A/N- So a lot of you didn't really like James leaving and I'm sorry. This chapter wasn't too hard to write, it was the next one that was. Please stay with me though! Enjoy this chapter!
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The Classic Chic- Ya the last chapter was a little emotional, but it was still one of my favorites… I'm glad you still liked it!
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"Edward?" I asked quizzically. The auburn haired Cullen looked up at me grimly.
"Carlisle told us you had left Denali before him and no one knew where you were going. Alice and I decided to look for you." Edward explained.
"Why?" I asked. "You didn't need to and you have Bella to stay with now." I replied.
"I know. To tell you the truth it was to protect her and the other humans."
"You were scared I would start hunting them." I said.
"Pretty much. You are a newborn after all." Edward said. "What's your count, anyway?"
"My count?"
"How many humans have you killed?" Edward asked.
"None that I know of. Carlisle gave me bagged blood when I was first turned, but other than that I haven't. I almost hunted one man, but James stopped me."
"James stopped you?" Edward asked.
"He has… did accept the life." I explained. "We were going to work on it together."
"Carlisle told us what happened, how Chelsea twisted your relationship." Edward explained. "Why aren't you looking for him? Trying to heal it? She didn't tie it to the Volturi."
"We don't know that. We don't know if he's there now." I replied. Edward was silent for a while. "You weren't there, nor was Carlisle. His voice, his face, so full of hate. I just couldn't be faced with that again. He crushed me and if he rejected me again, he'd crush me again."
"You still love him?"
"I'll never stop." I said, almost proudly. "Aren't you suppose to be a mind reader or something?"
"You're a mirror, it doesn't work. I just hear my own thoughts. In a way it's like Bella although when I try to read her I just get nothingness." Edward said with a shrug.
"But Alice can see my future?" I was still curious as to the extent of my power.
"No, she sees hers. Laurent told Carlisle about this place so it was on our list of places to search. When my thoughts started getting reflected back at me I knew you were close." Edward explained. I nodded my head in understanding.
"Aren't you going home now? I'm sure Bella is wondering where you are." I asked.
"I will soon, don't worry. Why don't you come back?" Edward asked.
"What? Why?"
"I'm sure Alice would love to see you again and Carlisle would want to make sure you're alright."
"What about the others? Won't they try to hurt me because of James?" I asked.
"No, they won't. Rose may not like you that much, but Bella's going through the same thing. How long have you been a newborn?"
"Um, almost two weeks now I guess. I'm not too sure."
"Nights blending with days?" Edward asked with a smile.
"Ya, something like that." I replied.
"Well, you should still have your newborn strength. Challenge Emmett to some kind of fight or arm wrestling competition will you?"
"Uh, why?" I asked.
"Because right now he's waiting for Bella to turn, but that's not going to be for a while, never if I can help it." Edward replied.
"You're not going to turn Bella? But won't the Volturi come after her?"
"I don't want to damn her to this life and right now, the Volturi don't know about her." Edward replied sternly. I knew he had been contemplating everything that had to do with Bella. He loved her too much to hurt her and from what I could deduct from his words, he thought of himself as a threat. "As far as we know, unless James went to the Volturi, they don't know about Bella." Edward muttered, almost as an after thought.
"Don't talk about him like that." I snapped. "He wouldn't betray people he's helped. He's not going to betray you, don't worry."
"If you say so." Edward muttered. "Are you ready? Alice is getting anxious."
"Ya, I guess." I jumped off of the rock and next to Edward. I waited for him to take off and when he did I was right behind him.
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I was used to vampiric speed and all, but Edward was faster than normal for vampires. It took all of my effort to keep up with him. Eventually we ran up next to a smaller vampire, Alice. We nodded as we ran back to the Cullen's residence.
We arrived at the house from the back. We crossed the same stream then slowed down as we approached the two story house. The last time I was here I never really got to look at it, but now I realized how quant it looked. I liked it now that I actually got to look at it.
I followed Edward and his sister inside the house. His larger brother, Emmett, was sitting on the couch with his mate Rose. "You brought her back?" Rose sneered. I shrunk back a bit, but for once had no one behind me to back me up.
"We thought Carlisle would want to see her." Edward replied. Edward walked right past his siblings and up the stairs, to where I presume Carlisle's study was. When we reached the landing Edward pointed to a door before entering another.
I knocked quietly and nearly jumped when I heard a "come in". I pushed the door open just enough so I could slip in. The door closed behind me, but I didn't move from it.
