Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight.
A/N: I do not reread what I write because I'm insanely lazy. So there are probably lots of errors, please excuse and ignore them.
It took about forty minutes for me to calm down. The only reason it took me so long to calm down, aside from the initial kiss, was because every time I was almost calmed down she started to trail kisses along my neck, my jaw and of course she always ended up at my mouth. I didn't want to be rude and push her away, so of course I let her continue giving me attention that she was all too happy to give. I was sitting sideways on her lap the entire time. It took all my will power to not move to straddle her lap.
"As much fun as it is to watch; since I have a horrible feeling that we won't be able to join, can I ask that you two knock it off?" Sulpicia said in a deeper voice than I was used to hearing from her. As Dora continued to trail kisses up my jaw, leading towards my lips in a pattern she had started a long time ago, I turned my head to look at Sulpicia. Her eyes were still red, but they were definitely darker. I couldn't stop the smirk from appearing on my face if I wanted to.
Without warning I was off of Dora's lap and I was sitting on my bed in front of Didyme who had me sitting in between her legs and had me lean back against her. When I became aware of my new seat, Didyme wrapped her arms around my waist and pulled me even closer into her. I instantly placed my hands over hers, no longer nervous of having contact with her, or really any of the queens.
"There, now, you two control yourselves please." Didyme said into my ear and she nuzzled into me.
My face went bright red as I realized just exactly what I had done with Dora and if the two hadn't stopped us, I was afraid as to how far we would have gone. I may be a lot more comfortable with them and I definitely did plan on having a full relationship with them, but I was nowhere near ready for that. I needed more time before I could take that step; the fact that they stopped me, proved they knew that as well.
Dora slumped down in her chair a little in annoyance, laid her over the back of the backrest of the chair and tangled her hands in her hair. She was the very picture of someone that was clearly frustrated and was working very hard on getting over it. This was the most undignified position had ever seen any of them in and I couldn't help but feel some pride that I was the reason I had made the oldest vampire of the Volturi come undone.
"Problem, Athenodora?" Sulpicia asked with a smirk.
"Shut up." Dora groaned and I almost couldn't contain the giggle that wanted to come out of my mouth. I could at least sympathize with Dora since I felt like I was left high and dry as well, but it seemed Dora was in a much worse situation than me.
Sulpicia chuckled at her co-leader before she turned her eyes on me and Didyme. She gave a slight pout before she sat in the rocking chair that I still had in my room. I had thought about getting rid of it, but it reminded me too much of Edward after they had left for me to throw it out. Now though, I'm glad I didn't because now everyone had a seat since Didyme and I had taken over my small bed.
"Would what you wanted to talk about have anything to do with the pleasant show you just gave Didyme and myself?" Sulpicia asked with a quirked eyebrow, bringing us all back on track. My face went red again and I swear I heard a little groan from Dora.
"Well, yeah, sorry about that." I said, meaning sorry for the interruption of what I had hoped to be a serious conversation.
"You're sorry?" Athenodora asked with a worried expression on her face. She had once again moved to sit properly in her seat and had now given me all her attention. Her eyes still looked darker than normal, definitely darker than the other two's eyes, but she was still completely on control. "Do you regret what just happened?" Dora asked, now looking slightly hurt.
My eyes went wide at a realization. Dora, probably all three of them, thought I was apologizing because I didn't actually want to kiss Dora. They didn't put together that I was just sorry for getting sidetracked off a conversation I really wanted to have. I was actually a little happy that they had the misunderstanding. The misunderstanding meant that even with their age and experience, they weren't immune to insecurities. This gave me something else to connect with them about since I was definitely insecure about this whole thing.
"No, I don't regret it at all." I quickly said and was rewarded with a very relieved looking Dora; at least she looked relieved until she realized that her tough girl attitude was breaking away and she quickly schooled her features again. "The timing was off, maybe, I guess not really." I started but then realized that even though I never would have thought to start the conversation that way, they at least now knew what was going to be said, even if I failed at being able to say it because I'm sure their teasing will get out of control. "I'm sorry that I got distracted from having the conversation right away like I had wanted." I clarified for them.
"If you ever want to get distracted from conversations in that matter again, we'll welcome it." Dora said with a small smile that she was accustomed to showing to anyone but me and occasionally Didyme or Sulpicia.
