SANTANA'S POV
I slowly awake from sleeping and try to move, and when I do I feel something pull me closer. I smile to myself, remembering the events from last night and knowing that Dani was still in my bed. I turn over to face her, trying not to disturb her sleep. As soon as I am facing her, her eyes flutter open.
"Mmm. Hey." She says with a tired smile. She moves her head forward to meet her lips with mine.
"Good morning." I smile back at her. "How'd you sleep?"
She lets go of my body and stretches her arms over her head, letting the blanket drop. I can't help but stare at her. She is so beautiful. "Really well." She yawns out looking over at me, catching me staring. "See something you like?" She teases, wrapping her arms around me.
I lean down and place a chaste kiss on her lips, "Always."
"So last night was amazing." She says beaming from ear to ear.
I chuckle a little and smile, "It certainly was."
"I'm glad we got that out of the way, now I won't have to try and hold myself back any longer." She laughs. I giggle and start tickling her sides, wanting to hear more of her contagious laughter.
After a few more minutes of enjoying small kisses we make our way out into the kitchen where I immediately start a pot of coffee.
"So what do you have planned during your break from school?" Dani asks, wrapping her arms around my waist from behind, placing a kiss on my shoulder.
I turn in her arms and place a kiss on her forehead. "I have plenty of dates with Netflix and my bed and/or couch. I am taking this time to just relax. What about you, babe? What are your plans for the holiday?" I was kind of nervous to ask her, because I was not sure where she would be, or if she had people that she spent the holidays with.
"Well, I plan on going back to LA to spend some time with my close friends and my uncle who lives out there." I was a little sad, but tried not to show it. I was secretly hoping that we would get to spend some time together for the holidays.
"When do you plan on going?" I ask.
"Don't know yet." She absentmindedly shrugs off my question. She lets go of me and walks toward the fridge. "What do you want for breakfast?" She asks, peeking around the door.
"Whatever you feel like making." I reply, walking out of the kitchen and plopping myself in front of the TV.
I wish that Dani was staying here for the holidays. I hate this time of year, especially being alone. I can't go home this year because my parents will be out of town visiting family, and besides, I don't like going back to Lima anyways. Too many bad memories.
I am brought out of my thoughts when Dani comes over handing me a bowl of oatmeal and sitting down next to me with her own bowl.
"You okay, baby? You look like you're staring off into space." She questions, taking a bite of her oatmeal.
"Yeah, Dani. I'm fine." I look at her with a forced smile.
"Okay." She says, "What do you want to watch? I've got nothing to do today, so I am all yours."
"Whatever is fine, I don't care." I say twirling my oatmeal around in the bowl.
Once I see that Dani is done, I take her bowl, and my half eaten one into the kitchen to clean up. I glance over to the living room and see Dani lying down on the couch. She looks up and sees me watching her. She gives me a little wave and blows me a kiss. This would make my heart melt, if I wasn't so side tracked with my thoughts. I finish cleaning the kitchen and walk past Dani in the living room.
"I'm gonna jump in the shower." I say, walking quickly past her. Once in the bathroom I turn the water on and begin stripping. Just as I am about to get in I see the door open and Dani peeking her head in.
"Do you have room for one more?" She asks, shyly.
I let my feelings from before falter and smile at her motioning for her to come in. I pull her into my naked body and give her a lingering kiss on her full lips. I let my hands wander down to the hem of her shirt and pull it up over her head, exposing her bare chest. She quickly pulls off her pants and kicks them to the side. She brings her hand to the back of my head, looking me directly in the eyes. She parts her lips and pulls my head to hers placing a sensual kiss on my lips. I respond back by moving my lips against hers, just savoring the feeling. We slowly pull apart and I grab Dani's hand and pull us both into the shower.
The warm water feels great against my skin as I stand there and let it run over my body. I open my eyes and see Dani starting at me.
"Can I help you?" I shoot a smirk in her direction.