"I see you're moving around now." Carlisle said.
"I am." I replied.
"And how are you doing on your own? Your eyes are still lightening up."
"I've restrained from all humans. My… count is still zero." I replied. "I even saw my mother and didn't feed off of her."
"Really? So soon?" Carlisle asked.
"I ate so much before the meeting though. I thought I was going to burst." I replied with a slight smile. I relaxed and moved farther into the room. Carlisle signaled for me to sit down in one of the chairs before his desk.
"How are you faring though? You've had so many emotions run through you lately."
"I would say the opposite actually. I felt nothing most of the days back in Denali. After my mother though, everything came rushing back. I must say, it's a pain not being able to cry." Carlisle laughed and nodded. "I miss him though, so much. I still can't believe I'm standing here before you. You're the first I'll admit it to, but I wanted to be burned those days after James left. I didn't feel like I could go on."
"Broken hearts often make us feel like that." Carlisle said. "What are your plans now?"
"I'm not sure. I was planning on traveling through most of the national parks. I feel the most harmony when I'm among the trees. Plus it will be easy to remain separate from the humans."
"This is true. It's a smart idea." Carlisle said with a nod. "Do you have a phone?"
"Yes, Tanya got both James and I one." I held up the sleak silver phone. Carlisle motioned for it and I handed it to him.
"I've added my number, along with Edward's and Alice's. If you ever need any of us, don't hesitate to call." Carlisle said.
"Thank you." I said with a smile.
"I think I should get going. I haven't been to Yellowstone before and I can't wait to see it." I said with a grin. Carlisle smiled and nodded. "Could you tell Edward that I'm sorry I couldn't challenge Emmett?"
"Of course, I'm surprised he even asked." Carlisle said with a laugh. I smiled and nodded my head goodbye before slipping back outside the door.
As I was about to walk back down the stairs I heard music coming from Edward's room. It was beautiful full of emotions. I could instantly tell it as for Bella. I knocked, causing the music to stop. When I heard him grant me access I creaked open the door. I didn't feel comfortable entering the actual room so I just stood in the doorway.
"Yes?" Edward asked expectantly. He looked at me from over his shoulder.
"Bella's lucky to have you. Don't hurt her. Don't make her feel what I'm feeling now." I said quietly. Before Edward could say anything I backed out of the room and walked down the steps.
"Hey, um… Cerys!" Emmett called as I was about to leave through the back doors. I stopped and turned around. "You're a newborn right? I mean the last time we saw you, you were human and all."
"I was turned just under two weeks ago." I replied.
"Really? That young?" Emmett asked. He got an evil grin on his face. "You want to wrestle?" Rose immediately hit him over the head and the action mad me smile.
"Sorry, but I don't wrestle." I replied.
"What about arm wrestle?" Emmett asked.
"Why are you so eager?" I returned the question.
"Edward and Jasper bet me I couldn't take on a newborn." Emmett replied.
"I think I have time for one." I replied turning around.
"Yes! Jasper get your ass down here!" Emmett bellowed. Edward was already walking down while Alice appeared with a blonde vampire a few seconds later. Carlisle and his wife, Esme, appeared a few seconds after the last of their children.
"I thought you weren't going to indulge the boys?" Carlisle said.
"He was so eager though." I replied with a smile. Jasper carried in a table and everyone made room for it. We leaned down on either side, our hands gripping our opponents.
"Are you guys ready to see what you've doubted for so long?" Emmett asked. The guys just rolled their eyes and I thought I heard Alice giggle.
"Alright, ready?" Jasper asked. We both nodded. "Go!" Emmett immediately started pushing. My arm fell back a little, but then I started to apply my own strength. Our fists wavered for a bit. If we had been human, our fists would have been crushed by now. Soon our arms were moving in the opposite direction. Emmett was able to stop my progress for a bit, but I just applied more strength and pressure and I pounded his hand into the table.
"One more time!" Emmett grumbled.
"Sorry, but I need to go." I replied. I said goodbye to everyone before slipping out the back glass doors. Before I got out of hearing range I heard a few comments.
"Don't worry Emmett, you can just wait for Bella." Alice said with a giggle.
"No he won't." Edward replied.
"You can't fight it forever!" Alice replied. Edward just growled. They were so much a family. Everyone loved each other like a family, even squabbled like a family. I had to wonder if I had stayed with Tanya, if we would have ever become like that. The love between the mates though, I think that's what made me really want to get out. I couldn't bare being around something that I knew too well, but no longer