"We'll have to remember that in the future." Didyme said from her spot behind me, her head resting on my shoulder. "If we ever want to derail whatever it is you want to say, we just need to get your mouth to do something else."
Didyme was careful to not physically act on what she said, meaning she didn't nuzzle into my neck like I was sure she actually wanted to. Instead, her voice sounder just slightly huskier than it normally did and I couldn't help but slightly shiver from her voice.
"If I have to behave, so do you Di." Dora said with a small scowl on her face. Didyme only responded with a small snort that meant she didn't really care what Dora had to say. Didyme did though relax more into the headboard, making sure that I was kept close by her hands wrapped around me.
"Bella, what did you want to say?" Sulpicia asked, ignoring the other two's commentary. All three women gave me their undivided attention. Didyme slipped her hand underneath my shirt, not in a sensual way, but so that she could slowly stroke her thumb up and down on my bare skin in a comforting way.
I took a minute or so to gather my thoughts. I knew what I wanted to say, or at least, I knew the message I wanted to tell them. But I wanted to go over more than that. I wanted to, not necessarily set boundaries, but to do something. Since they didn't have any problems doing anything from something that resembled sex to actual sex, I'm sure they wouldn't mind getting physical right away. Bella didn't want to do something like that just yet.
"I um, as you can guess, I…" I trailed off, not really knowing how to vocalize what I wanted to say. Instead, my face went red with embarrassment from not being able to say when I know they really wanted to hear.
"It's okay Bella; you don't have to say it just yet." Didyme said in a soothing tone.
"We know what you want to say and for now that's enough; I'm a firm believe that actions all speak louder than words." Dora said with a smirk.
"In your own time dear, you'll find the words and we'll be there to hear whatever it is you want to tell us." Sulpicia said. "I feel that there may have been more that you wanted to tell us." She asked with a raised eyebrow.
"Well, I'm not sure anymore of what I want to say, after what happened." I said, motioning towards Dora who now had an even bigger smirk on her face.
"Well, how about this, we've a few questions of our own that we would love for you to clear up for us." Sulpicia said.
"We're sure we know the answers, but it never hurts to have you confirm everything for us." Dora said.
"Okay." I said a little nervously. I wasn't sure what questions they had for me, but I would definitely do my best to answer them.
"You have feelings for all three of us, correct?" Sulpicia asked as she leaned forward in her chair.
"I do." I answered right away with a smile as I snuggled further into Didyme, causing her to start to purr slightly. I loved hearing them purr, they didn't do that often, but I had never really cuddled with them that much in the past. Their purring always calmed me and made me feel so much more relaxed than I could ever imagine, I was determined to cuddle with them more often just so I could hear them purr. That plus the fact I just really like cuddling with them.
"You have no feelings for Edward any longer?" Athenodora asked with a very serious tone.
I knew what she wanted to hear. She wanted to hear that I had absolutely no feelings for him and that I would never want to get back together with them. I wish I could tell them that, but I didn't want to lie to them, I could never lie to them. I would never want a romantic relationship with Edward, but he's part of the family that I had, at one point, seen as my own. I still had to repair my relationship with all the Cullen's, but I had no doubt that I would be able to eventually. If I couldn't at least be friends with Edward, nothing more, never anything more than friends with Edward, then I was afraid that it could affect my relationship with the Cullen's. I really didn't want to lose the Cullen's again.
"I don't want a relationship with him, ever." I said, choosing my words carefully. "I do, though, want to be friends with the Cullens and if I'm friend with them, I have to friends with the Cullens, then I have to be friends with Edward." I said practically all in one breath.
The three queens all looked at each other and I knew without a doubt that they were talking with each other. The few seconds, if that long, it took for them to finish whatever conversation they were having was very nerve-wracking. I didn't know what they thought about what I had just said because their facial expressions gave nothing away. Didyme never stopped rotating her thumb up and down on my side, so I assumed that what they were talking about couldn't have been that bad.
"We don't want you to be friends with Edward." Dora finally said with a slight pout on her face. I worked very hard to keep my face neutral as I waited for them to finish what they wanted to say.
