+*He is my Master*+
By: As usual: Suika-Chan
A/N: it has been about probably 3 months ne? I'm so lazy; this week will be our foundation day so I'm so busy and tired because of the dances. (I don't even know how to dance so when we need to sway I can't do that anymore.) Ask Annaoj… she likes doing that!!! Peace! I definitely suck. I'm updating now!! Ok? Reviews as usual!
By the way oj, Erwin's gonna buy me twilight! Just kidding! XD I hate twilight… because of what you did to me! Such a meanie.
And I'm attending advance math classes, which makes my head hurt so badly.
After that I saw my crush—with another girl for God's sake. It's a good thing P****'s there! I poured all my anger towards him!
Special mentions:
Kiwi! LOL, check this one out ok?
KMAC08! Kai-nee is Danica, synterfaust? Yeah, she's my nee-chan.
Uke-sensei! Mou, I didn't give you reviews but I noticed one thing in your fics, Mikan is always a boy or something like that. Maybe you're a boy!
Let it start!
This chapter is Mikan's POV only.
Order 10: hot parfaits and cold soups
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One more flash of that pervert's face and I am sure that I'll burst in anger, and I mean it…
"Is that enough to thank you?" he asked dryly.
Finally I threw my covers high up in the air and screamed at the top of my lungs, how could that damned pervert say that? It's as if he doesn't care at all…
'Idiot of course he doesn't, you don't mean anything to him.'
Great, even my own mind doesn't agree with me. I released a soft sigh, and then pushed my hair out of my face, I haven't slept-yet, and I look so haggard. I look like an idiot. I'm so miserable, just because of that kiss, that stupid kiss.
Its not that I expect him to really mean that and-well, commit himself to me as my boyfriend. Oh crap, I'm even thinking about that! Seriously, am I obsessed with that jerk?
The kiss meant a lot to me…
And I'm silently hoping that it also meant something to him…
Shit I'm hopeless…
I'm desperate…
And I need a bath, I seriously need one. To clear my mind.
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Watching sakura petals float around me I sighed for the umpteenth time. I couldn't take Hyuuga's face out of my mind and our kiss-like hell, what's happening to me? I'm silently wondering, I'm silently hoping that I'll forget, that I won't remember. I have never fallen in love, I have never experienced to be loved, for me love is one stupid four letter word that's always said to girls but never meant, Love is just a feeling that'll ebb away after a few moments, Love is something that can break you, it's one's person's weakness.
If you love someone, you will become weak; the people you want to protect will be the one's who'll pull you into the darkness. And afterwards nobody would care. Nobody would mind.
People become weak when they love, people become defenseless when people can threat them. But if you only give yourself love-and you only love nobody else-nobody can stop you. Hyuuga is just some stupid playboy who flirts with everybody then kisses you afterwards, then after he forgets—he breaks—he doesn't care. He wouldn't care.
So what am I feeling? You've got to be kidding me if you're gonna tell me its love. I won't accept that conclusion.
Never.
"Mikan!" a shrill voice filled my ears; I reopened my eyes and saw Anna, my beautiful Anna. I smiled a weak one and noticed her pout, I almost laughed, I never saw Anna like this.
"Yeah?" I managed to voice out.
"You've just skipped several classes," she pointed out, I raised my eyebrows.
"I just missed Algebra, no big deal." At this time I saw her glare, I returned it back without efforts at all, "I really need to have some peace Anna. I'm thinking about a lot of things at the moment-"
"Like?" she snapped irritably at me, "tell me I'm your best friend!"
"I know, that's why I don't want to tell you."
She gave me a look of confusion then I stood up and left. Leaving Anna's confused behind.
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Yumi loves Anna, Tsubasa loves Misaki, and Nogi likes Imai — wait a second, that's not right. Not right at all. How about Hyuuga? Who does he like? Maybe that Luna bitch—maybe his previous girlfriends maybe—
Yeah, lots and lots of damned maybes that will never end. Why am I even thinking about their love lives, As if something god will happen if I go deep into their lives?
The sound of a ball bouncing made me look around, I have walked for so long and I just realized that I'm near the Basketball court of the Higher Gakuen, who could be playing at this time anyways? My feet dragged me towards the court, clearly ignoring my mind's protests and there I saw Yumi… Yumi Kokoro, Anna's shujun, and as I can clearly see, he is busy shooting the ball, wait? What time is it anyways? Almost two in the afternoon; is he trying to get a tan?
