Disclaimer: I sadly do not own Twilight. If I did I would make Edward love me..*sigh *

Previously:

She looks into my eyes. "Yes, Eddy Bear." Then she gives me a cute innocent smile.

"Are you sure this is what you want?" I whisper again. She looks at me closes her eyes and leans in closer..... closer..... her mouth is a finger width away form mine.

Chapter 10

Bella's POV

Ring! GREAT! Ring!

I move away from Edward and answer the phone. "Hello."

"Oh, hey dad." I mouth sorry to Eddy.

"Yeah, we made it here okay. Sorry I made you worry. When we got here we got to talking and we lost track of time."

"I love you too. I will call you later. Don't worry, everything is going great. Bye dad." Then I hung up the phone.

"What time is it Eddy?"

"Almost 8:30."

"I need to take a shower it has been a long day."

"Okay."

I go into my bedroom, grab my clothes and my toiletries and head into the bathroom. I undress in a blur. I was this close to kissing one of my best friends, who happen to love me. What was I thinking? I wasn't that's just it. I have to live with him. Things could get complicated, then what would I do? I am so lost. I like Edward Cullen? Wow, this has been a long day.

Edward's POV

After the phone interrupted our almost kiss she made a quick escape to the bathroom. What did I do? I love Bella Swan with all of my being.

I go into the kitchen to grab a soda when I heard Bella singing in the shower.

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be I'll be she's beautiful, that girl he talks about And she's got everything that I have to live without Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny That I can't even see anyone when he's with me He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right, I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe? And there he goes, so perfectly, The kind of flawless I wish I could be She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause I sit there and listen to her sing the whole song. I will never be able to listen to Taylor Swift the same again. Then I hear the water turn off so I go back into the living room and wait for her to come back out. Once she comes into the room with me in her old sweats and a T-shirt I can't help but smile, she is so gorgeous. "I wanted to talk to you about earlier" she says in her angelic voice. "I'm sorry about that Bella. I would never want to push you to do something you aren't ready for" I say honestly. "You have nothing to be sorry for. You have been nothing but honest with me. I fell that I owe you the same" she says. "You don't have to explain. And it was my fault. You have had a long day and you are tired. I took advantage of that." "Edward, you could never make me do anything I didn't want to do. I did want to kiss you.... but... it's just..... I'm scared to..... you know. I just love you too much to screw that up" she says looking down. I walk to the love seat she is curled up on and wrap my arms around her. "Bella, don't be scared. We are friends, nothing more if that's what you want. Until you are ready I will be here for you. I don't want you to do anything you aren't ready for." "That's just it Edward" she yelled. In a quieter voice she said "What if I do want it? What if I am ready?" "Are you?" I ask. I don't think she is yet. "No, but I do want you. What about Jake?" "What about him? He said kissing you was like kissing his mom." "I know but I don't think he is over me yet....... I don't see how you or Jake could love me. You both deserve better. You shouldn't settle with me." "Bella" I say looking into her eyes. "You obviously don't see yourself clearly enough. You are beautiful. You have a beautiful soul. Who wouldn't love you?" I look at her and her eyes are tearing up. "Don't cry Bella" I say as a tear slides down her cheek. I use my thumb to wipe away the tear. "I'm sorry Edward. I don't deserve you, one day you will see that." She chokes out. "No, it is me that doesn't deserve you, Bella." "Okay, I'm done crying." She wipes away the tears. "Can we just forget about tonight?" That hurt... a lot. "I will never bring it up again, if that is what you want." I will not forget it though. I just have to show her that it is me that is not worthy of her. She looks at me, hugs me, then says "Good night Eddy Bear." "Good night Beautiful Bella." She smiles and blushes at me. Then she goes into her room and shuts her door. I follow suit and do the same. I am careful not to turn on the light for Jake. I slip off my pants and shirt and go to bed in my boxers. Bella's POV I dream that I am in the woods. I look around to see where I am at and see a little boy running towards me. " Mama! Mama!" I hear him yell. I look around and see that I am the only one here. Where is his mom? He runs up to me grabs my hand and pulls me through the woods to a meadow. I see Jake there. "Dad, I found her" he calls to him. "There you are Bella." He says while picks up the little boy. He pulls me into a hug. "What?" I say. Then I am back in the same spot I was in the beginning. I look for Jake and don't see him. "Where's Jake?" I say. Then I see Edward, I walk towards him. "Eddy. Where are we?" I ask. "In the woods." He answers. I look where he is looking and see a little girl. She is pale with bronze hair. "Isn't she amazing" he asks. "Edward, who is she" I ask. "Have you hit your head or something?" he asks laughing. "It's our daughter." I look into Edwards eyes and say "I love you Eddy Bear" and start tearing up. Edward's POV I wake to hearing Bella. I walk into her room and hear her talking in her sleep. "What?............ Where's Jake?......... Eddy, where are we?......... Edward, who is she?......." What is she dreaming? I stay quiet debating on waking her. Then she says "I love you, Eddy Bear." My heart skipped a beat. I go to her bed and look at her and see she is crying. I scoop her into my arms and she starts to wake. "Shh Bella.... It was only a dream. Don't cry" I soothe. I rock her back and forth until she falls back to sleep. Once I was positive she wouldn't wake I laid her back into her bed. I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep so I sat in the chair in the corner of her room. One thing I know for sure is that Bella does love me. Even if it is only subconsciously, she loves me. I sat in the chair until I saw the sun rising. I moved form her chair and went into my bedroom and grabbed some clothes and took a shower. After I was clean and clothed I picked up the apartment. I looked at the clock, 8 o'clock. I decided to make breakfast for everyone. Jacob's POV I woke up to the smell of bacon. I walked into the kitchen and saw that Ed was cooking. "Smells good man." "Thanks. Bella told me that you work out a lot." Edward said. "Yeah, life's hard when your only friend in the state is a girl." I said. "Well, there is a gym in this complex. It's paid for in the rent. There is a pool too." "Cool. Maybe we can check it out later?" I say. At least I can get away from the loving couple there. That seemed like a good spot to leave it at for now. Please review! I love them and it will make me put the next chapter out sooner!!