"We would rather you have absolutely no contact with the boy what so ever." Sulpicia said with a barely hidden look of disdain on her face.
"But…" Didyme said, her tone suggesting that she was leading the two on what to say.
"We can't choose who your friends are." Dora grudgingly said.
"Even though Edward is a completely ridiculous choice that no one should pick." Sulpicia added.
"Told you they the jealous types." Didyme said with a chuckle at Dora's and Sulpicia's expense, as she nuzzled her nose into the crook of my neck.
"Don't act like you never get jealous Di." Dora said with a warning tone.
"Who was it that practically chased after Bella when we first met and we had her wait in another room when we talked things over?" Sulpicia asked. I couldn't help but chuckle slightly. I loved being able to see them like this. No one else would ever see them like this, having practically carefree fun; and I doubt anyone still alive ever had. I was happy that I could see them like this.
"Did you really?" I asked Didyme from over my shoulder, putting our faces very close together. I had thought I heard Sulpicia say something like 'How does she get to kiss Bella before me?', but I wasn't really paying attention to anything aside from how close Didyme and I were right then.
"I did, I didn't want to be away from after I had just met you." Didyme said; her voice a lot softer and slightly deeper than what it just was. I felt myself lean in closer to her, close enough to lean my forehead against hers.
"Possessive?" I asked quietly, in a teasing tone.
"Of course. How could I not be possessive of you?" Didyme asked. She moved just a little closer and trailed the tip of her nose from my cheek to the base of my neck. When she reached my neck, I had already tilted my head to the side as much as possible to give her more room, she left a small kiss before trailing her nose back up high enough to place her lips right next to my ear. "I will never give you up." Didyme husked into my ear, making me close my eyes as an automatic response.
"I don't want you to." I managed to answer in a breathy voice.
"Good." Didyme whispered in my ear.
She started to gently place kisses from my ear to my jaw. Each kiss was so light that I would have thought I had imagined it if it wasn't for the tingles I felt after every kiss. The tingles that erupted set a blazing trail across half my face. Didyme kissed to the corner of my mouth and when she was a breath away from placing her lips on mine, she paused.
"Your turn." Didyme said against my lips, in a challenging tone.
I didn't have to think about what she meant. I didn't have to think about what I wanted to do. There was no thought process about what I did next. It was like it was instinctual. There was no other choice, no other avenue for me to take.
I moved centimeters forward to attach my lips to Didymes'. Her lips were so different from Dora's, yet they were the same. Didymes' lips were just as soft, just as controlling. I couldn't help but feel at home, as I had when Dora kissed me. Didyme wasted no time in tracing her tongue along my lips, requesting entrance. This time, I didn't hesitate to grant her access.
Didymes' greedily explored my mouth, leaving nothing undiscovered. When she seemed satisfied she knew my mouth well enough, her tongue danced with mine. Even though I was already losing air because of our kiss, I felt like whatever air I had left in my lungs was knocked out from our tongues dancing. When breathing became too difficult, she pulled back and rested her forehead against mine.
"I can get used to this." I said to Didyme as we stared deeply into each-others' eyes.
I hadn't realized until now, but sometime during our kiss, I had turned around so that I was completely facing Didyme. Didyme at some point moved down the bed so that we were lying down, with me on top of her. I was so comfortable that I was tempted to fall asleep right on top of her.
"Good, I never intend to stop."
Didyme leaned in to kiss me again but just before her lips touched mine we were interrupted and at first I didn't know by what.
I had suddenly found myself on my back and under my bed covers. The bigger light was turned off and the light on my night table was on. A book was placed in my hand opened to a page that I had marked with a bookmark. The queens had all vanished from sight, but my window was now open, so I could only guess that they had gone outside. But I had no idea why. I started to get up to go look outside, feeling a little hurt that after what had happened, they would leave so suddenly. A knock on my door had me quickly moving back into my bed though, and moving my book to make it look like I was actually reading it.
"Come in." I said just loud enough to be heard through the door.
Charlie slowly opened it, just wide enough to fit his head through.
"Hey Bells, I saw your light was still on and I just wanted to let you know what I just got a call and that I'll have to be in the office all day tomorrow with a lot of paper work." Charlie said.
"Oh, okay, thanks for telling me. Nothing bad happened I hope?" I asked.