"You know, Sakura, if you're gonna stand there the whole day, you wouldn't be able to ask me if I'm trying to get a tan." He grinned from ear to ear then threw the ball at me; I lazily caught it as I walked towards him.
"I'm wondering," I stated, dribbling the ball effortlessly; I saw him walking towards me, his damp black shirt clinging unto his shoulder blades and showing the outline of his chest down to his abs. whoa… He's hot. "Why is it that even I have my nullifying Alice on, you aren't affected at all?"
(A/N: I love Koko, so shut it.)
He shrugged then answered, "I dunno, probably your mind isn't completely blocking me off. Telepathy or something…"
"So are you trying to tell me that we're—" I closed my eyes and try to think, "we're connected or something?"
He chuckled, took the ball out of my hands as I gasped in surprise, "only soul mates are like that, as those whores told me."
"They always say that you are their soul mate?" I scoffed, then aimed to grab the ball but failed miserably, "are they blind?"
"I heard you say a while ago that I'm hot, you're blind." He grinned, I growled at him.
"No fair, you shouldn't butt inside my mind!" he turned around threw the ball into the air and missed the ring, I laughed at him, he sucks.
"I do not." He ran towards the ball as I watched. "You skipped several classes today, Sakura."
I rolled my eyes, "concerned Yumi-san?"
"Anna—" he stopped abruptly and I stared at him.
"I managed to meet her a while ago, I told her to butt off." I stated nonchalantly.
"You told her that?" he feigned surprise, "Natsume's looking for you the whole morning, not really that concerned but—he goes 'where's that damned woman?' 'who's gonna carry my books dammit!'"
"Oh." I answered lamely; he raised his eyebrows and asked me.
"Why expecting more than that? Just because you kissed?" he smirked. I looked at him curiously, "How did I know that? I read minds, my dear Kura."
"Don't call me nicknames! That damned blabber mouth!" I hissed. "Why did you read his mind anyways?"
"For fun, as usual; so, in love with my Natsume?" he mocked all of a sudden.
"You wish asshole." I threw the ball at him with all my strength and it hit him, not as good as Hyuuga in reflexes, I thought.
"I'm warning you about Ruka…" he muttered darkly, "Ruka doesn't like Jochus, especially girls who are in love with his best friend." He took another shot and I stared at him.
"I'll try to… be aware of him. Thanks Yumi." So beware of bunny boy today, I'll try… to survive. Not.
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I seriously didn't take Yumi seriously, as usual I lazily walked around the grounds, ignoring familiar faces who greeted me with worried looks (like hell they care, I thought). And then I stopped in front of Nogi Ruka, the person I'm supposed to be avoiding, cool ocean blue eyes pierced mine as I gulped in fear, Yumi didn't elaborate on what he can do to those girls anyways, and now I'm preparing for the worst. I took one step back as my mind screamed 'run you idiot before a pack of wolves run after you!' and my damned feet followed my mind but failed—miserably. He grabbed hold of my tiny waist and placed me on his broad shoulders. Where the hell is he taking me? He was carrying me off to somewhere but—damn! Where?! He let me down, but my recovery was so slow, I looked up, only to see his blurred image.
Nogi grabbed my wrist quite painfully before I felt myself get slammed against the lockers with the damned locks. I growled in anger and pain before glaring at him squarely, amber eyes flaring in anger.
"What the fuck Nogi?!" I screamed at him.
"What do you mean 'what the fuck,' Sakura?" his voice was so clod that it made my hairs on my skin stand up, this is definitely worst than I thought.
(A/N: Nogi Ruka in this fic will be really, really mean.)
"Well Nogi, for starters, why the hell are you pinning me here by these lockers, do you even know that my back hurts and why the hell are you gripping on my shoulders like you want to make them ground meat?!"
"Well Sakura, I certainly don't give a damn about it—not only because you kissed Natsume it means that I'll be nice to you!"
I huffed angrily, "For your information, it was your best friend who kissed me first! I—I don't even want to kiss him!"
His grip tightened around my shoulders crushing them underneath his fingers, "liar." He hissed, "Every girl wants him, even Imai wants him."
"You're so obsessed with him, why don't you just fuck him and be done with it, bunny boy?" I snapped.
"you think you're so smart Sakura, let me just remind you that you're just a jochu and I'm a shujun, you're lower than any tramp or whore that I've met, and I certainly know that Natsume won't even give a damned shit about you, he doesn't care about your feelings nor about yourself now quit dreaming!"
