Chapter 7
Bella's point of view

A soon as Edward left, I hurried upstairs to pack my things. I was so confused that I didn't even realise that Antoine was in the room.
"What was that? Are you crazy to send him away?" he shouted at me.
"What do you know? He left me heart broken and I needed more than a hundred years to live normal again, and I'm still not over him."
"Well, than talk to him, every word he said was true. And I think he has still feelings about you."
"Yes, I think that too, but he has just feelings of guilt. He has always been like that. But I don't need that. If I spend more time with him I will fall back into the hole I barely got out. So would you please accept my decision to move? I know we just got here and we wanted to settle down but please, please." I couldn't stand it anymore, I needed to go away, of course I knew that he was somewhere in the world but I wasn't prepared to actually meet him. That was too much. The hole I had for so long in my body was still there, but it was very small, and now it was about to break open totally.
"Ok, Bells, but I really think you do wrong, but if you decide like that I'm behind you, you know that?" I was so thankful that he was so patient with me, I really didn't deserve him.
"Thank you so much, of course you can stay here when you want to."
"Don't be silly, I follow you wherever you'll go." Than he kissed me on the forehead and went to his room to pack his things. And so did I. I wouldn't need much time and we really could get the flight today. I turned around to get my things out of the closet, when I turned round again. Than I saw a pixie-like face looking curios at me.
"What do you think you're doing?"
I was really confused. I was even too confused to think straight. "I I I don't know, pack my things?"
"Oh, no you won't." And than she jumped into me and through me to the ground. She gave me a huge hug. Better to say a dozen hugs. And she kissed my hole face.
"Oh I missed you soooo soooo sooooooooooooo much. Oh Bella, Bella, Bella, my Bella. You look so beautiful as a Vampire, of course you was also pretty as a human, but now, wow, really. Oh I love you I love you I love you."
"Oh Alice I missed you too. But could you now please release me, I know I needed to breath but still." I really missed her, but I can't let her come too close to me, it would make me just hurt.
"Oh of course Bells. I'm just so excited, everyone is excited. Of course they all wanted to come, but I thought it would be less overwhelming for you when it was me at first. But now you definitely need to come to the house. Even they will storm yours."
"Oh Alice, I can't do this, we need to move now and we want to get the flight today."
"Didn't I say you won't move? Well not that I cold see your future but you definitely won't. By the way, why can't I look into your future?"
"I think that's because of my shield. It was already very strong as a human and now it's stronger, I think that's the reason."
"Oh…ok well than I have to get used to it. And who is the other Vampire?"
Right at that word Antoine came into the room.
"Hey, I heard somebody was asking for me? Hello, I'm Antoine."
"Hey I'm Alice. The very best friend of Bella and her sister. Nice to meet you, I'm sure we'll be great friends as well, not that I could see your future as well. What is this, I hate to be blind."
"Oh I think I'm still covering him with my shield, would you bother Antoine when I take it back?"
"No, no, do what you want to. When I remember right you can see into futures right? I'm really curios. Try it please."
And than I took my shield back even if I not really liked it, but if he wanted to. Than Alice concentrated on his future and I saw that she saw something. And it was nothing good.
"What did you see?"
"Oh, nothing in detail, it was very blurry, I'll try later, probably it will be clearer than."
"Alice I told you there won't be a later, we'll leaving and there is no way that I will stay."
"But Bella," Antoine said to me, "I really want to meet this family, you told me a lot about them and Alice seems to be very nice." And he looked at me very precatory , and I couldn't resist this look. I own him so much, his family died because of me and he became a Vampire because of me, so I could give him this.
"Ok ok, you both won. We'll go, but not that long ok?"
"It's fine, so we have enough time to convince you. Juhuuu!!!!" Alice was so excited, and I got even a little bit excited too, I really wanted to see all of them.
"Than let's go."
We went out of the window and ran towards the house. I never came to the house on this way, but I exactly know where to go. When we reached the house a lot of old memories crossed my mind, the first time I met the family, the first time I came into his room, and my birthday. It was very overwhelming but now it was too late to go back, I needed to face it.
