I never knew that the loneliest day of my life is that day. I never knew that everything I've work for will never be the same, will never be mine. The days that I've count is the days that I've regret. Each day maybe the same as normal but for me it is the lament of my new beginning.

Hours have passed since the Uchiha made a choice that forever will hunt him. The operation for Sakura and the babies have been going for four hours already. No one knew what is happening inside the Emergency Room and dawn is already nearing its entrance to the people of Konoha. Nurses who made out of the E.R. never utter a word to Sasuke when he asks them; they said that they are not allowed to say a word on what is happening in the room. Tsunade also hasn't made announcement about the operation and it really made the Uchiha prodigy loose his patience.

Nurses keep bringing blood and operation machine to the E.R. and some are even bringing more towels and chakra replenishes pill. Sasuke stare at this people as they go in and out of the room, though he is showing a stone face, silently and deep inside he is praying and keep on saying the same mantra his been pronouncing for hours over and over again.

I am sorry, I am sorry, I am sorry, I am sorry, I am sorry, I am sorry, I am sorry,……..

Sasuke decide to wonder around the hospital before he barge in the Emergency Room. He roams the walls and floors of the hospital until he comes to the new born ward. He watched as the babies cry or sleep on their own hospital crib. Two nurses are guarding or rather making the babies comfortable. A couple made their way to the glass ward to see their baby, the Uchiha survivor observes the couple as he sees the happy and proud emotions that they are giving away. He remembers his decision and how it soon affects him though he doesn't know the reason for. Couldn't take the flow of emotions, Sasuke leave the ward and started to bring his feet to the Emergency Room waiting lounge.

Seems that no rookie nine has been inform about the situation of Sakura but Sasuke could clearly see his former sensei sitting in the couch while his Icha Icha Paradise book is out. Though the orange book is out, he could clearly see the eyes of his sensei that it is not moving or rather it is starring at the Emergency Room. Sasuke approach his former sensei however he didn't sheer a word to him but neither the sensei said anything to him. They sat together even though no words are being exchanged. Sasuke was somewhat glad since he also doesn't know what to say to him and right now he is really a mess for everything and everyone.

Tsunade burst in the door and gladly take the mask of her face and went immediately to the Uchiha prodigy bringing the news that he was waiting for.

"The operation went well. Sakura lost too many chakra and blood but we manage to pull through. She's out for now and might not be awake for days but she fine and taken care of." The Hokage said.

Tsunade can clearly see the relief that the Uchiha release but then again news can be good and bad at the same time; these two are always on the same path that we should believe on.

"What about the babies, Hokage-sama?" Kakashi asked.

"The babies, I am sorry, Uchiha." Tsunade replied while looking at the prodigy.

Sasuke couldn't say anything at the moment. In the flash everything seems to be right then again he couldn't really wish for everything. He sank on the floor and for the first time in his life since his clan was massacre, he cried. He cried for his lost and especially he cried for Sakura and his babies. Tears maybe spot on his face but the anguish and sorrow of his mistake is been rewarded by pain and mourning.

Kakashi look at his former student display the emotions he never knew that the boy had. He felt the pain through out his body and his heart seems to agree at the grief of his student. He then look at the Hokage to see how she mourn for the news but then again it seems that the Hokage has some news left and he patted the Uchiha to listen again to what Tsunade is going to say.

"The first born child die at exactly he was out of the womb but somehow the second child survives the intense of the operation. I made sure that the child gets the proper attention and care the child needs. The child or rather she, weight for the average premature baby that was born and she need to be in the hospital ward for months." Tsunade said as Shizune approach the Hokage and give the scotch bottle. Tsunade immediately drunk the bottle down to the last bit and prepares to leave the hospital to rest.

"Hokage-sama, is Sakura really going to be alright?" finally the Uchiha found his voice to ask or rather to confirm the health of Sakura.

"I nearly lost my beloved apprentice their Uchiha. I would really really and really appreciate it if you take good care of her now and the baby and if not I am going to make sure that your daughter is the only Uchiha alive." With those words the Hokage left the waiting lounge and proceed to drown her aching headache to the Hokage Tower.

"Loud and clear there Sasuke" was the only thing that Kakashi told his student before disappearing in the wind.

They might not see it, but he is so guilty that he was the cause of the death of his son as well as the suffering of Sakura. He knew that he cannot take the whole thing back but he knew that he can make things right not for him but for his family.

God may not hear his prayers but somehow the angels help him to make things right for the best.

He has been pacing in the wall for about an hour already. Shizune has come and pick him out in the training grounds to tell him that Sakura is awake but then again he doesn't have the courage to go inside that room Sakura is in. He also tried to listen outside the door and he also tried to feel the movement inside the room but all he got was silent. The nurses have been looking at him and raising their eyebrows and quietly praying that he got inside now for he has been making them dizzy.

This was not the proper thing or proper act that he should have done. He never pace around the hall for his entire life and he never even don it for a mission to try eavesdropping to someone. He is acting beyond on what he should have shown to everyone. But he rather made them see him like this than meeting Sakura for he knows that everything he had done to make his life is not enough for her forgiveness.