"Who said that I want his love or care anyways? Look Nogi, I don't care about you, about him or any other persons in your damned world! I don't care if I'm the lowest person in earth! I don't care! But let me just remind you Nogi, if Yuu wasn't there for you since you were 13, you wouldn't be where you are at the moment, if it wasn't because of Yuu, a jochu who is lower than a tramp, you wouldn't reach 10th grade! If it wasn't because of Yuu, you wouldn't be able to do any good in your damned assignments! Yuu is a jochu and Yuu—Yuu's still with you up to now, he doesn't complain—he doesn't—you—you don't understand anything about us, what makes you think that you can just say whatever shit you want to tell us, Nogi?" I took hold of both of his hands and threw them away.
"You don't understand, don't go giving me a sermon that I don't like." And then I left, shoulders sore and eyes brimming with tears, I promised not to cry ever—then why am I crying?
(A/N: Harsh…)
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I've wondered—and up to now I'm still wondering, why—why did Nogi hurt me so much? I heard lots of those harsh words, heard millions of comments, millions of backstabbing words, and millions of hurtful sentences that make my stomach flip and makes my bile go up my throat, but never did I cry, I'm accustomed to all of those, but Nogi—he made me cry, he made me go soak my pillow just because of his shitty sermon.
I want to strangle him and Hyuuga together, probably cut up their throats and kill them until they bleed to death. Never did any Shujun say that to me—I mean not even Hyuuga
Damn that obsessed best friend.
I hastily grabbed my bag and ran towards the door I have exactly 36 minutes left to eat and review-not that I need it of course. Jochus and Shujuns are hanging around as usual, talking about the said exams today, the halls were filled with all those buzzes, making me dizzy-I'm thinking, how am I supposed to treat Hyuuga today, ignore him? I won't stand a chance. Keep quiet? That would make my saliva rot. Or behave as usual? Cheery and carefree? Then he'll think that I'm weird-and maybe Nogi will think that I'm trying to do something funny. Or maybe just smile? Then Yumi might think that I'm really in love with Hyuuga.
'Which is true.'
Fuck up stupid conscience! I don't like him and probably I was just lusting over his gorgeous body, yeah probably. I looked up just in time to see-yes the devil himself, followed by his usual company and of course my so called friends. Anna looked away the moment she saw me which made me shake my head, knowing that she's angry at me for snapping at her. Yumi stared at me after I shook my head, then probably read my mind and then stared at Anna. I noticed too that Nogi miraculously noticed my presence because he let out an irritated growl when I gave him my sweetest smile. And then Hyuuga- he just stared at me coldly before opening the door. I forced a weak smile. I hate him.
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"Mind if I ask you Natsume if you need Mikan this afternoon?" Yumi asked breaking the cold ice around the table and he managed to push my foot down towards the cold water too as I dropped my bacon onto the table. His cool amber eyes were fixed on Hyuuga so-calm and so—nonchalant. What is this guy up to? And on the other side of the ring Hyuuga's crimson eyes were fixed on him too, calm and cold. His face contorted a bit as if he swallowed a flask of hemlock (A/N: go ode to a nightingale!), then gave Yumi one sweet smirk which made the hair on my neck stand up.
"Yes, I do not need her today-eventually after what she just did yesterday. I think that she's worthless at the moment."
Koko gave him a smile back. "Is that so?" I gaped at him and gave him one look 'what are you trying to do asshole?'
'Giving you a time out, what do you expect?'
"Oh please, Yumi don't make me laugh.' I mentally rolled my eyes, 'if you want to talk to me I suggest that you do it now!'
'This is about Anna…'
'And what about her Yumi-san?'
'Do you seriously want to talk about this right now?'
She gave him the most serious look before answering back. 'Don't I look serious enough?' Hotaru noticed the tension between the two of us since we've locked eyes, Kaito followed Hotaru's eyes before growling out loud.
"If the two of you'll be staring at one another for another hour the two of you would melt." He said nonchalantly. I gave him one deep glare, before noticing that Anna was raising her eyebrows at me too. Oh shit. I left Yumi's eyes and stared at her ocean blue ones-'Anna this is not what you think it is we're just—'
"Save it," she said smiling, "I trust you a lot--Mi-chan." Is she mad? She placed a lot of stress in my name!
"So Sakura, Natsume just said that he doesn't need you today; I'll pick you up later then." That mischievous grin, those twinkling eyes there's something wrong for God's sake!
What else can I do anyways? "E-eh? O-Ok then… Yumi-san." My eye twitched really hard.