"Naw, nothing bad, just a lot of catching up to do that apparently a lot of the guys forgot to do some things. So now, I have to go in all day to fix it all." Charlie explained. "I probably won't be home late with my normal things I have to do, plus all the catch up. I hope you don't mind."
"Not at all Dad, I understand no worries. I'll just hang out with the Cullens, its' okay." I assured him. He probably felt bad that I was here and he was going to have to go into work instead of spending time with me.
"Actually, I had um, called Billy and said that you were back visiting and well, it would be nice if you were to go see Jake." Charlie said with a sheepish look. I'm sure Charlie had picked up on the fact that Jake had helped me a lot after the Cullens left and now Jake's really mad at me. I'm betting Charlie wants to fix our friendship, either because he wants to see something more than friendship with us, or because he just doesn't want us to throw a good friendship away, I'm not sure what his reasoning is. I didn't want to lose Jakes' friendship, but his unjustly hate of the Cullens isn't fair or right and I didn't want to deal with it. Perhaps this could be my chance to fix it though.
"Um, yeah sure Dad, I'll call him tomorrow and see if we can hang out tomorrow or something." I answered nervously; I really doubted Jake would want to hang out with me. Aside from Jake though, I wasn't sure how the Volturi would react. They have red eyes and there's no way the pack would even attempt to let them on their land without attacking. I didn't want that to happen.
"Okay, that's, that's good." Charlie said while nodding his head slightly. "Well, um, good night Bells, its kind of late, so I'm going to bed."
"Okay, night Dad, I'll see you sometime tomorrow."
As soon as Charlie closed the door to my room, the queens were back. Didyme was back on my bed this time she was stuffed in the corner next to me. She slowly lifted the covers to my bed so that she could crawl underneath, giving me the chance to tell her not to do that, but instead I just looked for the other two.
Sulpicia was sitting on my computer desk this time instead of Dora and I almost groaned out loud because I was afraid she was going to do what Dora had done.
"Don't worry, I'm not rude like Dora, I'm not going to go through your things." Sulpicia assured, though she did look slightly annoyed.
As I yawned, I found Dora was trying to find a good place to sit at the foot of my bed. She hadn't sat down yet, but was just looking at it and moving up and down it. She reminded me a little of a cat that was prowling its' prey, it was cute.
Didyme chose this moment to pull me into her arms so that she was spooning me. I loved lying like this before I fell asleep.
"What's wrong Sulpicia?" I asked as I snuggled backwards into Didyme.
"She's jealous that she's the only who hasn't the pleased to cause you to moan just yet." Dora said as she all but plopped down onto my bed. She rested her back against the walk and stretched her legs out straight in front of her so that she took up the entire end of the bed. Before I could comment to that, Sulpicia faced me with an evil look.
"That just means that now I can plan out a time to kiss you when we have so much more time." Sulpicia purred. I felt my face go red as I struggled to come up with a response.
"But, but shouldn't a first kiss be, I um, don't know, like, spontaneous or something." I nervously said.
"Well, I consider this me planning on making you swoon so hard that there would be no other response you could give aside from kissing me." Sulpicia said with a smirk as she slowly and sensually crossed her legs.
If Sulpicia was planning on seducing me, I didn't stand a chance. I didn't know what I thought about that, at least with a clear mind I didn't know what to think. Right now though, my mind was definitely clouded and I couldn't wait to see what she had planned.
"We have an early day tomorrow Bella. Carlisle called and requested we all meet at their place tomorrow morning so we can help Jasper train the rest of the Cullens." Didyme said as she moved a little so that she I was practically cocooned in her arms, which gave me an amazing feeling of being protected and loved.
I closed my eyes, deciding that I really was tired and didn't want to even try to stay awake anymore. The last thing I saw before I closed my eyes and fall asleep was Sulpicia giving me the most seductive wink I had ever seen. I had never previously thought winks could be that seductive, but Sulpicia apparently had a lot to teach me. When I had finally fallen asleep, my dreams were filled with the three queens getting way too close to me. That was the first night that I dreamed dreams that I really wanted to come true. That was the first night I had dreamed dreams that I really wanted, that I could actually make a reality. I'm sure I had a smile on my face all night.