Changing
As agreed Jack and Jessica visited Aaron straight after school. When they reached the room Jack ran in again. He smiled to see his dad sitting up with Emily holding his baby sister.
"Dad, how are you feeling today?" he asked.
"A little better thanks, buddy," he smiled back.
"When will you be home?"
"In a few days, buddy. You having fun with Auntie Jessica?"
He nodded then added, "But I miss you."
"I miss you too but I'll be home soon."
He smiled back at him. Aaron then smiled up at his son's aunt.
"I've got you a fresh pair of clothes," Jessica smiled at him.
"Thanks Jess," he smiled back. "Just leave them on the side."
She nodded and did so. She'd picked up some trousers and a shirt he'd be able to change into easily. They had to make sure it was easy for him to change into so his stitches wouldn't be affected. She knew Emily would help him change.
After they left Emily got him out of his shirt and put it to one side. She helped him into the clean shirt Jessica had brought along being careful of the stitches on his stomach.
She was about to take off his trousers when he shouted, "No, I'll do it myself."
"Aaron, if you do it yourself you could end up pulling your stitches," she answered.
"Emily, please," he answered trying not to show how vulnerable he felt. The moment she'd tried to take off his trousers he'd been reminded of how his captor had sexually violated him. "Please. Emily, let me do it on my own."
"Aaron, if you do it on your own you'll pull the stitches."
"Then just leave them, please."
She looked up and could see how distressed he was so sat back down. She took his hand and rubbed circles into it with her thumb calming him down.
"What happened?" she asked gently.
"Please don't ask me," he answered looking away.
She decided she wouldn't push him. He'd come to her in his own time. She just hoped it was soon. Had she raped him? Had she sexually violated him? If she had she'd kill her all over again.
She carried on rubbing circles into his skin assuring him she was still here. No matter what had happened she wasn't going to leave him. Her love for him would never change.
Later on he turned back and said guiltily, "Emily, I'm sorry."
"Aaron, it's alright. You've been through a lot and I'm here for you," she answered gently.
"You can change my trousers but please don't touch my boxers."
"If you don't want me to I won't."
"Thank you."
"Anything for you, my love."
He smiled back slightly.
She proceeded to change his trousers being careful not to pull his stitches or touch his boxers. She was pretty sure now his attacker her done something to his privates. She was just glad there was nothing physically wrong with them.
He smiled slightly at her when she'd finished as he felt a little better in the new clothes. He was just unsure anything would rub out this dirty and ashamed feeling. He'd let her sexually violate him.
Could he ever admit everything that happened to Emily? Would she still love him if she knew he'd been sexually violated? He was dirty. He was broken. He didn't deserve her.