When we got into the house, everyone was sitting in the living room. Immediately Emmet came to me and gave me a huge hug. "Oh, I missed you little sister!" Than Esem came to gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek. "Darling, we really missed you, and we're so sorry that you needed to went through this without us." "It wasn't bad, Esme, don't worry." Than Carlile came to me, he also hugged me and said, "Hello Bella, welcome back to the family, I really hope you will join us again." "I don't really know Carlile, of am I happy to see you again but I think I need time." "Of course, we all understand this." Than Jasper came to me and hugged me tightly, which surprised me because we never came really close because when I was still a human he needed to fear to kill me. But now it was like we were really old friends. "Oh Bella, you got really missed by the family. It was always as if something was missing. And you can't imagine how Alice was like when we left." "Thank you" I simply said, I didn't think I took a very big place in the family. But that meant a lot to me. The last one was Rosalie, she never liked me very much and I don't think that changed, so I was very surprised when I saw her reaction. She came to me and kissed me on the cheek and said, "Oh Bella, it's really nice to see you, now everything will be back to normal and we can be happy again." I think this reaction was coursed by the reaction of the others when their left me, she just wanted to have fun with them and she couldn't if their sad because of me. But I was still thankful that she somehow accepted me.
"Thank you all, I really appreciate your nice words. Oh and this is Antoine, I'm travelling with him for the past 50 years. Antoine this is Alice as you already know, That's Emmet, Jasper, Rosalie, Carlile and Esme."
"Hello everyone, I'm Antoine. Nice to meet you all. I really heard a lot of you guys."
There was a strange silence than, even that Carlile was talking to Antojne because he asked him about his special ability and now he had a new test object. That made me smile, I really missed them. Than Emmet broke the silence, "So Bells, what did you do to the poor Eddi? He was really messed up when he came here." Alice answered for me, "oh well I think he thought that Antoine is Bellas partner and I also think that she didn't want to see him and made him go, so he is just down, but he'll come back." I didn't understand her, why should he be upset when Antoine would be my partner? I thought he was upset because I didn't want to talk to and because I was a Vampire. I thought he wouldn't want me to be a Vampire because he would be bothered by me. I couldn't understand her.
"What do you mean Alice, why should he be upset when Antoine would be my partner?"
Than everyone started to laugh, I really didn't understand them. Esme started to explain because I must really look strange. "Oh dear, why do you think did Edward left?"
I knew exactly why he left me, why does she want me to live through this again?But I wanted to know why they laughed.
"Well, I think because he was bored of me, and he wanted to do something different without me and because he didn't love me." It was very hard to say this, even that I know that is was the truth.
"Still the old Bella, gets everything wrong." Said Emmet, what does he mean? But than Alice explained it to me.
"Bella, listen, this is important right now. I think he should explain it to you by himself, but you won't talk to him when you're so wrong. I just say that he didn't love you because he didn't love you any more. Please go to him and talk to him. Pretty please." I couldn't believe her, I was too confused. So I looked to Antoine to know if she said the truth. And he just nodded to me. So Alice said the truth, but was it just something she thought or does he think that too? I wouldn't find out without asking him. But do I want to find out, what if it is just another disappointment, I couldn't handle one more.
"Bella, really, go find him and talk to him." Encouraged me Emmet. And all the other did the same. Should I really? I was still unsure when Antoine talked to me. "Bells, I think you should really go, after I met him today I don't think that this were his intentions. I think you should go. You deserve to be happy again, a hundred years are enough, go!" I looked into his eyes and was sure to try at least, it did also own this to him, I wasn't really amusing to him. "Ok I'll go. But I don't know where he is."
Emmet answered, "Oh Bells, you're a vampire, you can smell him."
So I went out of the room and went into the forest. I was going very slowly. I needed the time. I found his smell very fast and I knew immediately where he went, he went to our meadow. When I finally got there he was sitting directly in the middle of the place.