Fuck you ass hole!
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The most boring subject in the world for me would be geometry—it involves angles, rays, figures, quadrilaterals, triangles and other things that I really don't like seeing everyday of my life, as if I'll need this when I order ice cream or food in a fast food restaurant. The teacher was busy babbling nonsense about the problem on the board, encircling several numbers, pointing at several students then cursing them. Nobody seems to be so interested in the lesson, I yawned loudly, getting the attention of Nogi Ruka once again this day, I rolled my eyes, dropped the pencil before resting my head on my arms.
My eyes were drooping, ever so slowly.
My nose inhaling my own scent,
My mind telling me to sleep,
And my body unconsciously followed.
Moments probably passed, my mind began to stir and I groggily opened up my eyes, moaning in annoyance, there was a sound—bugging me off repeatedly until I realized it was my own phone, I sat up immediately and rummaged through my bag, angrily cursing the tone and my messy bag in turns. I flipped it open, heard Rui's voice which made me frown.
"Need anything?" I managed to ask in a singsong voice. I closed my eyes tried to process what he just said mission—need you—persona—right now. Whoa! Right now?
"What do you mean I have to go right now?" The so-called sensei in geometry gave me the most deadly glare he can give me when I picked my phone up, Hyuuga gallantly stared at me for a while, I soon found out that my voice was a bit too loud and my ring tone was really annoying, considering the fact that it was ringing for quite a time already, thus earning several annoyed looks from the Shujuns.
"What do you mean I have to go right now?" I repeated rather annoyed to Rui, "God damn you Hiirigazawa, if you don't—"
'When I say come just come." Came his reply and with a loud click, the line went dead. Such a nice man, I rolled my eyes and stood up, not caring about the reaction of the people behind me.
"Where are you going?" my Master asked without even bothering to look up, great you really wanna know. Not. Koko glanced at me then I gave him a smile.
"Don't worry," Hyuuga looked up and was about to say something, probably to tell me that he isn't worried, "I won't forget about our little date together Yu-mi." that made his manga drop and his gaze shift towards Yumi, and Yumi stared at me in disbelief, with Anna. Such a lovely sight.
So Yumi, Hyuuga and Nogi wanna play dirty? Let the games begin!
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"Hijiri--what?" I snapped at Rui and Persona; bless him for the moral support. The two of them were behind a mahogany desk staring at me intently, "he's the prime minister's neph--?"
"Son." Persona corrected murderously, "why don't you just read the goddamned details first before asking me all of those crap?" I rolled my eyes and sat myself on the mahogany desk; Rui raised his eyebrows making me smirk in amazement. My eyes lazily scanned the said details son of the prime—10 years old—will study in GA—smart—demanding—ghost calling Alice—olive green eyes—no brothers—relatives—Hyuuga Natsume. Hyuuga Natsume. Hyuuga Natsume.
"Hyuuga Natsume?" I muttered under my breath, "of all the people—"
"Why? Did the two of you fight?" Rui asked nonchalantly, ruffling his hair in the process. His eyes bore deeply into mine but I looked away.
"None of your business, ass hole."
"So what am I supposed to do with this kid?" I threw the black folder down the stared at him, he smirked at me.
"If you want to change the topic, sure why not? I can still read you anyways." He leaned against the chair then smiled, "all you have to do is to accompany him until Christmas—" my eye twitched heavily, Christmas is still two months away. "We'll fetch him in the airport today at exactly 7:00 PM, no buts. You'll be his body guard since assassination threats were given to the prime minister if he doesn't give up his place. As if that would make him go down," he said quietly, "knowing that he's the busiest person alive who doesn't give a damned shit about his own family."
"You're so nosy, even the family of the prime minister—"
"Did I tell you to interrupt? Knowing that you have a date today as every Shujun talked about this morning, I'll be expecting you to finish that date as early as possible."
"As if Yumi and I will stay late inside a café." I snorted, "Maybe you're just jealous."
"Why would I be? Tonichi, Hyuuga, Nogi, Yumi, Andou, and Ao." He counted on his fingers, "all of them are all over you. Why bother add to the list?"
I gave him a smirk, "if you add to the list, I guarantee that you'll be second." With a wink I walked towards the door, "6:30 sharp I'll be there, don't worry."
I bet that I saw him shake his head with a smile on his face, "but you can't touch any of my parts, Ru-i."