"Nope, just admiring." She says and she turns around to grab the soap. She steps forward in the shower and gets her hands wet while rubbing the soap, successfully creating suds. She brings her hand over to my chest and begins to lather my body. She rubs her hands sensually over my chest and up to my collarbones, and then down my arms. Dani gets more soap and crouches down to run her hands up my legs, when she gets dangerously close to more core my breath hitches, she slowly moves her hands back to my ass and grabs it, firmly. She stands back up.
"Turn around." She says, lightly kissing my lips. I follow her command and turn around as she rakes her hands over my back, massaging it with soap. Once she is finished, I rinse myself off under the showerhead.
I like that we can just be like this together, without there having to be something sexual about it. Don't get me wrong, I am clearly aroused by her touch. We both make quick work of washing out hair and I step out of the shower. As I am drying off Dani comes out of the shower and moves toward me, wrapping her arms around my torso. I give her a quick kiss and finish drying off, sauntering into my room to get ready for the day. Dani changes back into her clothes from last night.
"Baby, I'm gonna go home and change out of these clothes. If you want to come over whenever you are done, you can." She says hopefully.
"Yeah, sure. I'm going to do some stuff around here first. But maybe I'll be over later." I say.
"Okay. Well I'll leave the door unlocked for you." She slips on her shoes and jacket, then pulls me into a hug and brings her lips to mine.
"See you soon, baby."
She walks out the door and I close it behind her. I let out the heavy sigh I had been holding in. I guess it's a good thing that she will be going away for part of the holiday, because I have to get my applications for law school out. I have a lot of work to do. I go into my bedroom and grab my laptop, and make my way to sit on the couch. I start working on applications for the schools I am applying to. This could take forever.
DANI'S POV
I left Santana's apartment and made my way out to my car. I can't help but feel like something is off about her. After I mentioned the possibility of going home for part of the holiday she seemed bummed out. I didn't want to make her upset by asking her if there was something wrong, so I decided to let it go for the time being.
I finally get back to my apartment and hand the keys to the valet. I make my way up to my apartment. Once inside I head into my bedroom to get a new change of clothes. I settle into my sweatpants and old tank top. I don't plan on going anywhere today.
I make my way into my kitchen and look into the pantry. Seeing a box of cake mix, I pull it out and being making it. I am a total stress baker, and for some reason I feel stressed about this Santana situation. I quickly mix together all the ingredients and put the cake in the oven. I begin to clean the kitchen from top to bottom, again something else I tend to do when I am stressed.
About 40 minutes later, the kitchen is spotless and the cake is cooling on the stove. I let out an aggravated groan and try to think of something to keep myself busy. I decided to head into my music room. I sit at the piano. Before I start playing I shoot Santana a text to see what she is up to.
To Santana: Hey babe. What are you up to?
She responds instantaneously.
From Santana: Working on apps for law school.
To Santana: Can you come over here and work on them? I would like your company.
From Santana: Sure. Let me just finish up the one I'm on. I'll be over soon-ish.
To Santana: :) See you soon baby.
I grab the pencil and paper off the desk and begin to let the words flow out of me. Everything I feel about this moment, and Santana. I begin just scribbling down lyrics. An hour later I am satisfied with the words, and start finding the perfect melody for the song. After a few different progressions, and tempos I finally find the right one. Now it's time to put it all together.
I start out with a soft melody.
Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time
Surely you can take some comfort knowing that you're mine
Just hold me tight, lay by my side
Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time
I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out and smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you would you smother me?
Let me be the one who never leaves you all alone
I hold my breath and lose the feeling that I'm on my own
Hold me too tight, stay by my side
Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time
I look up from the piano and see Santana standing in the doorway with her bag slung over he shoulder just admiring me. I look directly into her eyes as I play the chorus.
I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out and smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you would you smother me?
Santana makes her way over to the bench, sets her bag on the ground and sits down next to me, putting her hand on my thigh.
When I'm alone time goes so slow
I need you here with me
How my mistakes have made your heart break
Still I need you here with me
So, baby I, baby I'm here
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out and smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you would you smother me?
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out and smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you would you smother me?
Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time
Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time
Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time
Let me be the one who calls you baby, the one who calls you baby.