Well then again he is not ready to face her this time. He may have the sharingan but this time it will not help him. He curses himself for having cold emotions where in he should have been inside the room by now and asking for forgiveness. Sasuke didn't go in the room. He was so frustrated to himself that he made his way again in the training grounds.

Sakura could feel and hear that her so called husband is outside the door. She was praying to god that gave her all the lucky she will need because she doesn't want to face her husband. When she woke up the first things she thought was her babies. She immediately calls for a nurse and ask for them but then the nurse won't tell her anything so she ask for her sensei. Tsunade made to her room with a slight smile in her face knowing that her apprentice would be ok for the mean time. But she doesn't know how to drop the news to the mother for she knows that it will make her the saddest grandmother in the village of Konoha.

"Tsunade-shishou, where are my babies? My children? What happen to them?"

The Hokage could clearly hear the worried tone of Sakura as well as the nervous emotions that she releases.

"Sakura, I am so sorry to tell that…."

"NO! NO! NO! please don't tell me that kind of news! Please shishou tell me that they are alive, tell me that everything will be ok.. please I am begging you please!" Sakura cried while interrupting the Hokage.

A cry for help was heard.

A cry for despair.

A cry for lost.

Her cry for her children.

"My children, please, shishou please, tell me that they are alive. Tell me that they are healthy. I would die if they die." A deathful sob of a mother in despair.

"Sakura! Listen to me first ok?!" the Hokage shouted at her apprentice.

"The first born child die immediately upon release from your womb" A painful weep was made from the lost mother.

"However, your second child is ok. She survives the operation pretty well and I send her immediately to the baby ward for further good care and observation. This morning she has a fever and she's been crying all day long according to the nurse."

Sakura continued to cry, tears are very adamant to her face. Sobbing mercifully to God asking for the entire why's in the world. Is she a bad person to deserve this kind of life? Is she the one who destroy her family? Is she the one who should be punished by the kind if life she dreams of?

Tsunade couldn't take it anymore so she hug Sakura to comfort her, to tell her that everything will be alright in the end. That even if this things happen to her there will come a time that happiness will be blooming in her life.

"I want to see my child, sensei."

"Of course, I'll tell the nurse to bring her here instantly."

Sakura wipe away her tears. A different kind of aura was emitting from her, an aura which can cause you to whimper out of control. An aura of lost and most of all an aura of anger to her husband but most of all anger to herself for being weak, weak to help her children in need.

She silently prays for the soul of her first born child. She asked for forgiveness for mercy of her faults.

My child, please forgive your weak mother. Please don't be angry with me for the wrong things I've done.

Please forgive me for not sharing the world to you for not taking good care of you.

Please forgive me for letting you die.

I am begging you; please forgive your helpless mother.

The nurse came in with the child, she handed the baby to Sakura with extra care.

As she receives her baby, a new fresh of tears is flown to her cheeks and a sob of sadness was heard again from the said mother.

"Sakura, listen to me. You need to be strong for her. You must give the strongest effort for her. For her future and for her brother." Tsunade said as she wipes her own tears. She may not say it allowed but she pitied her apprentice. She couldn't do anything to make it alright all she can do was to say words that will sooth them both. But she knew that those words where not enough for all the sufferings Sakura has been to.

"My baby, I am sorry if I am not strong enough to help your brother to survive the operation. I am sorry if I had to make things worst for the both of you. I am sorry if I had to work harder for the future that will wait for you and I am sorry if I can't give you the family that you should have. I am so sorry for making things harder than having it easier." Sakura said to her baby while caressing the cheeks and head of the child.

"From this moment your life has began, I am promising you that everything you need will be yours, every love and care you need will be for you forever and for you I will be the strongest person to keep you away from the people who will hurt you."

"I Haruno Sakura promises to my child as I name her Keiko will be the only person that I will protect for as long as I live and I will live for your happiness and your love"

A mother's pledge to her daughter the secure of love, happiness and protection of a parent to her child, a promise of hope, faith and trust to her child for eternity, a vow that will not keep them apart and forever to be together.

Outside the window of the hospital room that Sakura was in. A figure whose face was so devastated, was so hurt, was so fearful can be seen. The husband of Haruno Sakura was silently saying the mantra again and again. I am so sorry.

To Sakura:

To their daughter, Keiko:

To their son, Kaitaro: As he gave the name to him.

Teaser Quotes for next chapter:

"Naruto! Listen to me! Listen ok?! This things or situation happen because there are reasons why they must occur. Maybe god is telling us that even though the person we love left us or cheated on us there is still a chance that someday or somehow there is a person which is meant for us will come and will love us unconditionally. They might not be our greatest love but for sure they are the reason why we must continue to live and to love. Killing yourself because Hinata broke up with you will not solve anything. I've been there on your situation and I know I've ask god the same things and he always made me realize that this is just his reason for you to find someone who will take good care and not hurt of you. Ok? Don't do it again, promise me."

"I promise, Sakura-chan"

As Sakura said those words, tears can bee seen to the Uchiha survivor.

Tears of ache,

Tears of regret,

Tears of longing,

Tears of guilty and most of all.

Tears of lost love.