A/N: Okay so here is the next chap for you all. Glad you are liking it:D This chap deals with him forcing her to do sexual things and self harm.

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Addison awoke the next day to a headache. She reached a hand up and cradled her head. Slowly she sat up and noticed she wasn't in her own room, then she noticed she was naked. She gasped and realised she was in Steve's bed. Something red caught her eye on the sheets. Blood. There was blood on the sheets, and on her. Tears sprang to her eyes. Had her and Steve, done it? Had they actually had sex? She got off the bed and quickly pulled on her clothes, wishing she hadn't moved as fast.

Slowly the bedroom door opened and Steve walked in smiling at her. "Good morning sleeping beauty, sleep well?" He smiled widely.

"Yeah, thanks…" She ran a hand through her hair.

"Good."

"I should go, I want to go and change."

"Okay. Meet us later in the park?"

"Erm, maybe, I don't feel all that great."

"Okay." He smiled. "See ya."

"Bye." She quickly left his house. Steve stood smirking to himself, he always got what he wanted.

Addison got in under the hot water as soon as she got home. She wanted to get rid of any traces of him. Getting in with them was such a bad idea. But she had gone too far now, there was no turning back. She had already slept with the guy. Addison scrubbed hard at her body, the hot water burning her skin. The tears ran down her cheeks, stinging. This was not how her life was meant to be.

Once she felt she had gotten as much of him off her as she could, she got out of the shower. Carefully she wrapped a towel around her body that stung from the hot water and scrubbing. She walked to her room and sat down on her bed, looking around her. She sighed and stood up again, pulling out clean clothes and placing them on her bed. Carefully she took the towel off and applied cream to her body, trying to stop the slight stinging. Once she had the cream on she began to get dress.

Ten minutes later and Addison stood in the kitchen staring at the knives. It would be so easy, to just pick one up, and cut. No one would see, so no one would know. She could end it all and there would be no one there to stop her. No one would know. Slowly Addison reached for a knife and held it in her hand, looking at the sharp blade. She brought it to her arm and pressed slightly, just feeling it on her arm. It felt…good. Slowly she pressed harder so blood appeared. She gasped slightly and moved the knife, leaving a clean cut. Blood trickled down the arm and she just stared at the cut, feeling, refreshed. Suddenly she felt better and she moved the knife to another place on her arm, cutting again and watching the blood. She had found what she needed.

Addison placed the knife on the side and turned on the tap, letting the cold water run over the cuts she had made, washing away the blood. She watched as her blood went through the plughole, not being seen again. She grabbed a towel and wrapped it around her arm, before going to the cupboard and getting out a bandage and wrapping it tightly around her so the bleeding would stop. Addison then went back upstairs to get a jumper to cover her arms.

The doorbell rang just as she had pulled a jumper on, and she walked back down the stairs, not really wanting to see anyone. She sighed and pulled open the door, revealing Steve, Diane, Ryan, Blair and Jake stood there. "Hey!" They walked into her hallway.

"Nice house." Blair commented and looked around. "Anyway, we heard your mom isn't home?"

"No, she's gone away until next Friday."

"Cool." There was a sparkle in Blair's eyes.

"House party!" Diane sang.

"What?" Addison looked at them.

"A house party." Steve dropped an arm around her shoulders. "A party in your house." He smiled down at her.

"I don't think that would be a good idea."

"Your mom would never know!"

"I still don't think…"

"We get away with them all the time." Blair shrugged. "My mom never finds out."

"We could arrange it for tonight, we will take care of everything."

"But…"

"Don't worry about it babe." Steve kissed her neck.

"Leave it to us!" Diane and Blair smiled and left the house ready to plan the party for that night.

"I really don't think it's a good idea."

"It'll be fun, we'll go get some booze." Ryan and Jake left as well.

Steve smiled down at Addison and pulled her close. "Tonight will be fun."

"Yeah… they won't invite too many people will they?"

"No, of course not."

"Okay…" She still wasn't sure.

"I should let you go and get ready for tonight, you can wear some of your new clothes." He smiled and left. Addison sighed and closed her eyes briefly. This was not meant to be happening.

Addison looked around at the people she didn't know in her house. She hadn't seen most before and she wondered if they knew anyone else there. Her eyes widened as she saw two drunk guys throwing a vase to each other. "Hey!" She caught it. "Don't break that, it's was my grandmothers." She frowned and put it back.

"Hey lighten up babe." Steve wrapped his arms around her. "Just let the party go. Let's go upstairs and forget about this lot." A shiver ran down her spine as he dragged her upstairs and into her room. Steve shut the door behind them and led them to the bed. "So?" He smiled at her. "Let's have a little party of our own shall we?" Addison just looked at him. "Kneel down in front of me."

"What? Why?"

"Just kneel down." He pulled her arm so she ended up kneeling in front of him. Steve unbuckled his belt and unzipped his trousers. Addison swallowed and just looked at him. He revealed himself and smiled. "Go on, do what you want to do." He smirked at her and she didn't move making him roll his eyes. "It's not hard." He shifted a bit closed to her and placed a hand either side of her face, bringing it closer to him. "Just suck."

Addison had no idea what to do. He brought her face even closer to him. "Put your mouth around me and suck." His tone was harsh. Slowly she opened her mouth and placed her lips around him. "Good." She began to do as he asked and his moved his hips towards her slightly then with drew them and repeated it. His eyes closed and he moaned, his hands still on her face. "Harder baby."

Tears stung Addison's eyes. "I don't want to do this anymore." She tried to pull back.

"No, you will do it, now." He shoved her head back and forced her. She tried not to let the tears fall as he moaned. "This is good, keep going." She could feel him hardening in her mouth and knew he was getting close. Addison pulled away. "Finish off." She didn't move forward. "With your hand then." He grabbed her hand and wrapped her fingers around him. "Go on." She began moving her hand up and down, giving him his release, making him moan. "Fuck me." He breathed. "That wasn't so hard now was it?" He stood up, doing his jeans up again. "Next time, don't whine and just get on with it." Addison looked down at the floor and fought against the tears. He walked out of her bedroom and back down to the party.

Slowly Addison got up and walked into her bathroom, locking herself in. She walked to the sink and looked at herself in the mirror, she felt disgusted. With a shaky hand she opened the cabinet and got out the razor, pulling it apart to get the blade out. With tears running down her cheeks, she turned to the other arm this time and drew the sharp object across her flesh, watching as the blood once again trickled down her arm. She felt the pain and felt good about herself. Addison removed the blade and moved to another spot on her arm, cutting there as well. She knew she shouldn't, but she needed to. It was what was keeping her breathing.