"Dani, that was beautiful." She says giving me a peck on the cheek. I shyly avert my eyes from meeting her gaze. I wasn't entirely read for her to hear that song yet, but I guess she likes it.
"Thanks." I reply standing up from the bench. "How much of it did you hear?" I inquire.
"I only heard the piano when I first walked in, then when you looked at me is when I heard the words." She says.
"Well, I am gonna stay in here and write for a bit more. You are more than welcome to stay in here and do your work, or go wherever you want in the apartment." I say giving her a quick kiss on the lips.
"I think I'll sit in here with you." Santana says, smiling. Clearly her mood has changed from earlier.
Santana brings her bag over to the desk and sets up her computer and papers and begins working. I run out to the kitchen to grab some water for the both of us. I take this time to think about how to approach the subject of the holidays with Santana, and why she doesn't want to go home. I rest my hands on the counter top and lean forward trying to regain my composure to go talk to her.
Apparently I had been out there longer than I thought because I hear Santana in the distance walking toward me.
"Babe?" She says as she approaches the corner by the kitchen. "Oh!" She jumps as she looks at me. "There you are. What's going on?" She says concerned, as she comes closer to me and grabs my hands to entwine our fingers.
"Why were you upset with me earlier?" I just blurt out before I can think about formulating any other words.
Santana quickly lets go of my hands and turns her back to me, "what do you mean?"
"Babe, you know what I mean. You got all weird when I said that I was planning on going to LA for the holidays." I retort.
"It doesn't matter, Dani. Don't worry about it." Santana snaps, and heads back to the music room.
I quickly run after her and grab her wrist turning her around to face me. "Santana, talk to me. What is the matter?" I say firmly.
"Nothing, Dani. I'm going to be alone, in New York for the holidays. Looking forward to it." She snaps back.
"How is that my fault?" I say angrily, "I offered to help you go home for the break."
"My parents wont even be home, Dani. Besides, that's not even the whole fucking reason I don't want to be there." She yells.
"Then fucking tell me, Santana! What the hell." I yell back.
"I don't want to run into my fucking ex. Is that what you want to hear. I still have fucking problems when it comes to her and talking about it. God damn, you just had to fucking push, didn't you." She yells walking away from me and into the bathroom. I hear the door click behind her.
I am so beyond frustrated with her. I walk over to the bathroom and can hear her lightly sobbing. I know that there is no use in trying to convince her to let me in, so I just head back into the music room and sit at the table.
"FUCK." I groan out of frustration.
I begin to write. This has always been the best outlet for me. I pour all of my feelings out through writing songs. I just continue writing. It must have been five minutes before I hear the bathroom door unlock and open. I turn around and see Santana standing in the doorway.
"Dani." She looks up at me with her tear stained eyes and a sad expression. "I'm sorry." She begins crying again. I just stand up and walk over to her, wrapping my arms around her tightly.
"Shhh." I coax, running my fingers through her hair. "It's gonna be okay, baby. I'm here, I got you." I keep soothing her until her sobbing stops and she pulls away.
"I'm sorry." She says as she looks me in the eye. "It's a really sensitive thing for me. Nothing good ever happens from going back to Lima."
I cut her off, "Babe, lets go lay down in my bed. If you want to talk about it more we can, if not we'll just relax. Okay?"
She nods her head, so I grab her hand and lead her into my room.
I sit down and lean up against the headboard, while Santana curls in me, resting her head on my lap.
"I-I want to talk about it." Santana says, breaking the silence. "Or I at least want to tell you a little bit, for now. I don't think I am ready to divulge my whole life story just yet."
"Take your time, babe. Whenever you are ready." I say running my fingers through her hair and leaving down to peck the top of her head.
Santana takes a deep, shaky breath "Well…her name is Brittany."
AN: Thank you everyone for reviewing and following! Sorry for not updating sooner – I've been super busy and have exams coming up in a couple weeks. PLEASE review. Let me know what you think: should I keep going? Suggestions? Anything… Thank you all for your patience!