Chapter 5

One year later

Edwards Point of view

For the first time in 100 years I was a little bit excited. Well, or better, I felt something different than agony. We would move to Forks again the following day. There I could go to all the places I used to be with Bella, and I could perhaps smell her smell in her house. Well, at first I needed to find her house, would she even have stayed in Forks after I left her? Would she have been happily married? Were there any children? Well, those entire questions crossed my mind the last century, and now I would finally get some answers. My last answers I would ever get, actually. When I made the decision to leave Bella, I also made the decision to end my life after she died. I couldn't stand living in a world without her. Of course it made no difference because I wasn't able to see her but it was a good feeling to know she was still living. But after a hundred years she definitely must be dead. So I was looking forward our move to Forks. I could remember her a last time and than I could hopefully be together with her again, in heaven or wherever I'll go.

Of course did Alice know about my plans, but she also knew that I wouldn't chance them and to protect the family she never said something to them. Well, of course does she try to convince me not to do it. Till now, without a result. At some times, I also asked her to look in Bella's future. But she couldn't see anything. We didn't know why but we thought that it could be because we didn't see her for so long. That we couldn't see Bellas future was really annoying to me, and several times I was about to go and see her, just to be sure that she was save. But I knew that I couldn't leave her once more, and than everything was meaningless. All the time alone, the time living like an animal, would have been meaningless. So I forced myself to trust in Bella and the promise she gave me, that she wouldn't hurt herself in any way. But soon I would know what happened to her, I could see that my decision was the right one, and even If I lived in agony, she was happy after all, and that was all that counted. At least I hoped that she was happy.

When I was ready packing my things I went downstairs to see if the family was ready. Of course Emmet and Jasper were already done, and even Esme was ready, but Rose, Alice and Carlile were still packing. This annoyed me, I wanted to go to Forks as soon as possible.

Woooo, dude calm down a bit, you waited a hundred years, now you can still wait until Alice got all her clothes packed. Jasper thought. Of course he was right but I was still very excited.

At least there is again some feeling in him, Emmet.

Oh, I really really hope that Bellas life turned out to be happy, perhaps he can become than happy again as well. Esme, always Esme, she was so lovely and she always cared about my feelings, at this times I'm really remorseful of my decision to end my life. But it wasn't a life anymore without Bella.

"Well, a century can be as short as a minute, and a minute can appear like a century. It just depends on the situation."

Still, the thoughtful Edward, just like before Bella showed up, but the Edward with Bella was still the best. He was so lively, he had so much energy. I hope he can turn to that again.

"You can forget about that Emmet, I will never be as happy as in the time with Bella, not even close. So you have to accept this one or not." And with that I hurried upstairs to help Carlile to pack his things. Of course I knew I was overreacting. But hearing Bellas name in all those thoughts, see how they remember her, and see how happy I was with her was just too painful. But they know that I don't mean it like that, but it must still be a very hard time for them to live with me. Because of that I was also some time away from them. I was going to chase Victoria, and caught her a couple of years afterwards. And than I lived some years in the wilderness, in Africa, on the north pole, nearly every place I could live. I visited some friends from Carlile, but I can't remember any important things. Most of the time I lived like an animal and I was happy with that because I needn't to think that much, the thoughts of Bella are still very painful.

After a couple hours, everyone was finished. So we got to the airport and flight to Forks. When we got out of the plan I was really excited.

I can't understand why he is so excited, I mean Bella isn't alive anymore, and I thought he would be over her by now. Of course does Rosalie not understand why I'm excited, she never understood what I liked on Bella. But I got used to her thoughts and so they don't bother me anymore, she went somehow neutral to me.

When we got to our house, the first thing I saw was my piano. We left it here when we left Forks. There were too many memories of Bella. And I did never play again, which really bothered Esme because she loved my playing. Now I went to the piano, I wanted to remember Bella the best way, and I thought when I would play again she would come back in some way. First I had to tune the piano, and than I sat down. It took me several minutes, very long for a vampire. Than I started Esmes favorite, at least that could I do for her. When the first notes sounded everyone listened.

Great, he is turning back to normal. Emmet, always the optimistic one. That even brought a smile to my face, even if it is a half-assed smile, I never smiled truly again after I left Bella.

Esme was right next to me when I started playing, she laid her hand on my shoulder to encourage me. But after I finished her song, I couldn't bring myself to play Bellas lullaby.

"You have all time in the world darling, you will be able to play it again anytime soon." Than she gave me a kiss on the cheek and left to arrange the house.

Edward? Can you come for a second? It was Carlile, so I went upstairs to see what he want.
"Edward, could you please go and see the wolves? I thing we need to redo the threaty if there are still wolves, perhaps they don't even remember us. I would do it by myself but I need to go to the hospital today."

"Yes, of course. I'll be back in a minute."