AN: chapter 4 its kind of short but I hope you enjoy.

I DO NOT OWN THESE CHARACTERS SM DOES

Chapter 4

Edward POV

Thunder boomed and lightening crashed as I ran deeper into the forest. The rain started pouring from the sky as I hunted. One, two, three, four animals down and I was still hungry. When was the last time I had fed? It couldn't have been too long ago. It didn't matter. All I knew was that I was still hungry. Five, six, seven animals down and I finally felt full. I was sure my eyes had turned back to its honey gold color and I headed home to the Cullen Mansion.

I slowed to a walk as I approached our three story, white Victorian style house. All the lights were on and my head was instantly bombarded with everyone else's thoughts. They were all buzzing about how good it was to have seen Bella after all this time, and how she looked well in spite that her parents were just killed. They were also very curious as to when I would be home and if I had seen her, considering I made them come back.

Sighing slightly annoyed and not particularly wanting to deal with this right now, I continued walking towards the house. Hoping I could get by my family fairly quickly, without too many questions. I stepped through the door and instantly Alice was by my side. Looks like I'm about to be interrogated.

"Not now Alice." I said frustrated "It's been a really long day…" I looked at the clock on the wall and it read 3:30 AM

"I'm not the one who wants to talk, Edward, its Esme and Carlisle. They are the ones who want to talk. I just wanted to say I'm sorry." She said wrapping her arms around my waist, in a sisterly manner. I knew she was trying to make me feel better. Sighing I hugged the little pixie back and headed to the living room where Esme and Carlisle were.

"Edward, was this really such a good idea? Bringing us back here? I'm sure you heard how she talked to Esme. It was completely uncalled for."

"Look Carlisle it's been a long day, so let's cut to the chase. Yes I heard how she talked to Esme, and I am terribly sorry mother" I said turning my attention to Esme "Carlisle is right, the way she talked to you was completely uncalled for, but she was only acting out on my account. Bella was taking her anger out on you. None of that was supposed to be for you, but since I wimped out and did not come to her house like the rest of you, Esme got the worst end of it. However I did go back to her after you all had left, and I got an earful as well, trust me. It was not pleasant. The only thing I can think to say right now is I am sorry. I messed up big time when we left, and screwed up even more having you all come back here." With that I turned and ran as fast as I could up three flights of stairs to my room.

Closing the door I felt rather relieved but at the same time I felt lonely. The last time I had been in here was when she was here. My mind flashed back to that night that I remembered so vividly:

She was supposed to be having a sleep over with Alice, if that's even possible considering vamps don't sleep. Anyway she had been forced to play Bella Barbie because they- well we all were planning on going to the Halloween Carnival the school was hosting that night, it had been two hours and Bella needed to get away. Finally after arguing with Alice for ten minutes she won and Alice released her.

When she walked up the third flight of stairs I met her at the top. Alice had done a marvelous job with my love. As I laid eyes upon her I couldn't help but take in her beauty. Bella and I were going as sailors, because she loved that whole nautical thing and I agreed to make her happy and I also thought it would be fun. My, oh so loving, little sister had chosen a perfect outfit for Bella's costume it was a retro 1950's style sailor dress pencil skirt that was nautical navy blue with four white buttons and white piping around the collar. Bella was wearing a pearl necklace and about three inch pearly white heels. Alice had curled Bella's hair and it fell in loose ringlets down her back, Bella's hair had been pulled back so it was half up half down and she had a huge fabric red rose in her hair. Bella's make-up was done very natural; I assumed Rosalie had done it.

"Bells, my goodness don't you look beautiful" she blushed slightly and then said "Thanks Edward, you can thank Alice for the look but I am never playing Bella Barbie again. That was torture. Hey wait a minute why aren't you in your costume?" She said sounding annoyed.

I laughed and said "Because, my dear, it will take me five minutes to do mine and I know you needed me. That's why I am standing here, would you like to come in?" I said gesturing to the room behind me. She nodded and then muttered "I hate you" jokingly under her breath. Even though I heard her as perfectly as I would if she was talking straight to my face I smiled, my famous crooked smile that she looked so much and then stepped aside so she could walk through the door. She sat on the black futon I had in my room, Debussy was playing softy through the speakers as I walked in behind her and shut the door. "Would it make you feel better if I put my costume on as well?"

"Yes please." She said smiling. I laughed softly and went to the bathroom to change. Five minutes later I walked out wearing a similar nautical sailor costume. Mine was white with a navy blue tie that matched Bella's dress perfectly. There was a red patch on the right breast area, matching her rose, and I wore navy blue shoes and a white sailor hat. I looked kind of ridiculous, but hell it was Halloween. I walked over to her and sat next to her. "You suck" she said giggling "but I love you"

"I love you too, Bella" and I kissed her softly. "We probably should get going Alice is coming to get us" I said and sure enough the second I said that a loud knock came. "Let's go you two we are going to be late!" she hollered through the door. I sighed and stood up and helping her to her feet. I hugged her tightly and kissed her neck then said "Let's go beautiful"

That night was so wonderful. Unfortunately it was the last time I had spent any amount of time in my room. I sat down on my futon and felt like crying. I couldn't believe that I had screwed up so incredibly much with the one thing that was good in my life. I was going to have to try my hardest to get her back or I would never be the same Edward I was before I had the brilliant idea of leaving. I Will Get My Bella Back!

AN: sorry for the ridiculously long flashback. It just kept coming. Review please