an idiot.

"I've missed you" I finally said after conjuring up the confidence.

"I don't believe you. I mean I did before you left. Short luck on trying to get me to believe you again. You are nothing to me. Except a horrible per- Vampire. Edward I don't know if I will ever love you again. I can't trust that you'll actually stay around long enough this time, of decide your life was better off when you left. Oh and just so you know, " she said. Man was she pissed. I've already f-ed this up. "I wasn't going to tell a sould about your family. I am not that horrible a a person and I loved you too much to let your friends know about the vampires."

"You love me?" I questioned. Making sure that I had heard that right. It had been a while since I heared her say that.

"Well, Edward" she hissed "I did. Until you left me that is. I don't think that you understand what you did to me. I almost killed myself because of you and the hole you put through my heart. Honestly right now I can barely handle you being here. You broke my heart."

Shit I really screwed up. Dammit Edward you coward. "I know" I stated softly. I couldn't hide how exasperated I was. I was feeling what I felt before while I was in the forest, pain, lonliness, heartache. I need to fix this now. "Bells, Do you know why I left?" I asked now standing straight up and moving away from her. I couldn't take it. I can't just stand here like this in all the tension.

"It's because you were afriad" She sat up and continued "You were afraid that once you swore your life to me , I would turn my back on you and all of the Cullen's and tell the whole dammed town of Forks, what you really were. News flash. I didn't. You should have trusted me." She accused. Honestly I half expected to her to get up and run. Just like she usually did when she got upset. She was a runner. And pretty damn fast for human, however even if she tried I wouldn't let her get away that quick. Besides I was vampire, the fastest of the Cullen's she couldn't get past she didn't run, instead she started pacing. That was going to get old fast. I was relieved and annoyed at the same time. God she was so frustrating. I ran my hand through my, tousled still slightly damp, hair in annoyance.

"Bella, I did trust you. I do trust you. It's my-" I started but wasn't able to finish because she started, raising her voice a little louder than she needed to.

"THEN WHY DID YOU Believe I would say something in the first place? If you really did trust me, you wouldn't had have that thought for a second." She said pacing faster. A wave of annoyance washed over me again. She knows this makes me nervous. I just wanted to grab her and hold in place. But I didn't and I continued in my attempt to fix this.

"Bells, I trust you, with my life. It was myself I didn't trust. I didn't trust myself that I trusted you. you were completely correct when you said I was afraid. I am a coward. I have always been a coward Bella" sadness filled my voice. I was getting anxious and couldn't stop myself when I shouted "WILL YOU PLEASE STOP Pacing!" She stopped abrutly in mid-step and stood there staring at me, looking a little scared. "You're making me nervous. Bella please," I begged, wishing and hoping that she would not start back up again.

"Fine" the words came almost in a growl.

"Bella, what can I do to make you believe me?

"What can you do? What can you… NOTHING. Not a single damn thing. You broke my heart. I can't trust you. At least not now. Edward, now that you are back I cannot tell you that everything will go back to how it was. You are going to have to earn my trust back. Once you do that, then maybe I'll believe you. But for now… Now I can't. Edward I've changed. I'm not the same Bella you knew, the same Bella you once loved-"

"Still love" I said, still ridiculously irretated.

"Still love, whatever. Either way we are going to have to start over. From the beginning. Starting tomorrow. Now if you don't mind its been a long, emotional day and I am exhausted. Goodnight Edward." She said, and I knew she was hiding the sadness from her voice "maybe I'll see you" She shrugged and the climbed back into bed.

Did she really want me to leave? Did I really just lose this discussion? Start over. What the hell does that mean? Shit. My life just got ten million times harder.

"Goodnight Bells" I said barely audible and left the room quickly and quietly the way I came. The thunder rumbled in the distance and I kept running. I knew that I was about to face the hardest part of my life, so I had to feed.

AN: I hope you like this. I personally think it is nice to see if from a different POV.

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