A/N: Okay so this was meant to be posted hours ago, but when I came onto fanfic earlier I started to read a story. So here is the next chapter now. I am surprised at the response I got for this fic, it has made me happy. This chapter starts the first bit of how her life goes down hill, the chapters will tend to get a bit worse after this one, they will deal with self harm, abuse and rape.

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Addison walked through the park and kicked a stone. She didn't want to go home, but she had nowhere else to go. Her mother probably wasn't home, and if she was, she wouldn't want Addison there. Addison kicked the same stone again and walked along the path. She stopped when she spotted five kids from her school. She looked and saw they were smoking, and having a laugh. Slowly she began walking towards them, normally she'd stay out of their way.

"Hey! Addison right?" One of the boys called out to her.

"Yeah…"

"Come over." He beckoned her over. "What you doing all alone?"

"I don't want to go home." She stood in front of them.

"Oh." Steve, the guy, smiled. "Here, why don't you try one, it'll make you feel better." He handed her a cigarette. "Go on, try it." He smiled.

Addison looked at it, before looking at the others, they were all smoking. "Okay…" She took it.

"Put it up to your lips." Addison did as he said and he lit the end for her. "Then inhale slowly." Addison inhaled and started coughing. Steve laughed. "Don't worry, happens the first time, it'll be fine your second." She nodded slowly.

"You're not as nerdy as we thought." Diane one of the girls pushed herself off the tree she was leaning against and took a puff of her cigarette, blowing the smoke in Addison's direction. "You could fit in with us." She tilted her head to the side and looked at Addison. "What do you think Blair?" She called the other girl.

"She could, if she changes her style a bit, and her attitude. We can work on her though." Blair took a puff on her cigarette. "Take another puff." She motioned to Addison's. She slowly brought it up to her lips and copied the two girls, this time she didn't cough. "Good." Blair smiled. "Fitting in already."

"Babe, I want to go home." Ryan wrapped his arms around Blair and under her top.

"We will." Addison tried not to look as his hands moved up towards Blair's breasts.

"Take him home B, give him what he wants." Diane smirked.

"Okay, okay." Blair rolled her eyes and her and Ryan left.

"So, you got a boyfriend Addison?" Diane raised an eyebrow.

"Erm, no."

"Shame, you're missing out on something great. Sex is just amazing." She winked at Jake. "Here, you should try these." She handed Addison a packed of cigarettes. "Be good by the time we see you in school tomorrow." She walked over to Jake before they left as well.

Steve smiled at Addison and moved closer. "So, you want to hang around with us then? You got no one else, you might as well." She nodded at him. "Good, I'll see you in school tomorrow then." He winked before walking off as well. "Smoke those fags!" He shouted over his shoulder and Addison brought it up to her lips and inhaled again. It wasn't actually that bad.

Addison walked into her house that night and noticed her mother still wasn't home. She walked into the kitchen and pulled out a ready meal and put it in the microwave. She noticed that she smelt of smoke and she screwed her nose up. Next time she would have to take body spray with her when she smoked. She took her dinner out of the microwave and sat at the kitchen table to eat it.

Addison stood in her room and looked at the packet of cigarettes. She shut her door and walked to her window, opening it fully. Her bedroom was at the back so her window wouldn't be seen, and she had a small roof beneath her window which she climbed out onto. Addison made herself comfortable and took out the lighter she had got from the kitchen, putting a cigarette to her lips she lit it. She inhaled slowly, before blowing it out. It was pretty easy now. She looked around her garden at the trees and flowers, it looked so peaceful.

Just as she finished smoking she heard her mother's car pull up in the drive. Addison climbed back into her room, shut her window and sprayed, making sure there was no smell of smoke. She walked into her bathroom and turned on her shower, before stripping and getting in under the water. She washed the smell of smoke off her, she didn't want her mother finding out, not that she would probably care.

Addison walked into school the next day and saw the group of five. Steve spotted her and called her over. She smiled as she got nearer. "Hey."

"So, how was the smoking?" Diane raised her eyebrows.

"Okay."

"Good, got any left."

"Yeah…"

"Good, you don't want to smoke too many in a day, costs too much."

"So sit with us in class." Blair played with her lip piercing.

"You should take her out shopping Di." Jake commented, looking Addison up and down.

"Sure, we could go tonight, you free?" She looked at Addison who nodded. "Good. We can go after school."

"Okay." The bell rang signalling the start of class, and they made their way to maths.

"No you want this." Blair held up a very short mini-skirt. Addison looked at it stunned.

"No, that may be you but it's not her." Diane put it back and picked up another skirt, this one a bit longer. "Try this one, with this top."

"And this one." They piled clothes into Addison's arms. "Go try it on." They pushed her towards the changing rooms, where she tried every one on. She ended up buying only two things. "Now underwear."

"What?" Addison looked at Blair in shock.

"Well you need sexy underwear for your boyfriend."

"I don't have a boyfriend…"

"But you will soon." Blair smirked. "Now underwear, follow me." Addison followed them to another shop. "Ta-da!" Blair stood in front of Ann Summers.

"You want me to go in there?!"

"Yes, I go in all the time. Guys love stuff from this shop, now come on." Blair pulled Addison into the shop, knowing exactly where she was going. "Hmm." She searched the shelves for what she wanted. "What bra size are you?" She looked at Addison's boobs.

"I'm not telling you that!"

Blair rolled her eyes. "Hmm, well, you're big, so I'd say like 36C, would you think Di?"

"Yeah, she looks it."

Addison sighed. "Fine I'm a 36C."

They smirked. "We knew it." Addison huffed slightly and crossed her arms over in front of her boobs. "And there's a matching thong." Blair pushed the underwear into Addison's arms. "This set is good too." She began picking out different sets and giving them to Addison.

"Whoa, not too much there B." Diane put a couple set backs. "Let her try these ones out first, then she can always come back and get the rest." Blair nodded and they walked to the till, where Addison paid.

"Now all we need is to get you a boyfriend."

"And I know someone who is interested." Diane smirked as they left the shop.

"Who?"

"Ah, now that would be telling, but I don't think it will be that long before he asks you out, and you should say yes."

"Oh, okay…" Addison wasn't quite sure if she wanted a boyfriend just yet.

"Good." Blair smiled. "You can show off your new underwear to him. I know Ryan loves mine." She smirked.

"Okay we don't need to know about your sex life with Ryan." Diane rolled her eyes.

"Whatever." Blair shrugged. "So, Addison, you still a virgin?"

"Yes."

"Well, you'll soon pop your cherry when he asks you out." Diane winked.

"Who?"

"I'm not going to say anything, you'll find out soon enough." They walked down the street.

"Hey!" Steve ran up behind them and put an arm around Addison's and Diane's shoulder. "So how did shopping go?" He looked down at Addison's bags.

"Okay, she'll fit in with us in no time." Blair smiled. Steve nodded his head and let his gaze travel upwards, so he could look down Addison's top. "I better go, see you guys later." She waved goodbye before turning off.

"Any plans for tonight?" Steve raised his eyebrows and glanced up at Addison's face.

"No." She shook her head.

"You could come out with us."

"Where?"

"Oh." He shrugged and looked down her top again. "Just the park. Meet us at seven."

"My mom will be home then."

"Sneak out, I do." Diane shrugged.

"I can't." Addison shook her head.

"Come on, it'll be fun." Steve urged.

"Sorry, another time?"

"Okay then. You should go home, we'll see you tomorrow." Steve and Diane walked off, leaving Addison alone. She looked away before walking home.