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Ricky's pov
I woke up the next morning and all I could think about was brax. My heart was being pulled in two different directions did I go running to the man I loved or make him fight for me. But I couldn't just go back to him he hurt me so much, and I couldn't let that happen again I couldn't rely on someone as much as I did him, when I lost him I lost apart of me and lost sight of what was important, but then heath and jess had baby Harley and my heart broke into even more pieces as I was meant to have a baby like that but in an instant it was gone and I couldn't get it back, and seeing Harley just made me miss the baby I never had. I walked into the kitchen to see Bianca stood cooking cooking bacon and eggs.
B: hey your up
R: yeh I couldn't sleep
B: thinking about brax
R: yeh
B: you should talk to him, you know he just wants to make things right
R: I know but I don't want to be the person I was when I was last with him
B: why
R: because I relied on him so much and lost what I loved the most
B: but he wanted to look after you Ricky, but you can make it different this time
R: but how, how do I change the dynamics of our relationship
B: well you start by talking to him and telling him how you feel, because if he doesn't know this he cant change how he is making you feel
R: its nit so much him, its how I feel I don't want to be reliant on someone again
B: but you should rely on him just like he relys on you because that's how a relationship works ricky both of you have to talk to each other though.
R: I know but he left me last time and when he left I lost a piece of me and I have only just got that back and I don't want to lose that again.
B: your just going to have to trust and believe that he wont hurt you, he has flown hallway across the world to get you back and he will stop at nothing to get to you
R: I know, but I don't know how I feel
B: you do because I see the way you look at him and how your eyes light up when you talk about him.
R: but what if he hurts me
B: you've just got to take that risk and tell him everything that happened whilst he was gone.
R: I guess and I will im just not ready to talk about it all yet as it still hurts
B: it will get better with time
R: I know, but what are you going to do about heath
B: nothing, he did what I wanted, he chose me ricky and that was all I asked for
R: so your going to go back to Australia
B: yeh if you don't mind
R: you should go home, you should be with heath and baby Harley
B: I should but what about you
R: I will be fine its harder being in Australia
B: I have to ask how do you feel about baby Harley
R: I love him he is so cute
B: I didn't mean like that, I saw that sad look you got when you first saw him
R: I didn't mean to it just hurt you know, knowing that me and brax nearly had that
B: I know, ill tell you the truth it hurt when I found out you were pregnant because all I could think about was rocco but at the same time I was happy for you but sad that it came at such a bad time.
R: why didn't you tell me that before
B: you were going through enough with brax
R: I guess, well I better go get ready for work, ill see you later and you can invite heath round if you want
B: you don't mind
R: of course not
B: ok thank you
R: ill see you later
I left for work and after four hours it was time for lunch so I decide to go to the local park and just sit down and think, but it wasn't long before I felt somebodys presence next to me.
BR: Ricky please talk to me
R: what do you want me to say
BR: anything
R: ok well I will start at the beginning you left with not even a thought about the consequence it would have on me and your family and the worst part brax I was pregnant and I had to do it by myself and then I came to tell you and you cut me off like I was nothing to you. Do you know how much that hurt
BR: im sorry
R: I would have waited for you for as long as I had to, but you took that away from me. He started to move closer and put his arm around me as I was starting to cry.
R: don't I said moving away. I thought you had more respect for me that that brax
BR: I never meant to make you feel that way
R: well you did
BR: well were do we stand know
R: I don't know because im still hurting, but I think its to late Brax, you said your good bye to me so know ive got to say mine to yours.
BR: you don't mean that
R: I do, or atleast for know, im sorry. I said getting up and starting to walk off.
B: ricky stop he said grabbing my arm and pulling me towards him .
B: I wants us I want this to work please cant you just give us another go
R: im sorry brax, I cant do that not yet
I said walking off and he followed me so I picked up my pace and hoped in a cab, even though he had followed me the whole way shouting my name.
I arrived home to see Bianca and heath sat on the kitchen stool just talking, but both facial expressions changed when they saw me.
H: I know that this is none of my business and I am not one to talk after what has just happened but ricky running away from him doesn't help, he just wants to be with you
R: your right it is none of your business, but I cant be reliant on him again heath, I cant let him hurt me like that again
H: but deep down you know he wont because it hurt you just as much as it hurt him
R: yeh I know that heath im just scared
H: of what
R: of being in love with him again and him leaving me again
H: well you've just got to take that chance Ricky because right know your both causing each other a lot of pain
R: I know
H: so why don't you go fix this with him
R: because I don't know where he is
H: hes about 2 minutes away as I was hoping you would say that
R: you told him where I lived
H: yeh, but you said you wanted to talk to him and this is the way, you cant run and he cant run
R: fine but you two can leave when he gets here
H: oh don't worry we will
It wasn't long before there was a knock on the door and in came brax followed by heath and Bianca leaving
B: why did you run from me
R: because im scared
B: of me
R: no im scared to be with you and love you because I don't want to be hurt again brax, and I don't want to be alone with out you
B: Ricky you have to believe that I will never hurt you again, because I thought I was doing what was right I never meant to make you feel the way you did, I thought it was best for you.
R: well it wasn't because you shouldn't of made that design for me brax, it wasn't your choice
B: I know but I didn't want you waiting around for me for the next 10 years
R: I know and I understand why you did it but that wasn't your choice to make I was pregnant brax and you just cut me off, that really hurt
B: im sorry
R: I know
B: no I don't think you do I will do anything for you, I promise I will never hurt you again
R: ok but if we do this, you cant leave me again and you cant lie to me ok
B: ok I promise, he said walking closer to me and kissing me. I wrapped my legs around his waist and we just stood there and kissed for a few minutes
R: what do we do know
B: that's up to you
R: I think we should go home
B: no, you worked so hard to get this job and I am not going to let you give it up
R: so what are we going to do
B: nothing your going to finish the contract here and im going to go home and sort things out there and then I will come be with you
R: but you cant just leave your family
B: im not were going back, when your contracts up
R: are you sure
B: yes I love you and this is what we should do
R: ok I love you too, I said leaning in and kissing him
B: I missed this
R: what
B: being able to tell you I love you and kissing you
R: well im all yours know
B: yeh you are because I am never letting you go. I smiled, leaned in and kissed him. I spun on my toe and grabbed his shirt and pulled him in the direction of the bedroom. I slammed the door shut. And we made love like never before because there was so much need and passion
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