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Slow, antagonizing songs played inside the ice cream shop as I—no we entered. Meaning me and Yumi, I gave him the most awful look I can give him as I stepped inside and searched for a vacant seat, then I came to notice that the walls we're painted in a deep brown hue, matching the mahogany floor, tables arranged neatly inside the shop were filled with people, busy eating sugar infested desserts and talking about nonsense; I just noticed that I'm the only Jochu there, based on the way they looked at me and Yumi of course. I looked away trying in vain to find a vacant place, I was about to raise my hand when Yumi grabbed my arm roughly and then dragged me towards a table far from all the people, for me it looked like a private parlor.
"Ready to order Sakura?" his question made me look up from the menu.
"Do I look like I'm ready to order Yumi? As you can clearly see I'm busy poring over the meals here." I snapped irritably, "why here anyways?"
"I just wanted Ice cream," he shrugged, "I wanna cool myself for a while."
I smirked, "why did Hyuuga corner you when I left the room?" I mentally pictured the situation and I smiled at the thought, then I noticed that it was Yumi's own thoughts…
Natsume—look, what's the matter if I'll take her out? It's no biggie right I mean—
"I honestly don't care Koko, I'm just worried that maybe she would jump on you—too."
The nerve of that guy!
Yumi laughed humorlessly, I won't let her Natsume, and she's perfectly not my type.
"Just make sure or else you'll suffer." His crimson eyes narrowed at Yumi, then turned away.
Why don't you just—admit that you're jealous?
Nogi snorted and stared at Koko, "that's not likely to happen Koko. Natsume has high standards. And you know it as much as I know it."
"Sakura's nothing for me, how many times do I have to repeat that today? I can get another Jochu if I want. If she doesn't want me as her master, fine by me. You can have her for all I care."
Tsubasa's face flashed in my mind and I saw something—concern or pain?
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"Stop reading my mind!" Yumi snapped at me, I lightly smirked at his own reaction, his eyes were closed tightly, hands by his hair and jaw clenched.
"You read mine, why can't I read yours?" I asked nonchalantly, I raised my hand to call the waiter and the waiter arrived, fast service, I thought. "Ready to order or shall I order for you Yumi-san?"
The waiter smiled at me the brightest he can give me, God I'm gonna die if he smiles at me like that for an hour. "French onion soup." He muttered darkly. I feigned surprise as I placed my menu down.
"I thought you wanna cool yourself down Yumi?"
"I changed my mind." He said quietly, I glanced at the waiter and gave him my order strawberry parfait without the cherry on top; I don't like cherries, personally.
"I'll have green tea." He added all of a sudden, the waiter nodded, took the menu and strode away.
"So what do you wanna talk about Yumi?" I played with the napkin dispenser then looked at him.
"Have—have you ever been in love?" he was looking so seriously at me that I almost coughed my lungs out. "Seriously Sakura, I'm asking you."
"Yumi, do I look like I've fallen in love already at this damned age?" I glared at him, "why have you gotten hooked right now?"
"I-I don't know…" he looked at his hands then smiled. I raised my eyebrows and was about to say something when our orders arrived, French soup was served in front of him whereas my parfait stood up boldly.
"Itadikamasu!" I happily placed my spoon into the ice cream and giggled, this is the best treat ever.
"Are you falling in love with anybody?" he asked again. I rolled my eyes and shook my head.
"No. never. Yumi cut the crap. Are you falling?"
"If I tell you yes would you laugh?"
I gave him a funny look then shrugged. "Why would I, I won't earn anything from that right?"
He considered this for a moment then sighed, "Yes I'm hooked up."
"With?" I asked smiling widely.
"Hopefully not with this stupid girl here." Icy voice filled my ears as I sat up rigidly. I didn't dare turn around knowing it was him, knowing it was Natsume—Hyuuga Natsume. "you're love for her is not worth it."
Koko swallowed hard and then stared deeply into my eyes—"not with Anna Mikan, with Sumire."
Then I felt myself shake in anger
I felt betrayed.
It felt so awful.
"Meeting later Koko, don't waste you're time here." Then I saw and felt it, my parfait melted in front of my eyes and the French onion soup turned as cold as ice. I fixed Yumi a look. He looked back solemnly.
"How could you?"
A/N: update finished! Reviews as usual! Pm me whoever the 300th person would be! I'll see you all next time if I still update! Btw my birthday's coming up! Greet me in friendster!
Arigato!
Broken hearted…
Love is a four letter word that broke my heart so bad.
I don't want to believe in love anymore.
I don't want to believe in happily ever afters anymore.
Suika-Chan