they're not mine...

UCLA hospital

Eric had gone to visit Nadia. He was missing her so much, her smile, her laugh, he only wanted to hear her voice again. Every time he was coming to see her he was regretting that he never told her how much he loved her. That he was in love with her and she was the first woman that had possessed his heart, still possessing and forever.

"I'm so sorry Nadia. I am just an idiot. I should have told you before." he whispered while a tear run down his cheek "You have to wake up honey cause I'm lost without you." He stopped to still him self as better he could and then he continued "You are going to become an aunt in seven months and I already have bet with Syd that you will be the best auntie in the world. Your sister needs you, all of us need you and want you back"

"You have to learn who your daddy is Nad. Jack is. You couldn't imagine how happy he was. When Syd told me I was really happy too. You're very lucky to have him as your father even when he gives you his warning or death glare. Well certainly you have the best parents ever. Both are so willing to give their life to protect both you and Sydney. Except that they are the best spies and you could never hide from them, that is a disadvantage. Daughter of Jack Bristow director of APO and Irina Derevko The Man. I could say that you r family is strange but also awesome. "

Then his mobile rang, it was Michael "Hey Michael" when the conversation was over he got up from the chair and bent to kiss Nadia on the forehead.

"Wake up sweetheart" when he was standing at the door he added "I love you Naddy" and closed the door behind him.

Flashback (Jack's POV)

We are walking along the street of the infected city. Irina and I are behind the others not daring to talk, not knowing how to begin, just waiting for the other to start. I wanted to tell her since the time I saw her walking out of the jungle how much I love her, how much I missed her and how much I still regret the things I've done to hurt her. However the urge is bigger now because I don't know if we will survive tonight. As we are continue our way I look at her from the corner of my eye and I am thinking of how beautiful she is even now after only some hours from her rescue in Guatemala. After so many months of captivity and torture from her own sister she still has her strength, her spirit. Damn you Irina, if this is going to be our last day on earth, if tomorrow never comes I want you to know, I want you to tell you how much I love you. I wonna cry out that I'm gonna love you until the day I die, till my last breath. I wonna hold you in my arms and never let you leave. But no I can't do that, not right now cause this is my weakness and if you hurt me again I won't be able to stand again.

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Then Jack is on the phone talking to Weiss…

End of flashback

Irina's apartment

The man that was standing inside her apartment was the last Irina was waiting. Not only because her location was supposed to be unknown but also she didn't expect him to try to find her. She was so shocked that she didn't realize when he had cross the living room and was standing in front of her just in the right distance to have her heart beat faster and her breathing to be heavier.

While she was standing still frozen in the open door he took the opportunity and whispered in her ear

"Mrs.Derevko I think you're quiet late from your walk" and then without any warning he was kissing her.

She was caught off guard again. At the beginning he was the only kissing but when she returned back with the same passion it was like the lights went out and the world forgot to turn around. Finally after a few they broke apart breathless.

"Miss me director Bristow?" she asked almost audible and dragged him in the sofa and sat next to him with her head resting in his shoulder. He placed one hand in her cheek and the other around her bringing her closer to him.

"You're the beat of my heart" they kissed again, it was a searing kiss and after they broke., her head took its previously position. When his breath was steady he continue "Irina I am tired of living in a lie, I still crash at the thought of loosing you again, I…I love you with all my heart and I… can't live another day… without you, not anymore…I've said it all now" he finished and then he sensed water in his shirt.

He lifted her chin and saw the tears she had in her eyes and down to her cheeks. It was the second time he had seen the great Irina Derevko crying, the first was when he had told her about Sydney's supposed death.

As when they were married he couldn't stand watching her crying, it was the same thing now. He gently caressed her face and brushed her tears away with his thumbs.

"Sss, sweetheart don't…"but he couldn't finish, Irina had put a finger to his lips and then had hugged him tightly. So much that he had a problem to breath.

"Your intentions aren't to choke, are they? he said trying to sound a little funny to light up her mood.

But I didn't work. Indeed he saw new tears running down her face.

"Jack, I have to tell you something….I….am keeping this..secret for over three years now…I…we…."

But before she was able to tell him what she wanted the door opened and a little boy entered the apartment following by an elderly couple……..